Despite this pleasant distraction, my mind returned to Cihad2000, and I remembered that, due to his hysteria, I hadn’t found out why the name Faruk Hanoğlu had appeared among the telephone records he’d downloaded for me. Well, even if I had asked for information, it wasn’t as though he’d have had the presence of mind to furnish it. Once he calmed down, I’d have to dangle the prospect of a session with Pamir in front of him; that way, he’d be sure to cooperate.

The boys over at the next table were still busily eyeing me, no doubt making lewd comments as they guffawed and carried on. Rambunctious laughter wasn’t the only thing radiating from their table; there was also the primal scent of male sexuality, an almost palpable perfume of lust and desire. Those who recognize it can’t help being affected. There’s something about boys that age, something raw, rapacious, and dizzying: libidos spinning out of control.

Unleashed libidos or not, I had more important things to do, chief among them phone calls to Ali, to find out if he had any news, and to Ponpon, to get her to arrange a meeting with the Hanoğlu family. I went into the café to use the telephone.

The phone was in the back, in a quiet corner just outside the toilets. First, I dialed the number for the office. Figen, the miserable secretary, picked up, her voice that of someone about to fade into oblivion.

“I need to speak to Ali Bey at once,” I said.

“Yes, of course,” she droned. “But I’ll have to put you on hold. His line’s busy. He must be on the phone.”

A show of her efficiency was not what I required from Figen at that moment.

“Figen, I’m calling from a pay phone. I can’t wait. Interrupt him; it’s urgent.”

I was astonished by the note of panic in my own voice.

“Well if he gets mad, it’s not my fault. If he yells at me you better tell him it was all your idea.”

“I will,” I snapped. “Now hurry up and do what you’re told!”

“Fine, give me a second to go and tell him you’re on the line. I’ll have to put you on hold,” she said, as though I needed a blow-by-blow account of switchboard procedure.

The line automatically switched to Ali’s CD player and Leonard Cohen singing “I smile when I’m angry” reached my ears. I attempted to do just that.

As I waited with a meaningless, tense, and completely artificial smile on my face, I glanced up to see the dark boy approaching me. He was taller and thinner than I’d thought. Although he looked slightly bashful, he was striding toward me with an air of purpose. I had no doubt that as he bore down on me he was rehearsing what he’d say.

I realized too late that the fake smile was still on my lips. I’d been caught.

“Hello,” he said.

He had shiny, well-shaped lips.

My boss spoke to me at the same moment the boy did, Leonard Cohen suddenly replaced by Ali’s tense voice.

“What is it?”

The boy’s eyes were on me, his ears pricked to catch everything I said. I was nearly at a loss for words.

“I think we have a serious problem,” I managed, simultaneously producing a little smile for the boy. Old Leonard was right, of course, but I wondered if the boy realized that anger can also produce a smile. I didn’t want him to get the wrong idea.

“A problem? What do you mean? We got the job done, didn’t we? They’ve even deposited our money.”

It was just like Ali to use “we” and “our” even though it was “me” who had done all the work and who would face the consequences.

I could smell the fresh sweat of the boy an arm’s length away. He’d hung his head in a show of bashfulness, but the eyes peeping out at me from below his eyebrows were bold and proud. And the half smile was as cocky as could be.

Covering the receiver with a hand, “It’s confidential,” I told him. “I won’t be long,” I added, as though he was in line waiting for the phone.

“Hello? I can’t hear you. What’s wrong? Like I told you, they’ve even paid up. Let’s not spoil things now.”

“Didn’t I tell you to find out who the client was? I’m coming to the office. We’ll talk there. Yes, the job went off without a hitch. But that’s just the problem.”

I could tell the boy wasn’t listening to what I was saying, only looking me up and down hungrily. It wasn’t what I was saying, it’s what I was that intrigued him. His right hand was fumbling around in the pocket of his charcoal trousers. When he noticed my eyes had shifted, involuntarily drawn to the action, he increased his toying.

Muttering a few more words, I hung up the phone. Ali still had no idea what I was talking about, but he soon would.

“I’m sorry to keep you waiting, dear,” I said.

The “dear” had slipped out of my mouth somehow.

“It’s not important. No problem…”

He grinned.

He was standing right in front of me. I was pinned in the corner, and forced to take a step toward him as I tried to get out. He didn’t budge.

“Can we talk?”

If I refused him on the spot, there would be a scene, and I’d end up harassed by the whole lot of them.

“Not right now, I’m afraid,” I said. “You heard me on the phone. I’ve got to go to work.”

“We like you. We think you’re really something.”

Why the “we”? Was he going to propose a group?

“That’s very kind, but I’m afraid I haven’t got the time for…”

“We’re all crazy about you. Couldn’t you help us out?”

Yes, it was an orgy he had in mind.

“Well, I never!” I bridled, not sounding entirely convincing or at all outraged.

He felt secure enough to take another step toward me. Inches apart, I could now smell his mint chewing gum. Having undressed me, his eyes, feverish and full of urgency, moved on to doing unspeakable things to my person.

“It won’t take long.”

His open desire was seductive, his bravado repulsive; I was wedged between the two. But his fresh masculinity, youthful brazenness, and fumbling hand were getting the better of me. He emanated a raw animal lust rarely seen in older men, who normally play by the rules and care for conventions.

“A friend of mine lives nearby. His place is free. It’s safe. We could go right now.”

He was taller than me. I was impressed by the way he stood, the way he carried himself. He had a narrow face but broad shoulders. I had no doubt that his stomach was flat and his bottom tight and well-rounded. Even standing there in a shapeless school uniform his wiry body promised so much. He swallowed, his well-developed Adam’s apple rising and falling. His fingers were long and tapered. How could I resist?

“I’m not interested in the others,” I said. “Just you.”

He relaxed, relieved that I’d caved in so soon. He was now more confident than ever.

“But it’d be rude to my friends,” he said.

I have no tolerance for being treated like the neighborhood whore. But the boy was a dish, and he’d gotten my blood flowing. Fortune had smiled on me, and I didn’t want to spend the rest of the day horny and full of regret. I decided to flatter him.

“What do you mean ‘rude’? You’re the only one I like. And you’re the only one I want to be with.”

“They’re good guys. And one of them’s hung like you wouldn’t believe. Like in those dirty movies. Come on, it won’t take long. They’re dying to be with you. They’re only kids! Don’t leave them high and dry… Please, do what you can…”

“Stop insisting. It’s not going to happen!”

“What’s the big deal? If there’s someone you don’t like you don’t have to do anything. No one’s going to push you. Just suck on it, or let them rub against you. Some of them have no experience. They just about lost it when they saw you.”

“Oh, and I suppose you are experienced?”

He smiled wickedly.

“You don’t know me yet,” he said. “I’ve been together lots of times.”

“Where and how?”

“At the cinema… at the hamam… with some friends from the beer house. I also met a couple of people on the Internet…”