Chapter XXIX
Gerda Rolled over to the side of the bed and sat up.
Her head felt a little better now but she was still glad that she hadn't gone with the others on the picnic. It was peaceful and almost comforting to be alone in the house for a bit.
Elsie, of course, had been very kind-very kind-especially at first. To begin with, Gerda had been urged to stay in bed for breakfast, trays had been brought up to her.
Everybody urged her to sit in the most comfortable armchair, to put her feet up, not to do anything at all strenuous.
They were all so sorry for her about John.
She had stayed, cowering gratefully in that protective dim haze. She hadn't wanted to think, or to feel, or to remember.
But now, every day, she felt it coming nearer-she'd have to start living again, to decide what to do, where to live. Already Elsie was showing a shade of impatience in her manner. "Oh, Gerda, don't be so slow!"
It was all the same as it had been-long ago, before John came and took her away.
They all thought her slow and stupid. There was nobody to say, as John had said, "I'll look after you."
Her head ached and Gerda thought, I'll make myself some tea.
She went down to the kitchen and put the kettle on. It was nearly boiling when she heard a ring at the front door.
The maids had been given the day out.
Gerda went to the door and opened it. She was astonished to see Henrietta's rakishlooking car drawn up to the curb and Henrietta herself standing on the doorstep.
"Why, Henrietta!" she exclaimed. She fell back a step or two. "Come in. I'm afraid my sister and the children are out but-"
Henrietta cut her short.
"Good. I'm glad. I wanted to get you alone. Listen, Gerda, what did you do with the holster?"
Gerda stopped. Her eyes looked suddenly vacant and uncomprehending. She said,
"Holster?"
Then she opened a door on the right of the hall.
"You'd better come in here. I'm afraid it's rather dusty. You see, we haven't had much time this morning-"
Henrietta interrupted again urgently.
She said, "Listen, Gerda, you've got to tell me. Apart from the holster everything's all right-absolutely watertight. There's nothing to connect you with the business. I found the revolver where you'd shoved it into that thicket by the pool. I hid it in a place where you couldn't possibly have put it-and there are finger-prints on it which they'll never identify. So there's only the holster; I must know what you did with that?"
She paused, praying desperately that
Gerda would react quickly.
She had no idea why she had this vital sense of urgency, but it was there. Her car had not been followed-she had made sure of that. She had started on the London road, had filled up at a garage and had mentioned that she was on her way to London. Then, a little further on, she had swung across country until she had reached a main road leading south to the coast.
Gerda was still staring at her. The trouble with Gerda, thought Henrietta, was that she was so slow.
"If you've still got it, Gerda, you must give it to me. I'll get rid of it somehow. It's the only possible thing, you see, that can connect you now with John's death. Have you got it?"
There was a pause and then Gerda slowly nodded her head.
"Didn't you know it was madness to keep it?" Henrietta could hardly conceal her impatience.
"I forgot about it. It was up in my room."
She added, "When the police came up to | Harley Street I cut it in two and put it in the bag with my leather work."
Henrietta said, "That was clever of you."
Gerda said, "I'm not quite so stupid as everybody thinks."
She put her hand up to her throat. She said, "John-John-" Her voice broke.
Henrietta said, "I know, my dear, I know."
Gerda said, "But you can't know… John wasn't-he wasn't-" She stood there, dumb and strangely pathetic. She raised her eyes suddenly to Henrietta's face. "It was all a lie-everything! All the things I thought he was! I saw his face when he followed that woman out that evening. Veronica Cray! I knew he'd cared for her, of course, years ago, before he married me, but I thought it was all over."
Henrietta said gently:
"But it was all over."
Gerda shook her head.
"No. She came there and pretended that she hadn't seen John for years-but I saw John's face… He went out with her. I went up to bed. I lay there trying to read-I tried to read that detective story that John was reading. And John didn't come. And at last I went out…"
Her eyes seemed to be turning inwards seeing the scene.
"It was moonlight. I went along the path to the swimming pool. There was a light in the pavilion. They were there-John and that woman…"
Henrietta made a faint sound.
Gerda's face had changed-it had none of its usual slightly vacant amiability. It was remorseless, implacable.
"I'd trusted John. I'd believed in him- as though he were God. I thought he was the noblest man in the world-I thought he was everything that was fine and noble… And it was all a lie! I was left with nothing-nothing at all. I-I'd worshipped John!"
