The gate swung open, and they passed through, and as the barrier swung shut again, Nickie growled.
The dog stood behind them in the cargo space. She looked left, right, and then forward through the windshield. The growl was low but not brief. She held it in her throat, then let it deepen, as though warning something off that didn’t take the first growl seriously enough to suit her.
Braking to a stop, Brian said, “Maybe the fog spooks her.”
“Maybe,” Amy said. “Where are the security people Vanessa said would sweep the car, us, and Nickie?”
“She said it’s still a mile and a half to his place. There’s probably a more formal guardhouse somewhere ahead.”
The car drifted forward. Amy said, “Wait.” Brian stopped again.
Amy turned in her seat, said “Move” to Nickie, and snatched her carryall from the back. She opened a zipper, withdrew the SIG P245.
“If it’s feeling funky to you,” he said, “we can turn around, drive past the gate. The open ground’s rough but passable.”
“I don’t know how it feels. I have to trust furface here.”
At the sight of the pistol, the golden stopped growling.
Amy said, “We know Vanessa’s sick. How sick, do you think?”
“She’s too in love with herself to do anything too stupid.”
“That’s the calculation I made when I wondered whether I should bring a gun. I decided I didn’t need it. Yet here it is in my hand.”
He nodded. “Let’s go back.”
“No.”
“You just said-”
“Here’s the thing. There’s a pattern. I lost a girl, and you lost a girl. Mine is gone forever. Yours isn’t, but she may be soon.”
Nickie whined, as though to suggest urgency and to add emphasis to Amy’s use of the word soon.
“But they want us to take her,” Brian said.
“The pattern includes things unseen. That night, Michael wasn’t in Argentina, he was right there, I didn’t know. The alarm system appeared to be engaged, a secret override disarmed it.”
Phantoms of fog shaped all the monsters of myth.
“Vanessa’s rich boy is waiting with documents, a fat checkbook,” Amy continued. “But he’s a thing unseen, maybe he doesn’t exist.”
“We agreed her story made sense.”
“The pattern is clearer now. In Connecticut, I thought I might get a golden. If I’d had one, it would have warned me, saved us.”
As if on cue, Nickie growled again.
“We have a golden now,” Amy said. “And not just any golden.”
“For sure, not just any. She’s…something.”
“I had a phone call from a dead nun.”
“Is this a Marco-and-his-blind-dog moment?”
“The dog isn’t blind. I told myself Just a dream. I knew better. Sister Jacinta said tell you about my girl, how I lost her.”
“Okay, that’s it, we go back to the county road, call the cops.”
“No. Vanessa expects us in a few minutes. The fog explains a short delay, not a long one. I’ve got a bad feeling, Brian.”
“Yeah. It’s infectious.”
“Truth is, I’ve had a bad feeling the whole way here.”
“You didn’t say.”
“Because it was maybe the only chance to find your girl. Let’s go a little farther.”
The amorphous white tissue of the late afternoon parting as if to the thrust of a blade, healing at once behind, enfolding on every side things unseen…
Amy said, “If something about this does stink, and she thinks we smell it, she’ll kill Hope.”
“Where do you get that from?”
“Intuition. Pattern. What Theresa said.”
“Theresa?”
“She told her mother the dog’s name was always Nickie. Always.”
In the deep swamp of fog, half-seen trees, bearded and strange, prehistoric and insectile, looming then gone…
Amy said, “You and me forever, Brian. Isn’t that where we are?”
“God, I hope it is. It’s what I want.”
“So if it’s you and me, and Hope is yours, then Hope is mine, too. Our daughter. I couldn’t save my own girl. Not back then.” Her voice pulled tight, didn’t break. “But two nights ago I saved her.”
“Amy…?”
“I saved her, and now she’s helping us save Hope.”
He coasted toward a stop. “Amy, you don’t mean…”
“Keep moving.” She held the pistol in both hands, palms dry, ready. “Whatever I mean, this is a second chance for both of us. If we fail to take it, the levels of Hell don’t go deep enough to give us what we’ll deserve.”
Into the last white-blind minutes before twilight, when the mist will darken to murk…
Brian said, “So it’s this again.”
“This?”
“Tagging after you into crazy-violent, tire-iron, jumping-on-the-table places.”
Chapter 62
Like ten thousand people whispering in the distance.
Standing with his back to the fissured trunk of a pine, Billy strove to silence the sea, but the sea had no respect for Billy.
Not only had the stupid simile changed how he perceived the sound of the surf, but it also led him to the further conviction that those ten thousand people were whispering his name.
Everybody liked Billy. Likability had always been his most valuable asset. But the ten thousand people out there in the fog, down on the shore, were not whispering his name in a friendly way. The muttering multitudes were angry, hostile, and eager.
He didn’t know what they were eager for, and he refused to think further about it, because they weren’t people, damn it, just waves.
What he needed to do was come up with a simile that would push his stuck mind on to a more pleasant image.
Muffled by fog, the breaking surf sounded like…
Muffled by fog, the breaking surf sounded like…
A condensation of fog soaked his thin hair and beaded on his face. Just fog, not a cold sweat.
Muffled by fog, the breaking surf sounded like ten thousand of Billy’s friends whispering about what a great guy he was.
Pathetic. He might be having a midlife crisis, but he was still the old Billy, a tough guy, a funny guy, a guy who embraced the truth of truths, that nothing matters, nothing except how to get what you want.
He had read all the great deathworks, he had read Finnegans Wake three times, three times, he had decanted all those brilliant beautiful scalding ideas into his head, thousands of volumes of deathworks, and because you are the ideas you pour into yourself, he had in a sense been killed by what he read, was already dead to any truth except the truth that no truths exist. Having died in this way, he had no fear of death, no fear of anything, and he certainly did not fear breaking surf that sounded like ten thousand people whispering in the distance!
With one hand he wiped at his wet face.
How could a drawing of a dog give a guy a midlife crisis?
He cocked his head and listened for the sound of an engine.
He thought that he heard the Expedition approaching. Then the fog stole that sound, though it kept paying out the susurrations of the sea.
Nickie growled, Amy said “Stop,” and Brian braked on the rising road.
Denser than any waves before it, a tide of fog poured down from a crest unseen, as formless as dreams, as weightless as air yet as solid as alabaster, pressing the vehicle as if to encapsulate and fossilize it.
Here in a snowless whiteout, where nothing beyond the Expedition could be seen, where nothing layered upon nothing, Amy Redwing was perhaps at an ultimate place, deep in the immortal primordial, where faith mattered so much that she dared rely on nothing else.
Nickie let out a faint sigh, and Amy felt the equivalent of a sigh in the centrum of her soul, an expelled breath of resignation to the power of fate.
“How far yet?” she asked.
“Just over half a mile.”
“She’s lying. We’re close.”