conversation. The sun hung in the sky, gold in lapis.
"I'd forgotten what it was like to be myself," Cehmai said. His voice
was low and thoughtful and melancholy. "Just myself and not him as well.
I was so young when I took control of him. It's like having had someone
strapped to your back when you were a child and then suddenly lifting
off the burden. I feel alone. I feel freed. I'm shamed to have failed,
even though I know there was nothing I could have done to keep hold of
him. And I regret now all the years I could have stink Galt into ruins
that I didn't."
"But if you could have him back, would you?"
The pause that came before Cehmai's reply meant that no, he would have
chosen his freedom. It was the answer Maati had expected, but not the
one he was ready to accept.
"The Khai may be able to save the Dai-kvo," Cehmai said. "He may get
there before the Galts."
"But if he doesn't?"
"Then I would rather have Stone-Made-Soft back than decorate the end of
some Galtic spear," Cehmai said, a grim humor in his voice. "I have some
early work. Drafts from when I was first studying him. There are places
where the options ... branched. If we used those as starting points, it
would make the binding different from the one I took over, and we still
wouldn't have to begin from first principles."
"You have them here?"
"Yes. They're in that basket. There. You should take them back to the
library and look them over. If we keep them here I'm too likely to do
something unpleasant with them. I was half-tempted to burn them last night."
Maati took the pages-small, neat script on cheap, yellowing
parchment-and folded them into his sleeve. The weight of them seemed so
slight, and still Maati found himself uncomfortably aware of them and of
the return to a kind of walking prison that they meant for Cehmai.
"I'll look them over," Maati said. "Once I have an idea what would be
the best support for it, I'll put some reading together. And if things
go well, we can present it all to the Dai-kvo when he arrives.
Certainly, there's no call to do anything until we know where we stand."
"We can prepare for the worst," Cehmai said. "I'd rather be pleasantly
surprised than taken unaware."
The resignation in Cehmai's voice was hard to listen to. Maati coughed,
as if the suggestion he wished to make fought against being spoken.
"It might be better ... I haven't attempted a binding myself. If I were
the one ..."
Cehmai took a pose that was both gratitude and refusal. Maati felt a
warm relief at Cehmai's answer and also a twinge of regret.
"He's my burden," Cehmai said. "I gave my word to carry StoneMade-Soft
as long as I could, and I'll do that. I wouldn't want to disappoint the
Khai." Then he chuckled. "You know, there have been whole years when I
would have meant that as a sarcasm. Disappointing the Khaiem seems to be
about half of what we do as poets-no, I can't somehow use the andat to
help you win at tiles, or restore your prowess with your wives, or any
of the thousand stupid, petty things they ask of us. But these last
weeks, I really would do whatever I could, not to disappoint that man. I
don't know what's changed."
"Everything," Maati said. "Times like these remake men. They change what
we are. Otah's trying to become the man we need him to he."
"I suppose that's true," Cehmai said. "I just don't want this all to be
happening, so I forget, somehow, that it is. I keep thinking it's all a
sour dream and I'll wake out of it and stumble down to play a game of
stones against Stone-Made-Soft. That that will be the worst thing I have
to face. And not ..."
Cehmai gestured, his hands wide, including the house and the palaces and
the city and the world.
"And not the end of civilization?" Maati suggested.
"Something like that."
Nlaati sighed.
"You know," he said, "when we were young, the man who was Daikvo then
chose Otah to come train as a poet. He refused, but I think he would
have been good. He has it in him to do whatever needs doing."
Killing a man, taking a throne, marching an army to its death, Nlaati
thought but did not say. Whatever needs doing.
"I hope the price he pays is smaller than ours," Cehmai said.
"I doubt it will he."
14
Balasar had not been raised to put faith in augury. His father had
always said that any god that could create the world and the stars
should he able to put together a few well-formed sentences if there was
something that needed saying; Balasar had accepted this wisdom in the
uncritical way of a boy emulating the man he most admires. And still,
the dream came to him on the night before he had word of the hunting party.
It was far from the first time he had dreamt of the desert. Ile felt
again the merciless heat, the pain of the satchel cutting into his
shoulder. The hooks he had home then had become ashes in the dream as
they had in life, but the weight was no less. And behind him were not
only Coal and Eustin. All of them followed him-Bes, NIayarsin, Little
Ott, and the others. The dead followed him, and he knew they were no
longer his allies or his enemies. They came to keep watch over him, to
see what work he wrought with their blood. They were his judges. As
always before, he could not speak. His throat was knotted. Ile could not
turn to see the dead; he only felt them.
But there seemed more now-not only the men he had left in the desert,
but others as well. Some of them were soldiers, some of them simple men,
all of them padding behind him, waiting to see him justify their
sacrifices and his own pride. The host behind him had grown.
He woke in his tent, his mouth dry and sticky. Dawn had not yet come. He
drank from the water flask by his bed, then pulled on a shirt and simple
trousers and went out to relieve himself among the bushes. The army was
still asleep or else just beginning to stir. The air was warm and humid
so near the river. Balasar breathed deep and slow. lie had the sense
that the world itself-trees, grasses, moon-silvered clouds-was heavy
with anticipation. It would he two weeks before they would come within
sight of the river city Udun. By month's end another poet would be dead,
another library burned, another city fallen.
"Thus far, the campaign had proved as simple as he had hoped, though
slower. He had lost almost no men in Nantani. The low towns that his
army had come across in their journey to the North had emptied before