Henrietta was gazing at her fascinated.
For here, before her eyes, was what she had guessed at and brought to life, carving it out of wood. Here was The Worshipper-blind devotion thrown back on itself, disillusioned-dangerous. …
Gerda said, "I couldn't bear it! I had to kill him! I had to-you do see that, Henrietta?"
She said it quite conversationally, in an almost friendly tone.
"And I knew I must be careful because the police are very clever. But then I'm not really as stupid as people think! If you're very slow and just stare, people think you don't take things in-and sometimes, underneath, you're laughing at them! I knew I could kill John and nobody would know because I'd read in that detective story about the police being able to tell which gun a bullet has been fired from. Sir Henry had shown me how to load and fire a revolver that afternoon. I'd take two revolvers. I'd shoot John with one and then hide it and let people find me holding the other and first they'd think Fd shot him and then they'd find he couldn't have been killed with that revolver and so they'd say I hadn't done it after all!"
She nodded her head triumphantly.
"But I forgot about the leather thing. It was in the drawer in my bedroom. What do you call it, a holster? Surely the police won't bother about that now?"
"They might," said Henrietta. "You'd better give it to me, and I'll take it away with me. Once it's out of your hands, you're quite safe."
She sat down. She felt suddenly unutterably weary.
Gerda said, "You don't look well. I was just making tea."
She went out of the room. Presently she came back with a tray. On it was a teapot, milk jug and two cups. The milk jug had slopped over because it was overfull. Gerda put the tray down and poured out a cup of tea and handed it to Henrietta.
"Oh, dear," she said, dismayed, "I don't believe the kettle can have been boiling."
"It's quite all right," said Henrietta. "Go and get that holster, Gerda."
Gerda hesitated and then went out of the room. Henrietta leant forward and put her arms on the table and her head down on them. She was so tired, so dreadfully tired … But it was nearly done now. Gerda would be safe… as John had wanted her to be safe.
She sat up, pushed the hair off her forehead and drew the teacup towards her. Then at a sound in the doorway she looked up.
Gerda had been quite quick for once.
But it was Hercule Poirot who stood in the doorway.
"The front door was open," he remarked as he advanced to the table, "so I took the liberty of walking in."
"You!" said Henrietta. "How did you get here?"
"When you left The Hollow so suddenly, naturally I knew where you would go. I hired a very fast car and came straight here."
"I see." Henrietta sighed. "You would."
"You should not drink that tea," said Poirot, taking the cup from her and replacing it on the tray. "Tea that has not been made with boiling water is not good to drink."
"Does a little thing like boiling water really matter?"
Poirot said gently, "Everything matters."
There was a sound behind him and Gerda came into the room. She had a workbag in her hands. Her eyes went from Poirot's face to Henrietta's.
Henrietta said quickly:
"I'm afraid, Gerda, I'm rather a suspicious character. M. Poirot seems to have been shadowing me. He thinks that I killed John-but he can't prove it."
She spoke slowly and deliberately. So long as Gerda did not give herself away-Gerda said vaguely, "I'm so sorry. Will you have some tea, M. Poirot?"
"No, thank you, Madame."
Gerda sat down behind the tray. She began to talk in her apologetic conversational way.
"I'm so sorry that everybody is out. My sister and the children have all gone for a picnic. I didn't feel very well, so they left me behind."
"I am sorry, Madame."
Gerda lifted a teacup and drank.
"It is all so very worrying. Everything is so worrying… You see, John always arranged everything and now John is gone…" Her voice tailed off. "Now John is gone…"
Her gaze, piteous, bewildered, went from one to the other.
"I don't know what to do without John.
John looked after me… He took care of me. Now he is gone, everything is gone…
And the children-they ask me questions and I can't answer them properly. I don't know what to say to Terry. He keeps saying, 'Why was Father killed?5 Some day, of course, he will find out why… Terry always has to know. What puzzles me is that he always asks why, not who!"
Gerda leaned back in her chair. Her lips were very blue.
She said stiffly:
"I feel-not very well-if John-John-"
Poirot came round the table to her and eased her sideways down in the chair. Her head dropped forward. He bent and lifted her eyelid. Then he straightened up.
"An easy and comparatively painless death."
Henrietta stared at him.
"Heart? No." Her mind leaped forward.
"Something in the tea… Something she put there herself. She chose that way out?"
Poirot shook his head gently.