Guilt for long ago abandoning his parents didn't drive him anymore. Nor was it just sorrow in returning the remains of his father to his mother. Longing was still part of it, remembering a mother's gentle touch and firm lilting voice, and how these made his first life bearable for a while. But it had taken the memories that Chap stole from Brot'an in Darmouth's family crypt to make Leesil face much of the truth.
Darmouth had used him. And Brot'an had wielded him like the bone knife Leesil gouged deep into Darmouth's throat. If that moment had been the end of it, he might have put those bloody events behind him. He'd done it before.
But he began to see the pattern of his life, to understand the reason for his existence.
His life had been engraved by the scheme of a grandmother he never knew-Eillean. Even his own father must have had a hand in it, for Gavril had gone along with Nein'as insistence. Leesil couldn't escape what he was-what his mother had made him.
A weapon.
He wanted to look her in the eyes and know the reasons for all she'd done to him, everything she'd trained him to be.
Wynn stumbled along in front of him. Beyond her, Magiere now led the way with the renewed crystal in hand. Somewhere farther on, Chap tried to sniff their way out, for the trail of berries had ended far behind them.Too far to turn back with no food left. Leesil hoped they had made the right decision following Chap.
The tunnel forked again.
Chap shifted anxiously between the mouths of the two passages. He sniffed the stone floor, staring down each in turn. The dog stood silent for so long that Leesil came out of his own dark thoughts, and then Chap trotted off down the right fork without looking back.
"I hope he knows what he's doing," Magiere muttered.
They moved on, and time dragged in this place without day or night. Leesil's shoulders ached from the chest's ropes biting into them. He'd sunk into himself once more when Chap suddenly stopped.
"What now?" Leesil asked, and peered around a too-silent Wynn.
Magiere felt cold inside standing behind Chap in tense silence. But it wasn't from the tunnel's chill. She resisted looking back at Leesil. He'd driven them hard with his desperation, but he drove himself even harder.
Their food was gone, and they'd been on half rations for longer than she could reckon. Their situation was dire, and they all knew it.
Chap lowered his head with a growl.
Magiere dropped her pack to the tunnel floor. She reached over her right shoulder and gripped the falchion's hilt where she'd strapped it to her back.
"What is it?" Leesil demanded in a hushed voice.
Chap let out a whine, then snorted as if some scent in the air had clogged his nose.
"Chap?" she whispered.
His ears pricked up, and he whined again, but it sounded more disgruntled than alarmed.
A light scratching carried up the tunnel from below.
"We are not alone," Wynn whispered.
Magiere drew her falchion, holding the crystal out with her other hand.
Beyond the light's reach, a pair of shimmers appeared in the dark. They bobbed up and down as the soft sound of claws on stone came nearer. The paired shimmers rose slightly from the floor. The dark shape of a small creature formed around them.
No larger than a house cat, its body was elongated like a weasel or ferret. A stubby tail, darker than its bark-colored fur, twitched erratically as it sat up on its hindquarters.
Around its eyes and down its pug muzzle spread a black mask of fur. Wide ears perked up with small tufts of white hairs on their points. Its strangest features were its tiny forepaws. Less like paws and more like small hands, they ended in stubby little fingers with short claws.
"Oh no!" Wynn breathed out.
Magiere had to look back. The astonishment on Wynn's features melted to loathing.
Chap shifted to the tunnel's side opposite the little beast.
"What is that?" Magiere asked.
"Tashgalh!" Wynn said. "And Leesil can swear at it all he wants!"
"Is it poisonous or something?" Magiere asked.
Wynn wrinkled her nose. "No, it's not-"
Chap growled, but he didn't close on the creature. He snapped his jaws threateningly and it dashed straight up the tunnel's side wall to the ceiling.
Magiere shoved Wynn back and held out her blade at the animal.
It clung there as if standing upside down on the tunnel's craggy roof. With one quick hiss at Chap, it turned its attention back toward Magiere. It began to coo at her, like a dove, and swayed slightly as its head bobbed with excitement.
Magiere carefully aimed the cold lamp crystal for a better look, and its black, glassy eyes followed the movement.
"Oh no, not on your mangy little life!" Wynn yelled, and ducked around Magiere to snatch the crystal. Then she scooped up a loose stone and threw it at the creature. "That is mine!"
Chap scurried back as the stone went wide, bouncing from one tunnel wall to the other.
The tashgalh hopped sideways across the ceiling, trying to regain sight of the crystal. Wynn pulled the glowing stone behind her back with a groan.
"We will never get rid of the little beast."
"What is it?" Magiere demanded.
"Its name means finder of lost things," Wynn answered. "A rather polite wording. They are nothing but incorrigible little thieves. It will follow us and dig through our belongings the moment we are asleep… now that it has seen something pretty that it fancies."
Chap jumped at the tashgalh, his barks filling the tunnel with echoes.
"You see?" Wynn shouted over the noise. "Chap knows the trouble they make."
"Quiet down, Chap," Leesil yelled.
The tashgalh darted back and forth across the ceiling, trying to stay out of reach but maintain sight of its coveted item. Chap kept barking as he lunged up one wall or the other. The little creature screeched at him, then raced along an arc down the tunnel wall and back the way it had come.
"How many of these things could be in the tunnels?" Leesil demanded. "And how do you know this animal? Magiere, will you shut that dog up!"
Magiere shot him an angry glance. When she turned to do as he'd asked, all she saw of Chap was his swishing tail as he took off after the fleeing animal.
"They do not live in caves," Wynn said. "They live in…"
Wynn spun about, staring wide-eyed down the tunnel. Before Magiere could demand a better answer, Wynn took off in a headlong rush after Chap.
"Wait! What are you doing?" Magiere called.
"They do not live in caves," Wynn shouted back. "They live in forests."
Magiere grabbed up her pack and slung it over one shoulder, preparing to run Wynn down before the sage added to her injuries in some stumbling fall.
"Forests?" Leesil repeated.
Magiere stared down the tunnel. The bobbing light of Wynn's crystal grew smaller as her voice echoed back up the passage.
"Elven forests!"
Chap raced after the tashgalh. The dark tunnel made it almost impossible to see his quarry, and he followed mostly by sound. The instant he had seen the little creature, he knew what its presence meant, but he had no way to tell the others. All he could do was terrify it enough to flee for its life.
The tashgalh went silent, and Chap skidded to a stop, listening. Then he heard its paws scraping on stone ahead.
He had seenits like twice when he was a pup in the elven lands. Majay-hi did not hunt tashgalh, for the little pests were a clever breed and easier prey was available. He could smell its fear of him, knew it wondered why he came after it, but this pursuit could not be helped. He knew it would run for the familiar safety of the forest.
Another scent filled his nose over theanimals musky fear and the passage's stale odor.
Pine… and wet earth… and warm, humid air.