Vanjit took a pose that was a promise and an expression of gratitude.
The quiet sobs as she walked away made Maati feel smaller. If they had
been in a city, he would have gone to a bathhouse or some public square,
listened to beggars singing on the corners and bought food from the
carts. He would have tried to lose himself for a while, perhaps in wine,
perhaps in music, rarely in gambling, and never in sex. At the school,
there was no escape. He walked out, leaving the stone walls and memories
behind him. Then the gardens. The low hills that haunted the land west
of the buildings.
He sat on the wind-paved hillside, marking the passage of the sun across
the afternoon sky, his mind tugged a hundred different ways. He had been
too harsh with Vanjit, or not harsh enough. The binding of Wounded was
overworked or not deeply enough considered, doomed or on the edge of
being perfected. Ashti Beg had been in the wrong or justified or both.
He closed his eyes and let the sunlight beat down on them, turning the
world to red.
In time, the turmoil in his heart calmed. A small, blue-tailed lizard
scrambled past him. He had chased lizards like it when he'd been a boy.
He hadn't recalled that in years.
It was folly to think of poets as different from other men. Other women,
now that Vanjit had proved their grammar effective. It was that mistake
which had made the school what it was, which had deformed the lives of
so many people, his own included. Of course Vanjit was still subject to
petty jealousy and pride. Of course she would need to learn wisdom, just
the same as anyone else. The andat had never changed who someone was,
only what they could do.
He should have taught them that along with all the rest. Every now and
again, he could have spent an evening talking about what power was, and
what responsibility it carried. He'd never thought to do it, he now
realized, because when he imagined a woman wielding the power of the
andat, that woman was always Eiah.
Maati made his way back as the cold afternoon breeze set the trees and
bushes rustling. He found the kitchen empty but immaculate. The broken
cutting stone had been replaced with a length of polished wood, but
otherwise everything was as it had been. His students, he found under
Eiah's command in the courtyard. They were raking the fallen leaves into
a pit for burning and resetting a half-dozen flagstones that had broken
from years of frost, tree roots, and neglect. Vanjit knelt with Large
Kae, lifting the stones from the ground. Clarity-of-Sight nestled in
Irit's lap, its eyes closed and its mouth a perfect O. Ashti Beg, her
vision clearly restored, was by Small Kae's side, a deep pile of russet
leaves before them.
"Maati-kvo," Eiah said, taking a pose of greeting, which he returned.
The others acknowledged him with a smile or simple pose. Vanjit turned
away quickly, as if afraid to see anger still in his expression.
He trundled to a rough boulder, resting against it to catch his breath.
Irit joined him and, without a word, passed the andat to him. It
stirred, groaned once, and then turned to nestle its face into his
robes. The andat had no need of breath. Maati had known that since he
had first met Seedless over half a century earlier. Clarity-of-Sight's
deep, regular sighs were manipulations, but Maati welcomed them. To hold
something so much like a child but as still as the dead would have
unnerved him.
Irit especially talked in light tones, but no one seeing them would have
guessed that one of the group had been swinging a knife at another
earlier in the day. Apart from a mutually respected distance between
Ashti Beg and Vanjit, there was no sign of unease.
Large Kae and Small Kae left to prepare a simple meal just as Eiah put
the torch to the pit of leaves. The flames rose, dancing. Pale smoke
filled the air with the scent of autumn, then floated into the sky while
the rest of them watched: Vanjit and Eiah, Ashti Beg, Irit, Maati and
Clarityof-Sight, who was also Blindness. The andat seemed captivated by
the flames. Maati stretched his palm out to the fire and felt the heat
pushing gently back.
They ate roasted chicken and drank watered wine. By the end of the meal,
Vanjit was smiling again. When the last wine bowl was empty, the last
thin, blood-darkened bone set bare on its plate, she was the first to
rise and gather the washing. Maati felt a relief that surprised him. The
trouble had passed; whether it had been Vanjit's pride or Ashti Beg's
jealousy, it didn't matter.
To show his approval, Maati joined in the cleaning himself, sweeping the
kitchen and building up the fire. In place of the usual lecture, they
discussed the difficulties of looking too long at a binding. It came out
that all of them had felt some disquiet at the state of Eiah's work.
Even that was reassuring.
He and Eiah sat together after the session ended. A small kettle smelled
equally of hot iron and fresh tea. The wind was picking up outside, cold
and fragrant with the threat of rain or snow. By the warm light of the
fire grate, Eiah looked tired.
"I'll leave in the morning," Eiah said. "I want to beat the worst of the
weather, if I can."
"That seems wise," Maati said and sipped his tea. It was still scalding
hot, but its taste was comforting.
"Ashti Beg wants to come with me," she said. "I don't know what to do
about that."
He put down his bowl.
"What are you thinking?" he asked.
"That she might leave. After today, I'm afraid she's been soured on the
work."
Maati snorted and waved the concern away.
"She'll move past it," Maati said. "It's finished. Vanjit overstepped,
and she's seen it. I don't think Ashti's so petty as to hold things past
that."
"Perhaps," Eiah said. "You think I should take her with me, then?"
"Certainly. There's no reason not to, and it will give you another pair
of hands on the road. And besides, we're a school, not a prison. If she
truly wants to leave, she should be able to."
"Even now?" Eiah asked.
"What option do we have?" Maati asked. "Chain her to a tree? Kill her?
No, Eiah-kya. Ashti Beg won't abandon the work, but if she does, we have
no choice but to let her."
Eiah was silent for five slow breaths together. When she looked up, he
was surprised by her grim expression.
"I still can't quite bring myself to believe Vanjit did that."
"Why not?"
Eiah frowned, her hands clasped together. Some distant shutter's ties
had slipped; wood clapping against stone. A soft wind pushed at the