Guillaume looked almost apologetic, caught in a grief too complex to articulate. `I know it's stupid,' he said. `Only a dog, as the cure said. Stupid to make a song and dance about it.’

`Not so,' broke in Armande unexpectedly. `A friend is a friend. And Charly was a good one. Don't expect Reynaud to understand about that kind of thing.’

Guillaume gave her a grateful look. `It's kind of you to say so.’

He turned towards me. `And you too, Madame Rocher. You tried to warn me last week, but I wasn't ready to listen. I suppose I imagined that' by ignoring the signs I could somehow make Charly survive indefinitely.’

Armande watched him with an odd expression in her black eyes. `Sometimes survival is the worst alternative there is,' she observed mildly.

Guillaume nodded. `I should have taken him earlier,' he said. `Given him a bit of dignity.’

His smile was painful in its nakedness. `At least I should have spared us both that last night.’

I was unsure what to say to him. In a way I don't think he needed me to say anything. He just wanted to talk. I avoided the usual cliches and said nothing. Guillaume finished his florentine and gave another of his terrible, wan smiles.

`It's dreadful,' he said, `but I have such an appetite. I feel as if I haven't eaten for a month. I've just buried my dog and I could eat a-' He broke off in confusion. `It feels terribly wrong somehow,' he said. `Like eating meat on Good Friday.’

Armande gave a cackle of laughter and laid a hand on Guillaume's shoulder. Beside him she looked very solid, very capable. `You come with me,' she ordered. `I've got bread and rillettes, and a nice Camembert just about ready for eating. Oh, and, Vianne' – turning to me with an imperious gesture – `I'll have a box of those chocolate things, what are they? Florentines? A nice big box.’

That at least I can provide. Small comfort, perhaps, to a man who has lost his best friend. Secretly, with my fingertip, I traced a little sign on the lid of the box for luck and protection.

Guillaume began to protest, but Armande cut him short. `Rubbish!' She was unanswerable, her energy infusing the wan little man in spite of himself. `What are you going to do otherwise? Sit in your house and mope?’

She shook her head emphatically. `No. It's been a long time since I entertained a gentleman friend. I'll enjoy it. Besides,' she added reflectively, `there's something I want to talk to you about.’

Armande gets her way. It's virtually a maxim. I watched them both as I wrapped the box of florentines and tied it with long silver ribbons. Guillaume was already responding to her warmth, confused but gratified. `Madame Voizin'

Firmly: 'Armande. Madame makes me feel so old.’

'Armande.’

It is a small victory.

`And you can leave that behind, too.’

Gently she disentangles the dog's lead from around Guillaume's wrist. Her sympathy is robust but un-patronizing. `No point carrying useless ballast. It won't change a thing.’

I watch as she manoeuvres Guillaume out of the doorway. Pausing halfway, she gives me a wink. A wave of sudden affection for them both submerges me. Then out into the night.

Lying in bed hours later, watching the sky's slow wheeling from our attic window, Anouk and I are still awake. Anouk has been very solemn since Guillaume's visit, showing none of her usual exuberance. She has left the door between us open, and I wait for the inevitable question with a feeling of dread; I asked it myself often enough in those nights after Mother died, and I am still none the wiser. But the question does not come. Instead, long after I am sure she is asleep, she creeps into my bed and tucks a cold hand into mine.

'Maman?’ She knows I am awake. `You won't die, will YOU71 I give a soft laugh in the dark. No-one can promise that,' I tell her gently.

`Not for a long time, anyway,' she insists. `Not for years and years.’

`I hope not.’

`Oh.’

She digests this for a moment, turning her body comfortably into the curve of mine. `We live longer than dogs, don't we?’

I agree that we do. Another silence.

`Where do you think Charly is now, Maman?’

There are lies I could tell her; comforting lies. But I find I cannot. `I don't know, Nanou. I like to think – we start again. In a new body that isn't old or sick. Or in a bird, or a tree. But no-one really knows.’

`Oh.’ The little voice is doubtful. `Even dogs?’

`I don't see why not.’

It is a fine fantasy. Sometimes I find myself caught up in it, like a child in her own invention; find myself seeing my mother's vivid face in that of my little stranger.

Brightly: `We should find Guillaume's dog for him, then. We could do it tomorrow. Wouldn't that make him feel better?’

I try to explain that it isn't as easy as that, but she is determined. 'We could go to all the farms and find out which dogs have had puppies. D'you think we'd be able to recognize Charly?’

I sigh. I should be used to this tortuous track by now. Her conviction reminds me so much of my mother that I am close to tears. `I don't know.’

Stubbornly- `Pantoufle would recognize him.’

`Go to sleep, Anouk. School tomorrow.’

`He- would. I know he would. Pantoufle sees everything.’

`Shh.’

I hear her breathing slow at last. Her sleeping face is turned to the window, and I can see starlight on her wet eyelashes. If I could only be certain, for her sake. But there are no certainties. The magic in which my mother believed so implicitly did not save her in the end; none of the things we did together could not have been explained by simple coincidence. Nothing is so easy, I tell myself; the cards, candles, incense, incantations merely a child's trick to keep away the dark. And yet it hurts me to think of Anouk's disappointment. In sleep her face is serene, trustful. I imagine us on tomorrow's fool's errand, inspecting puppies, and my heart gives a wrench of protest. I should not have told her what I couldn't prove…

Carefully, so as not to wake her, I slip out of bed. The boards are smooth and cold beneath my bare feet. The door creaks a little as I open it, but though she murmurs something in her sleep, she does not wake. I have a responsibility, I tell myself. Without wanting to, I have made a promise.

My mother's things are still there in her box, packed in sandalwood and lavender. Her cards, herbs, books, oils, the scented ink she used for scrying, runes, charms, crystals; candles of many colours. But for the candles I would rarely open the box. It smells too strongly of wasted hope. But for Anouk's sake – Anouk who reminds me so much of her – I suppose I must try. I feel a little ridiculous. I should be sleeping, regaining my strength for a busy day tomorrow. But Guillaume's face haunts me. Anouk's words make sleep impossible. There is danger in all of this, I tell myself desperately; in using these almost forgotten skills I enhance my otherness and make it all the more difficult for us to stay.

The habit of ritual, so long abandoned, returns with unexpected ease. Casting the circle – water in a, glass, a dish of salt and a lit candle on the.floor is almost a comfort, a return to days when everything had a simple explanation… I sit cross-legged on the floor, closing my eyes, and let my breathing slow.

My mother delighted in rituals and incantations. I was less willing. I was inhibited, she would tell me with a chuckle. I feel very close to her now, eyes shut and with the scent of her in the dust on my fingers. Perhaps that is why tonight I find this so easy. People who know nothing of real magic imagine it to be a flamboyant process. I suspect this is why my mother, who loved theatrics, made such a show of it. And yet the real business is very undramatic; simply the focusing of the mind towards a desired objective. There are no miracles, no sudden apparitions. I can see Guillaume's dog perfectly clearly in my mind's eye, gilded with that glow of welcome, but no dog appears in the circle. Perhaps tomorrow, or the day after, a seeming coincidence, like the orange chair or the red bar-stools we imagined on our first day. Perhaps nothing will come.