Chapter 13—The Journey Home
It was Monday evening. At about the time that Smiley returned to his hotel after his interview with Mr Cardew, Tim Perkins, the Head of Fielding's house, was taking his leave of Mrs Marlowe, who taught him the 'cello. She was a kindly woman, if neurotic, and it distressed her to see him so worried. He was quite the best pupil that Carne had sent her, and she liked him.
'You played foully today, Tim,' she said as she wished him good-bye at the door, 'quite foully. You needn't tell me—you've only got one more Half and you still haven't got three passes in A Level and you've got to get your remove, and you're in a tizz. We won't practise next Monday if you don't want—just come and have buns and we'll play some records.'
'Yes, Mrs Harlowe.' He strapped his music-case on to the carrier of his bicycle.
'Lights working, Tim?'
'Yes, Mrs Harlowe.'
'Well, don't try and beat the record tonight, Tim. You've plenty of time till Boys' Tea. Remember the lane's still quite slippery from the snow.'
Perkins said nothing. He pushed the bicycle on to the gravel path and started towards the gate.
'Haven't you forgotten something, Tim?'
'Sorry, Mrs Harlowe.'
He turned back and shook hands with her in the doorway. She always insisted on that.
'Look, Tim, what is the matter? Have you done something silly? You can tell me, can't you? I'm not Staff, you know.'
Perkins hesitated, then said:
'It's just exams, Mrs Harlowe.'
'Are your parents all right? No trouble at home?'
'No, Mrs Harlowe; they're fine.' Again he hesitated, then: 'Good night, Mrs Harlowe.'
'Good night.'
She watched him close the gate behind him and cycle off down the narrow lane. He would be in Carne in a quarter of an hour; it was downhill practically all the way.
Usually he loved the ride home. It was the best moment of the week. But tonight he hardly noticed it. He rode fast, as he always did; the hedge raced against the dark sky and the rabbits scuttled from the beam of his lamp, but tonight he hardly noticed them.
He would have to tell somebody. He should have told Mrs Harlowe; he wished he had. She'd know what to do. Mr Snow would have been all right, but he wasn't up to him for science any longer, he was up to Rode. That was half the trouble. That and Fielding.
He could tell True—yes, that's who he'd tell, he'd tell True. He'd go to Miss Truebody tonight after evening surgery and he'd tell her the truth. His father would never get over it, of course, because it meant failure and perhaps disgrace. It meant not getting to Sandhurst at the end of next Half, it meant more money they couldn't afford…
He was coming to the steepest part of the hill. The hedge stopped on one side and instead there was a marvellous view of Sawley Castle against the night sky, like a backcloth for Macbeth . He loved acting—he wished the Master let them act at Carne.
He leant forward over the handlebars and allowed himself to gather speed to go through the shallow ford at the bottom of the hill. The cold air bit into his face, and for a moment he almost forgot… Suddenly he braked; felt the bike skid wildly beneath him.
Something was wrong; there was a light ahead, a flashing light, and a familiar voice calling to him urgently across the darkness.