Maati considered this, waiting for his heart to rise in anger or
shrivel, but it only beat in its customary rhythm. He wondered when it
had stopped mattering to him, the father of the boy he'd lost. Since the
last time he had spoken with Utah in the high stone cell, certainly, but
looking back, he couldn't put a moment to it. If the boy was his get or
Utah's, neither would bring him back. Neither would undo the years gone
by. And there were other things that he had that he might still lose, or
else save.
"I thought I was going to die," Otah said. "I thought it wouldn't matter
to me, and if it gave you some comfort, then ..."
"Let it go," Maati said. "If there's anything to be said about it, we
can say it later. There are other matters at hand."
"Have you found something, then?"
"I have a family name, I think. Certainly there's someone putting money
and influence behind the Vaunyogi."
"Likely the Galts," Otah said. "They've been making contracts bad enough
to look like bribes. We didn't know what influence they were buying."
"It could be this," Nlaati said. "Do you know why they'd do it?"
"No," Otah said. "But if you've proof that the Vaunyogi are behind the
murderers-"
"I don't," Maati said. "I have a suspicion, but nothing more than that.
Not yet. And if we don't uncover them quickly, they'll likely have Adrah
named Khai Machi and have the resources of the whole city to find you
and kill you for crimes that everyone outside this warehouse assumes you
guilty of."
They sat in silence for the space of three breaths.
"Well," Otah-kvo said, "it appears we have some work to do then. But at
least we've an idea where to look."
IN HER DREAM, II)AAN WAS AT A CELEBRATION. FIRE BURNED IN A RING ALL
around the pavilion, and she knew with the logic of dreams that the
flames were going to close, that the circle was growing smaller. They
were all going to burn. She tried to shout, tried to warn the dancers,
but she could only croak; no one heard her. 't'here was someone there
who could stop the thing from happening-a single man who was Cehmai and
Otah and her father all at once. She beat her way through the bodies,
trying to find him, but there were dogs in with the people. The flames
were too close already, and to keep themselves alive, the women were
throwing the animals into the fire. She woke to the screams and howls in
her mind and the silence in her chamber.
The night candle had failed. The chamber was dim, silvered by moonlight
beyond the dark web of the netting. The shutters along the wall were all
open, but no breath of air stirred. Idaan swallowed and shook her head,
willing the last wisps of nightmare into forgetfulness. She waited,
listening to her breath, until her mind was her own again. Even then she
was reluctant to sleep for fear of falling into the same dream. She
turned to Adrah, but the bed at her side was empty. He was gone.
"Adrah?"
"There was no answer.
Idaan wrapped herself with a thin blanket, pushed aside the netting and
stepped out of her bed-her new bed. Her marriage bed. The smooth stone
of the floor was cool against her bare feet. She walked through the
chambers of their apartments-hers and her husband'ssilently. She found
him sitting on a low couch, a bottle beside him. A thick earthenware
bowl on the floor stank of distilled wine. Or perhaps it was his breath.
"You aren't sleeping?" she asked.
"Neither arc you," he said. The slurred words were half accusation.
"I had a dream," she said. "It woke me."
Adrah lifted the bottle, drinking from its neck. She watched the
delicate shifting mechanism of his throat, the planes of his cheeks, his
eyes closed and as smooth as a man asleep. Her fingers twitched toward
him, moving to caress that familiar skin without consulting him on her
wishes. Coughing, he put down the wine, and the eyes opened. Whatever
beauty had been in him, however briefly, was gone now.
"You should go to him," Adrah said. Perversely, he sounded less drunk
now. Idaan took a pose of query. Adrah waved it away with the sloshing
bottle. "The poet boy. Cehmai. You should go to him. See if you can get
more information."
"You don't want me here?"
"No," Adrah said, pressing the bottle into her hand. As he rose and
staggered past her, Idaan felt the insult and the rejection and a
certain relief that she hadn't had to find an excuse to slip away.
The palaces were deserted, the empty paths dreamlike in their own way.
Idaan let herself imagine that she had woken into a new, different
world. As she slept, everyone had vanished, and she was walking now
alone through an empty city. Or she had died in her sleep and the gods
had put her here, into a world with nothing but herself and darkness. If
they had meant it for punishment, they had misjudged.
The bottle was below a quarter when she stepped under the canopy of
sculpted oaks. She had expected the poet's house to he dark as well, but
as she advanced, she caught glimpses of candle glow, more light than a
single night candle could account for. Something like hope surged in
her, and she slowly walked forward. The shutters and door were open, the
lanterns within all lit. But the wide, still figure on the steps wasn't
him. Idaan hesitated. The andat raised its hand in greeting and motioned
her closer.
"I was starting to think you wouldn't come," Stone-Made-Soft said in its
distant, rumbling voice.
"I hadn't intended to," Idaan said. "You had no call to expect me."
"If you say so," it agreed, amiably. "Come inside. He's been waiting to
see you for days."
Going up the steps felt like walking downhill, the pull to be there and
see him was more powerful than weight. The andat stood and followed her
in, closing the door behind her and then proceeding around the room,
fastening the shutters and snuffing the flames. Idaan looked around the
room, but there were only the two of them.
"It's late. He's in the back," the andat said and pinched out another
small light. "You should go to him."
"I don't want to disturb him."
"He'd want you to."
She didn't move. The spirit tilted its broad head and smiled.
"He said he loves me," Idaan said. "When I saw him last, he said that he
loved me."
"I know."