Illyan’s cool expression did not change. “Your track record so far in covert ops is not notably impressive for its successes, Lord Mark.”
“So, I’m not a brilliant combat field commander. I am not Miles. We all know that by now. How many of your other agents are?”
“If you are as, ah, incompetent as you have appeared, sending you would be a further waste. But suppose you are more sly than even I think. All your thrashing around here, a mere smokescreen.” Illyan could deliver the veiled insults too. Stiletto-sharp, right between the ribs. “And suppose you get to Miles before we do. What happens then?”
“What do you mean, what happens then?”
“If you return him to us as a room-temperature corpse, fit only for burying, instead of a cryo-stat hopeful—how will we know that was the way you found him? And you will inherit his name, his rank, his wealth, and his future. Tempting, Mark, to a man without an identity. Very tempting.”
Mark buried his face in his hands. He sat crushed, infuriated, and wildly frustrated. “Look,” he said through his fingers, “look. Either I’m the man who, by your theory, succeeded in half-assassinating Aral Vorkosigan and was so good I left no trace of proof—or I’m not. You can argue that I’m not competent enough to send. Or you can argue that I’m not trustworthy enough to send. But you can’t use both arguments at once. Pick one!”
“I await more evidence.” Illyan’s eyes were like stones.
“I swear,” Mark whispered, “excess suspicion makes us bigger fools than excess trust does.” It had certainly been true in his case. He sat up suddenly. “So fast-penta me.”
Illyan raised his brows. “Mm?”
“Fast-penta me. You never have. Relieve your suspicions.” Fast-penta interrogations could be excruciatingly humiliating experiences, by all reports. So what. What was one more humiliation in his life? Warm and familiar, that was what.
“I have longed to, Lord Mark,” Illyan admitted, “but your, ah, progenitor has a known idiosyncratic response to fast-penta that I assume you share. Not the usual allergy, exactly. It creates an appalling hyperactivity, a great deal of babble, but alas, no overwhelming compulsion to tell the truth. It is useless.”
“In Miles.” Mark seized the hope. “You assume? You don’t know! My metabolism is demonstrably not like Miles’s. Can’t you at least check?”
“Yes,” said Illyan slowly, “I can do that.” He pushed himself off from the wall, and exited the cubicle, saying, “Carry on. I’ll be back shortly.”
Tense, Mark rose and paced the little room, two steps each way. Fear and desire pulsed in his brain. The memory of the inhuman chill of Baron Bharaputra’s eyes clashed with hot rage in his throat. If you want to find something, look where you lost it. He’d lost it all on Jackson’s Whole.
Illyan returned at last. “Sit down and roll up your left sleeve.”
Mark did so. “What’s that?”
“Patch test.”
Mark felt a burr-like prickle, as Illyan pressed the tiny med-pad onto the underside of his forearm, then peeled it away. Illyan glanced at his chrono, and leaned on the comconsole, watching Mark’s arm.
Within a minute, there was a pink spot. Within two, it was a hive. Within five, it had grown to a hard white welt surrounded by angry red streaks that ran from his wrist to his elbow.
Illyan sighed disappointment. “Lord Mark. I highly recommend that you avoid fast-penta at all costs, in your future.”
“That was an allergic reaction?”
“That was a highly allergic reaction.”
“Shit.” Mark sat and brooded. And scratched. He rolled down his sleeve before he drew blood. “If Miles had been sitting here, reading these files, making these same arguments, would you have listened to him?”
“Lieutenant Vorkosigan has a sustained record of successes that compels my attention. Results speak for themselves. And, as you yourself have repeatedly pointed out, you are not Miles. You can’t use both arguments at once,” he added icily. “Pick one.”
“Why did you even bother letting me in here, if nothing I say or do can make any difference?” Mark exploded.
Illyan shrugged. “Aside from Gregor’s direct order—at least I know where you are and what you are doing.”
“Like a detention cell, except that I enter it voluntarily. If you could lock me in a cell without a comconsole, you’d be even happier.” “Frankly, yes.”
“Just. So.” Blackly, Mark switched the comconsole back on. Illyan left him to it.
Mark jumped out of his chair, stumbled to the door, and stuck his head out. Illyan’s retreating back was halfway down the corridor. “I have my own name now, Illyan!” Mark shouted furiously. Illyan glanced back over his shoulder, raised his brows, and walked on.
Mark tried reading another report, but it seemed to turn to gibberish somewhere between his eyes and his brain. He was too rattled to continue his analysis today. He gave up at last, and called Pym for a pick-up. It was still light out. He stared into the sunset, glimpsed between the buildings on the way home to Vorkosigan House, till his eyes burned.
It was the first time that week he had returned from ImpSec in time to join the Countess for dinner. He found her and Bothari-Jesek dining casually in a ground-floor nook that looked onto a sheltered corner of the garden, densely arranged with autumn flowers and plants. Spot lighting kept the display colorful in the gathering dusk. The Countess wore a fancy green jacket and long skirt, a Vor matron’s town wear; Bothari-Jesek wore a similar costume in blue obviously borrowed from the Countess’s wardrobe. A place was set for him at the table despite the fact that he hadn’t shown up for the meal for four straight days. Obscurely touched, he slid into his seat.
“How was the Count today?” he asked diffidently.
“Unchanged,” the Countess sighed.
As was the Countess’s custom, there was a minute of silence before they plowed in, which the Countess used for an inward prayer that Mark suspected involved more this day than calling blessings upon the bread. Bothari-Jesek and he waited politely, Bothari-Jesek meditating God-knew-what, Mark rerunning his conversation with Illyan in his head and evolving all the smarter things he should have said, too late. A servant brought food in covered dishes and departed to leave them in privacy, which was the way the Countess preferred it when not dining formally with official guests. Family style. Huh.
In truth, Bothari-Jesek had been lending the Countess the support of a daughter in the days since the Count’s collapse, accompanying her on her frequent trips to the Imperial Military Hospital, running personal errands, acting as confidant; Mark suspected the Countess had revealed more of her real thoughts to Bothari-Jesek than to anyone else, and felt a little inexplicable envy. As their favorite Armsman’s only child, Elena Bothari had been practically the Vorkosigans’ foster-daughter; Vorkosigan House had been the home in which she had grown up. So if he was really Miles’s brother, did that make Elena his foster-sister too? He would have to try the idea on her. And prepare to duck. Some other time.
“Captain Bothari-Jesek,” Mark began, after he’d swallowed the first couple of bites, “what’s going on with the Dendarii at Komarr? Or does Illyan keep you in the dark too?”
“He’d better not,” said Bothari-Jesek. To be sure, Elena had allies that outranked even the ImpSec commander. “We’ve done a little reshuffling. Quinn retained the chief eyewitnesses to your, um, raid—” land of her, not to use some more forthright term, like debacle, “Green Squad, part of Orange and Blue Squads. She’s sent everyone else off in the Peregrine under my second, to rejoin the fleet. People were getting itchy, cooped up in orbit with no downside leave and no duties.” She looked distinctly unhappy at this temporary loss of her command.