I considered Amenemhab's «permission» to not feel bad about feeling so good. He made it sound like I deserved fabulous intimacy. While I was wary of how that mind-set could be a catch-all excuse to authorize all kinds of bad choices, my heart trimmed it down to simply: "It's okay to accept what good things come freely into your life."

Johnny had chosen to be part of my life, and if we shared something genuine and fabulous, I was a fool to oppose it. With that understanding came acceptance and recognition of how integral he'd become to my life. He wasn't just my "beach," he was becoming the firmament, the bedrock of my life. Our lives. Nana's and Beverley's too.

And here I was, missing what might be the biggest performance of his life.

It was obvious I wasn't going to get to sleep anytime soon. Why not surprise him, catch the gig, and deliver a few kisses not subject to the countdown? There was time. Then I could get some decent sleep before the morning.

Out of bed and on my feet, I went to the mirror. This was not the face of a potential rock star's girlfriend, and my hair needed help too. Just clipping it back was too harsh, so I switched to an elegant twist with some tendrils pulled out that softened the angles of my cheekbones. A little color on my cheeks, around my eyes, on my lips. Better. But my hair was still too «up» for rock'n'roll. I pulled more tendrils free in the back. A lot more; my hair has Greek-heritage thickness.

After I chose a tight pair of black jeans, my eyes scrutinized the closet in search of a shirt. What shirt said, "Forgive me for being scared"? A black, low-cut, push-up bra under a black long-sleeved lace shirt was a good start. I added a suit jacket. No, still shows more than I want to reveal. My dressy velvet vest worked. A hint of bra showed where the vest's V dipped, and the lace shirt stretched just right to accentuate my breasts. The long black leather blazer worked well as an overcoat. I grabbed my low-heeled black boots.

Carrying them from my room, I expertly avoided the squeaky steps on my way down.

I'd left the car in the drive, so, after making it quietly to the front door, I put my boots on while standing on the porch. Inside, the sound of the heels might have woken Nana.

Movement and shuffling in the corn caught my attention as I walked to the car. I paused for a moment and peered toward the field. I didn't often get to glimpse the deer, and tonight was no different. They had fled back into the woods.

In the car, I cranked the heater and headed for I-71.

I'd been to the Rock Hall enough times that finding it was no problem. Since this was a private event, there was ample and easily accessible parking. Even from outside I could hear the buzz of a band playing. However, they stopped before I could make it inside.

While waiting at the coat check, I watched people and evaluated the scene. A cash bar was set up to my right, and people were approaching it from my left, so logic dictated that the bands must be playing somewhere to the left. After winding through the lobby and walking under four wild little cars suspended from the ceiling that U2 used in their Zootopia tour, I discovered a stage set in a kind of alcove, just to the left of a central escalator.

It seemed the space was a perfect stage; the shape of the area would amplify the music and push it toward the crowd, a mixture of aging hipsters and younger rockophiles dressed in everything from designer duds to vintage tees and, of course, plenty of denim and black.

I took the escalator up to get a view, and found that from the moving stairway I could see behind the stage. The members of the band that had just finished were loitering in front of a propped-open door marked Green Room. I wondered if Johnny, Erik, and Feral were all in there waiting, warming up.

Checking the other direction, I glimpsed executive types, all chic in their dress-down business clothes at a gathering of tables perched at the edge of the loftlike overhang of the second story. Unlike the rest of us, they had wait service for their drinks. Most of them were making calls or texting on phones and BlackBerries. A few even had netbooks or laptops. They were separated from the mingling viewers by tall, curtained partitioning. Then the escalator plopped me onto the overhang and the recording-industry pros went out of sight. Two bouncer types stood before the curtained doorway. A silver-edged stand held a sign that read Special Guests Only. There was room, however, for people to watch the show or pass by as they wandered toward exhibits.

Curious about the show and hoping to catch a peek at Johnny before he went onstage, I stood at the rail watching stagehands remove some pieces of equipment and bring other equipment on. They hooked up endless cables, switched out microphones, and started a sound check. Much more went into even a short showcase than I'd thought.

There wasn't much else to see, unless I wanted to start roaming the exhibits. I checked my watch. There was time. Aimlessly sauntering past a few of the glass cases, I took in the vintage guitars, old concert posters, tickets, authentic stage clothes of various artists, and other memorabilia.

With my enhanced sense of smell, I caught a whiff of a scent I'd not noticed before. A combined odor, something like—

"Rock'n'roll with a touch of elegance." The voice came from behind me.

I turned.

Goliath.

I should have recognized the voice. It was as unmistakable as his luminous skin and eyes the color of summer forget-me-nots. His hair, so pale it was nearly white, was fastened back in a ponytail, and his scarecrow-thin body was adorned with a black suit, black shirt, and a tie that matched his eyes.

The scent had nothing to do with the exhibits. It emanated from Goliath. Though mostly hidden under masculine cologne designed to mask the stink, my increased olfactory capacity amplified the mixed aromas. All vampires smelled like rotting leaves. Well, all but one. Goliath's master, Menessos, had no scent.

His eyes flicked up and down my body, lingering at the V of my vest where the edge of my bra showed through the lace. I refused to feel uncomfortable before his scrutiny, though; he'd seen me topless—not by my doing—during the ritual that saved Theo, so this was conservative in comparison.

"Rock'n'roll with a touch of elegance?"

"Your attire. The master would approve of this ensemble on you. Or off you." The vampire leered.

"I couldn't care less."

He eased closer. Goliath embodied intensity, a vibrant aura of energy and violence that shimmered all around him like a neon sign flashing Danger: Stay Back 100 Feet. "You should care," he said. "His approbation is quite valuable."

I stood my ground, despite his six-foot-four intimidation. "You would know."

"That I do." The right hand of his master, Goliath had been selected and stolen from his home as a child because he had extraordinarily high intelligence. Menessos had him trained as an assassin and Goliath had become a very effective tool in the vampire's arsenal.

"How is Beverley?" he asked. Despite his murderous servitude to his master, I'd also seen Goliath be very tender toward Beverley. Goliath had been dating Lorrie before she was murdered and seemed to be genuinely fond of her child.

"Good," I said. "She likes the new school. Nobody there seems to know about her mother, so she can just be a kid. She's made some friends, does her homework without much fuss, and I expect her grades will be very good. We made jack-o'-lanterns yesterday."

"Is she dealing with her grief or bandaging it?"

"A little of both, I think." That he bothered to ask any of this further confirmed his affection for Beverley. "Some days are better than others, but we work through it." I paused. "She does all the kid stuff she's supposed to do, then something will remind her of Lorrie and she cries. I let her and we talk."