Elaine shook her head. "You make magic sound like a second being inside of me, with a will of its own."

"I do not mean to. It is not separate from you. It has no thoughts or feelings of its own." The wizard frowned, thinking. He smiled as if something pleasant or clever had just occurred to him. "Say you had a talent for sewing-not a learned talent, but something you were born with. You were born to be a seamstress, or a tailor. But you were never allowed to study sewing. Then one day you made a beautiful ball gown. A week later you made another even more lovely than the first.

"Now, if you'd been allowed to study sewing from a young age, you might have decided to sew ceremonial robes, or winter woolies, but because you left your talent unused, the talent chose to make ball gowns. You might be happier knitting shawls or designing simpler dresses for more modest occasions, but it is too late. Your sewing has decided to make party dresses for the rich."

He studied her face for a moment, as if trying to gauge whether his analogy was working.

"Why don't you know what I'm thinking now?" she asked.

His voice broke into a lovely grin. "Very good, Elaine, very good. When you drew away from me that last time, you closed off more than just your body. You closed your thoughts as well. It was neatly done. But I think the fact you so quickly figured out I could no longer read your thoughts is even more promising."

"But I don't know how I did it."

"Think to how your body felt when you drew back. Think of the sensations. What did it feel like?"

Elaine thought about that for a moment. Had it felt like anything? She couldn't remember. She had moved away from him physically, but had she done anything else? Elaine closed her eyes, trying to recall what it had felt like. The sensation along her skin had retreated when she moved backward. The magic itself had moved back with her, inside her. She had broken contact with Gersalius. She had closed off her mind and her magic to him. That was a comforting thought.

She opened her eyes.

"Tell me," the mage said.

Elaine told him what she had felt.

"You have a wondrous grasp for the basics. What a pupil you would be." His face was eager, as if he had just this minute invented her.

"What would it mean to be your pupil?" She was amazed at her own question. Was she really contemplating studying magic? Yes, she was.

"The more time you could spend with me, the faster you would learn. The faster you would be able to control your powers."

"Would I need to move to your home?"

"You would be most welcome, or I could move here. I would be willing to do that. Under normal circumstances with someone as quick to learn, I would teach from her home. I would not willingly separate a young mage from her family and friends."

The thought sat unspoken between them: these were not normal circumstances.

"Jonathan will never allow a mage to live under his roof."

"Even if it is you?"

Elaine shook her head violently, and her hair whipped across her face. She didn't want to think about it. "I don't know."

"If we could not convince him to let a strange mage live under his roof, perhaps it would be easier to accept after you are trained."

It was logical, but Jonathan's hatred of wizards was not logical.

Blaine called from the table, "It might work."

"And I thought we were having a private conversation," Gersalius said, but there was no anger to his voice.

Blaine came to stand beside them, grinning. "If you move in here, there are no private conversations."

"There is that small hut on the grounds," Konrad said. "We would help you make any repairs and move your things in."

"Do you really think Jonathan would allow a mage to live inside the fort walls?" Elaine stared up at the tall warrior. She tried to find some hint that he wouldn't have made this effort for just anyone, that it was special just for her. His face was unreadable. Could she read his thoughts, as Gersalius had read hers?

The mage lightly touched her hand. No magic, just enough contact to gain her attention. "I would not try it, were I you. We often find out things we do want to know. Besides, how do you think Jonathan would feel knowing you were already trying to use magic on members of the household?"

"You can read my thoughts again."

"I told you, strong emotions make it easier."

Konrad and Blaine were frowning from one to the other. "What are you two talking about?" Blaine asked.

Gersalius smiled. "If Master Ambrose will allow me to stay here, even in the little hut, I will do so. For such a student, I would leave my own snug home even in this snow."

"I'll speak with Tereza," Konrad said. "If anyone can convince Jonathan to say yes, it will be her."

"Do you think he will say yes?" Elaine asked. She leaned toward him, wanting to touch his folded hands, to touch his bare skin, and have it thrill him as it thrilled her.

Gersalius tapped her hand again. He shook his head ever so slightly. Elaine frowned at him. "I wasn't…"

"Untrained magic has a tendency to reach out for things desired," he said, so soft that perhaps no one else heard. Heat crept up her neck to her face. She found herself blushing furiously, angry that her emotions were so obvious. She glanced up at Konrad, but he seemed merely puzzled.

"Why is the magic coming now? Why not before?"

"It has been leaking round the edges for some time. I am here now and can tell you when it's happening, and what the power is trying to do. But it has been manifesting for some time."

Elaine thought about that-Wild magic floating around her body, reaching for what she desired. "Am I dangerous?"

"Mostly to yourself, right now. But that will change, Elaine. With or without training, that will change."

Fear chased over her skin like an icy wave. "I can't risk the people I care about, if Jonathan will not let you remain here, I will have to leave."

"And I'll go with you," Blaine said.

"No, Blaine, we can't both leave."

He had that stubborn set to his chin. "I won't let you go alone. You know that."

"No one is going anywhere," Konrad said. "I'll find Tereza. If you can wait until we get this settled, Master Gersalius?"

The mage bowed his head. "Gladly, if I can have some more of those excellent cookies."

Mala came forward with a newly filled plate. "We'll not lose our Elaine for Jonathan's stubbornness."

"No," Konrad said, "we won't." He turned and left the room in search of Tereza.

"I'd best go with him. You know Tereza has a hard time saying no to me." Blaine left with a grin and a wave, all confidence, at least on the outside.

Mala was stirring the big pot on the stove.

"Konrad would do it for any of us, wouldn't he?" Elaine asked softly."

"I fear so," Gersalius said.

"I'll be able to read his true feelings someday?"

The wizard's eyes held sadness, as if of some old, remembered pain. "In very short order, I'm afraid."

"Did you read his thoughts?"

"No, child, that is unethical unless it is another mage. If the person cannot read your own thoughts, then it is unfair, like reading a person's private letters."

"You don't think I'll like what I find, do you?"

"Truth between us from the very first, Elaine Claim. Mo, I don't think you'll like it."

Elaine looked away from his kind eyes. The fire glistened in unshed tears until the room danced in orange shadow. She closed her eyes, and a single tear trailed down each cheek. There were more pitfalls to learning magic than she had thought. She would learn how to read thoughts and feelings, and no matter how Gersalius cautioned her, Elaine knew someday she would read Konrad. She would not be able to resist. There would be no more guessing, no more hope, or fear, just the truth. And her heart would break, just like that.