“I’m going in there,” she said to her husband.

Seth said, “Wait a minute. Just hold on.”

“I can go in,” she said, “but you can’t. It’s there for me. I know it. I don’t want you to stop me; get out of the way.”

She stood before the small door, reading the gold letters that adhered to the glass. Introductory chamber open to all qualified visitors, the door read. Well, that means me, she thought. It’s speaking directly to me. That’s what it means by “qualified.”

“I’ll go in with you,” Seth said.

Mary Morley laughed. Go in with her? Amusing, she thought; he thinks they’ll welcome him in the witchery. A man. This is only for women, she said to herself; there aren’t any male witches.

After I’ve been in there, she realized, I’ll know things by which I can control him; I can make him into what he ought to be, rather than what he is. So in a sense I’m doing it for his sake.

She reached for the knob of the door.

Ignatz Thugg stood off to one side, chuckling to see their antics. They howled and bleated like pigs. He felt like walking up and sticking them but who cared? I’ll bet they stink when you get right up close to them, he told himself. They look so clean and underneath they stink. What is this poop place? He squinted, trying to read the jerky letters.

Hey, he said to himself. That’s swell; that’s where they have people hop onto animals for youknowwhat. I always wanted to watch a horse and a woman make it together; I bet I can see that inside there. Yeah; I really want to see that, for everyone to watch. They show everything really good in there and like it really is.

And there’ll be real people watching who I can talk to. Not like Morley and Walsh and Frazer using fatass words that’re so long they sound like farting. They use words like that to make it look like their poop don’t stink. But they’re no different from me.

Maybe, he thought, they have fat asses, people like Babble, making it with big dogs. I’d like to see some of these fatassed people in there plugging away; I’d like to see that Walsh plugged by a Great Dane for once in her life. She’d probably love that. That’s what she really wants out of life; she probably dreams about it.

“Get out of the way,” he said to Morley and Walsh and Frazer. “You can’t go in there. Look at what it says.” He pointed to the words painted in classy gold on the glass window of the small door. Club members only. “I can go in,” he said, and reached for the knob.

Going swiftly forward, Ned Russell interposed himself between them and the door. He glanced up at the class-one building, saw then on their various faces separate and intense cravings, and he said, “I think it would be better if none of us goes in.”

“Why?” Seth Morley said, visibly disappointed. “What could be harmful in going into the tasting room of a winery?”

“It’s not a winery,” Ignatz Thugg said, and chortled with glee. “You read it wrong; you’re afraid to admit what it really is.” He chortled once again. “But I know.”

“‘Winery’!” Maggie Walsh exclaimed. “It’s not a winery, it’s a symposium of the achievement of man’s highest knowledge. If we go in there we’ll be purified by God’s love for man and man’s love for God.”

“It’s a special club for certain people only,” Thugg said.

Frazer said, with a smirk. “Isn’t it amazing, the lengths people will go to in an unconscious effort to block their having to face reality. Isn’t that correct, Russell?”

Russell said, “It’s not safe in there. For any of us.” I know now what it is, he said to himself, and I am right. I must get them—and myself—away from here. “Go,” he said to them, forcefully and sternly. He remained there, not budging.

Some of their energy faded.

“You think so, really?” Seth Morley said.

“Yes,” he said. “I think so.”

To the others, Seth Morley said, “Maybe he’s right.”

“Do you really think so, Mr. Russell?” Maggie Walsh said in a faltering voice. They retreated from the door. Slightly. But enough.

Crushed, Ignatz Thugg said, “I knew they’d close it down. They don’t want anyone to get any kickers out of life. It’s always that way.”

Russell said nothing; he stood there, blocking the door, and patiently waiting.

All at once Seth Morley said, “Where’s Betty Jo Berm?” Merciful God, Russell thought, I forgot her. I forgot to watch. He turned rapidly and, shielding his eyes, peered back the way they had come. Back at the sunlit, midday river.

She had seen again what she had seen before. Each time that she saw the Building she clearly made out the vast bronze plaque placed boldly above the central entrance.

As a linguist she had been able to translate it the first time around. Mekkis, the Hittite word for power; it had passed into the Sanskrit, then into Greek, Latin, and at last into modern English as machine and mechanical. This was the place denied her; she could not come here, as the rest of them could.

I wish I were dead, she said to herself.

Here was the font of the universe… at least as she understood it. She understood as literally true Specktowsky’s theory of concentric circles of widening emanation. But to her it did not concern a Deity; she understood it as a statement of material fact, with no transcendental aspects. When she took a pill she rose, for a brief moment, into a higher, smaller circle of greater intensity and concentration of power. Her body weighed less; her ability, her motions, her animation—all functioned as if powered by a better fuel. I burn better, she said to herself as she turned and walked away from the Building, back toward the river. I am able to think more clearly; I am not clouded over as I am now, drooping under a foreign sun.

The water will help, she said to herself. Because in water you no longer have to support your heavy body; you are not lifted into greater mekkis but you do not care; the water erases everything. You are not heavy; you are not light. You are not even there.

I can’t go on dragging my heavy body everywhere, she said to herself. The weight is too much. I cannot endure being pulled down any longer; I have to be free.

She stepped into the shallows. And walked out, toward the center. Without looking back.

The water, she thought, has now dissolved all the pills I carry; they are gone forever. But I no longer have any need for them. If I could enter the Mekkisry… maybe, without a body, I can, she thought. There to be remade. There to cease, and then begin all over. But starting at a different point. I do not want to go over again what I have gone over already, she told herself.

She could hear the vibrating roar of the Mekkisry behind her. The others are in there now, she realized. Why, she asked herself, is it this way? Why can they go where I can’t? She did not know.

She did not care.

“There she is,” Maggie Walsh said, pointing. Her hand shook. “Can’t you see her?” She broke into motion, became unfrozen; she sprinted toward the river. But before she reached it Russell and Seth Morley passed her, leaving her behind. She began to cry, stopped running and stood there, watching through fragmented bits of crystal-like tears as Thugg and Wade Frazer caught up with Seth Morley and Russell; the four men, with Mary Morley trailing after them, rapidly waded out into the river, toward the black object drifting slightly toward the far side.

Standing there, she watched them carry Betty Jo’s body from the water and up onto land. She’s dead, she realized. While we argued about going into the Wittery. Goddam it, she thought brokenly. Then, halting, she made her way toward the five of them who now knelt around B .J. ‘s body, taking turns at giving mouth-to-mouth resuscitation.