"Huh?"

He tapped the folder with one forefinger. "You've got an asterisk."

"Yeah," I agreed. "I'm sitting on it."

I regretted the pun instantly. General Poole looked annoyed. "An asterisk is a little star-shaped mark. In this case, it means that you can be put in life-threatenin' situations."

"Terrific," I said. "How did I earn that?"

"Couple of ways." He ticked them off on his fingers. "One-you could be a telepath-are you?"

"Not that I know of. Not unless someone snuck up behind me when my back was turned and gave me a secret implant."

"Hmp. Not bloody likely. Two-you got someone pissed off at you. Have you done that?"

"That I've done," I admitted.

"Or ... three, you've demonstrated that you're a survivor. And--that you can be trusted to produce results. Unfortunately, not all the asterisks are annotated. We'll have to find out which kind you are by sending you north."

"Yes, sir. Thank you, sir."

"Not so fast, Lieutenant. The purpose of this meetin' is a little old-fashioned fine tunin'. Call it an... attitude adjustment." The general picked up a pencil and held it delicately between his two hands.

"An ... attitude adjustment?"

"That's right. How well do you think you can do your job if your loyalties are divided?"

"Sir? I'm afraid I don't understand."

General Poole looked across his desk at me. "Ah'll say it in English, son. I appreciate your scientific contributions, but-Ah want you to remember also that you are still a soldier in the army of the United States of America."

"I don't see the conflict, sir," I said hesitantly. "It seems to me that both the Science Section and the Military are committed to the same thing-" The general looked skeptical. "-aren't they?"

"You tell me, Lieutenant. What's the purpose of this mission?" I quoted from the briefing book: "`. . . to establish a contact relationship with the bunnydogs and/or the gastropedes with the eventual goal of opening a channel for communication.' Sir." I added.

"Mm hm," he said thoughtfully. "And what's the usual purpose of a military mission."

"Uh-" I suddenly realized what he was getting at. "The destruction of the Chtorran ecology."

"That's right." He looked at me calmly. "Some people want to talk to these creatures-and some people want to kill them. Ah'd like to know, Lieutenant, what your feelin's are on the matter."

I was staring down the barrel of a 45-caliber loaded question. "I-I'm on the side of humanity, sir."

"And what does that mean? Are you committed to killin' worms or not?"

"It means, I want to do what will save the most lives."

"And you think that talkin' to the worms or the bunnies might do that?"

"I don't know. That's what we want to find out-"

"But you do think there might be an alternative to killin' them? Isn't that so?"

I swallowed hard and met his gaze. "Yes sir-I'm willing to try."

"Ah see. Well, let me tell you somethin', Lieutenant. The trouble with that kind of thinkin' is that it diverts precious resources of time and materiel. `If we can just talk to the agency that's behind the Chtorran infestation, p'haps we can work out some kind of negotiation.' Ah've even heard some people talkin' about sharing the planet with them."

"Sir-?" I started to say.

"Share!" he continued over my protestations. "Why the hell should they? They're already winnin' the whole ball game! Why should they stop to negotiate a draw?"

"Maybe they don't know we're here!" I flustered. "Maybe they made a mistake. Maybe-"

"You don't kill four billion human beings by mistake."

"We don't know that-"

The general looked astounded. "You don't think we're at war?"

"I know we're at war, sir! I just-"

"And you want to talk to the enemy?" Was he deliberately baiting me?

"Yes! I do! I want to find out who the enemy is! Maybe they're just as curious about us-"

"Y'know, that's the trouble with you-and with the rest of your so-called experts. You want to study everyfhin'. You want to question it. And you want to piss away our time! Sometimes Ah wonder just who's side you're really on-"

I stood up. "Goddammit! This may cost me my assignment-but if you're mad at someone, tell them! Not me! I just want to do the job I was trained for! The United States Army wants me to study the worms and the millipedes and the bunnydogs and all the other Chtorran creatures. Yeah, I'll admit it-I'm fascinated by them. These are the first extraterrestrial life-forms that humanity has ever encountered. But don't you go making assumptions about my loyalties, sir! That offends me. I want the Chtorrans off this planet just as much as you do-but I'm also realistic enough to recognize that might not be possible. If it isn't, I want to know how 'to survive among them. And if it is possible to neutralize the Chtorran infestation, you won't find anyone more dedicated than myself. I'll burn worms till you pry the torch out of my hands! You've got my record there on your desk-you look and see! But I can't stand people making up their minds about a subject before all the facts are in!" I added politely, "Sir!"

And sat down.

The general applauded. He grinned. "Not bad. You throw almost as good a tantrum as Ah do. You could use a little polishin' but experience will take care of that."

Blink. "I beg your pardon, sir?"

"Son, sit down and listen for thirty seconds. It doesn't matter how Ah feel about this joyride. Nobody's listenin' to my opinion. Ah think you're a damn fool' and Ah think this is a waste of valuable time. But the Science Section has given this a triple-A priority, so like Ah said, it doesn't matter what Ah think.

"But-" he continued, "you are still under mah command-and Ah am responsible for your life. So, if nothin' else, Ah want to know that you're sure about what you're doin'. Ah don't have to be sure, but you do. Ah've found that a little bit of certainty makes a lot of difference in the results you produce."

"Yes, sir."

"It looks to me like you're actually willin' to put your life and your career on the line. Ah'm impressed, Lieutenant. With that kind of intention, you just might have a chance of comin' back. But-" he added, "Ah still wouldn't start any trilogies."

"Yes, sir. Thank you, sir." I felt like I should be looking for the Dormouse and the March Hare. "Uh-would you like to hear about my plan? I'm very well prepared."

He shook his head. "No. Ah'm going to trust you."

"But I really think you should."

"Lieutenant, don't press your luck. It might be a very stupid plan. And then Ah'd have to reconsider mah decision. No. Ah think Ah'll bet on your certainty more than your intelligence. And Ah will trust Colonel Tirelli's faith in you. Have a nice trip."

He stood up and reached across the desk to shake my hand. I had to stand up again to grab it. "Uh, thank you, sir."

"Oh, one more thing. It might be some small comfort to know. If you get killed, you'll be automatically promoted one rank. It'll be a consolation for your family."

"Uh, thanks. What about if I live?"

"We'll talk about it when you get back. Now, get the hell out of here. Ah have some real work to do." He sat down again and I left, shaking my head and marveling.