After a couple of shots of whiskey she said,

"Hey Jan and Meg! Julie and I saved you guys from a whipping. The least you can do is go down on us."

I knew Jan hated this as she did not want anyone to think she was anyway close to being homosexual. Eventually with the boys cheering the idea and saying,

"We did not learn anything about whipping. Maybe we can learn how to do a good job of eating pussy." Jan came over and got between my legs and pulled my ass out to the edge of the seat, spread the lips of my pussy and began to roll her tongue around my clit. I was in heaven especially with Roy and David sucking and biting my nipples. Eventually they got too horny and David left to fuck Jan dog fashion while Roy pulled my mouth down onto his inflexible dong. I began to cum in earnest as Jan's mouth was forced into my pussy with David's lunges.

Then disaster struck. Joe and the guys celebrated winning the state basketball championship by getting roaring drunk and running head-on into an eighteen wheeler gas truck. Joe, Burt, Jim,and David were killed along with the truck driver. They were burned so badly the remains were cremated so I never got to see him again. I was devastated by grief and guilt for not going with him so I could have driven his car while they drank. To top everything off I aborted his child, evidentally from the trauma. I did not even know I was pregnant but this just added to the guilt. To make matters worse I couldn't face Terry and the other girls as they just reminded me of my loss and added to my guilt. I felt I had killed their lovers as well as my own.

A month later I was able to function again but my guilt became all- consuming. That friday I was called into Mr. Rogers office.

He told me that he realized I had been through an ordeal but the fact remained that I was flunking all my courses. He suggested I drop out for the rest of the year so I would receive incompletes instead of "F"s and perhaps get psychiatric help.

It suddenly dawned on me exactly what I needed. I was guilty so I must be punished. Not the kind of punishment I could get off on. Pure painful punishment to relieve my guilt. Since what they did to me was considered by them to be rather light punishment I was sure they could meet my needs. I raised my head to look into his eyes and said forcefully,

"No. You said I could earn grades with punishment. I want to earn all "A"s.

"I think that would be impossible. Let me pull up your records."

He then punched some keys on his computer and then made some calculations.

"Just as I thought. You would need 1,360 points to earn all "A"s. No- one could stand that much. However if you are serious I can tell your parents I can assign you to a special tutoring class where you live in and go to classes and study twelve hours per day because at best it would take three weeks to absorb that much punishment and recover from it. I don't recommend it but if you decide to do it I will give you this list of punishments and their point value. Don't let anyone see this list and bring it back tomorrow. Remember you can always settle for a "C" average."

"No I am going for the "A" if it kills me."

"Well we will certainly not kill you but if you are serious about the "A" you may wish you were dead."

I waited till I was alone in my room to look at his list. Maybe Miss Hauser was a Nazi butch dike. I couldn't imagine the sick mind that could come up with these tortures. It was easy to tell the most painful, at least in their opinion, by the point values. With a little calculation eliminating anything that might bring me some pleasure I began to think an "A" was out of sight. The more I thought about it the more I became convinced that if I was going to atone for killing Joe I had to go through with it. I spent hours going through the following list to come up with the necessary points for my "A".

POINT LIST INSTRUMENT AREA POINT VALUE Lashes with thong whip back area 1

chest 2

groin 3 Paddle buttocks 2

chest 4 cat o nine tails buttocks 4

chest 6

groin 8 barbed wire buttocks 6

chest 10

groin 12 Electric whip buttocks 10

chest 12

groin 15 Suspended solely by breasts 15 lashes while suspended double normal points hooks inserted 12 minimum 20 suspended by hooks 30 Lashes while suspended double normal value cigarette burns nipples 10 two burns to same place vaginal lips 10 triple value. clitoris 20 lashes to burned areas triple point value candle in vagina 80

If you have a question call 248-3200

I had questions. I looked up cat o nine tails in the encyclopedia. It looked like a larger version of the whip the guys had used to polka dot my body. If it was worse than that it was a likely candidate as I could barely stand the pain of the little one. there were no listings for the other things I did not know about. Mr. Rogers answered the phone and I told him I was going over the list and some things I didn't understand. What was an electric whip, How could I be suspended by my breasts, what are hooks, and why was a candle in my vagina so bad?

"The electric whip is my own invention. I hooked two lengths of barbed wire to a cattle prod. You get a lash and a shock at the same time.

You are suspended by your breasts by tightening ropes around the base of each breast and then raised into the air. The breasts become distended, quite hard and very sensitive to lashes. Incredible as it may sound Miss Hauser seems to enjoy it."

"I can hardly believe it is possible since Miss Hauser has such small breasts."

He laughed "Miss hauser has quite large breasts. She binds them with elastic bandage during school hours. She says that makes them very sensitive by the end of the day. But on to your questions. The hooks are regular deep sea fishing hooks. You will be happy to know I have ground off the barbs. If you haven't seen one they are a little bigger than a pencil lead."

"How could I be suspended by them? Wouldn't they just rip out of my skin?"

"Oh no. That is why there is a minimum of twelve. You only weigh about a hundred pounds so each hook only has to support about eight or nine pounds. As an experiment we applied pressure slowly to two hooks placed in Miss Hausers vagina lips. They stretched the skin several inches but the skin did not start to tear until there was forty pounds of pressure to each one. All but her head and feet left the ground.

In answer to your last question a drippy christmas candle is placed in your vagina while you are hung upside down. Not all the wax will hit your vagina at first. Some will land on your stomach and under your breasts. Later your anus and inner and outer vaginal lips will be covered. The candle goes out either from moisture from your vagina or when it is low enough for your lips to cover it and smother the flame. This is something normally saved for last as your vagina will be much too sensitive to be used for anything further for a few days."

With this information I could go back to studying the list. I decided to eliminate the thong whip since I had always been able to get pleasure from it no matter where or how long I was hit. I was determined I really had to suffer if I was to make amends.

I debated over the paddle. I remembered how it had bruised me when Joe had used it and he probably was not hitting as hard as they would. I decided that If I decided on it I would have to save it for last. Being whipped on a black and blue butt might be so bad I would have to chicken- out. I was sure it would cause permanent damage to my tits.It was obviously much to wide to get to my crotch.

That brought me to the "cat". I had been able to get off with Joe's small "cat" but the picture in the encyclopedia showed blood on the back of the man being whipped. I decided this was a possibility especially on my front. I decided to ask Mr. Rogers if this was an authentic "cat".