“A lovely girl,” Clive repeated.

She had looked right at him when she pretended to bite the apple, and smiled raunchily through her chomping, with one hand on a jutting hip, like a music hall parody of a tart. He thought it was a signal, the way she held his gaze, and sure enough, they were back together that April. She moved into the studio in South Kensington and stayed through the summer. This was about the time her restaurant column was taking off, when she went on television to denounce the Michelin guide as the “kitsch of cuisine.” It was also the time of his own first break, the Orchestral Variations at the Festival Hall, Second time round. She probably hadn’t changed, but he had. Ten years on, he’d learned enough to let her teach him something. He’d always been of the hammer-and-tongs school. She taught him sexual stealth, the occasional necessity of stillness. Lie still, like this, look at me, really look at me. We’re a time bomb. He was almost thirty, by today’s standards a late developer. When she found a place of her own and packed her bags, he asked her to marry him. She kissed him, and quoted in his ear, He married a woman to stop her getting away/Now she’s there all day. She was right, for when she went he was happier than ever to be alone and wrote the Three Autumn Songs in less than a month.

“Did you ever learn anything from her?” Clive asked suddenly.

In the mid-eighties Vernon too had had a second bite, on holiday on an estate in Umbria. Then he was Rome correspondent for the paper he now edited, and a married man.

“I can never remember sex,” he said after a pause.

“I’m sure it was brilliant. But I do remember her teaching me all about porcini, picking them, cooking them.” Clive assumed this was an evasion and decided against any confidences of his own. He looked toward the chapel entrance. They would have to go across. He surprised himself by saying rather savagely, “You know, I should have married her. When she started to go under, I would have killed her with a pillow or something and saved her from everyone’s pity.”

Vernon was laughing as he steered his friend away from the Garden of Remembrance. “Easily said. I can just see you writing exercise yard anthems for the cons, like what’s-her-name, the suffragette.”

“Ethel Smyth. Fd do a damn better job than she did/The friends of Molly who made up the funeral gathering would have preferred not to be at a crematorium, but George had made it clear there was to be no memorial service. He didn’t want to hear these three former lovers publicly comparing notes from the pulpits of St. Martin’s or St. James’s, or exchanging glances while he made his own speech. As Clive and Vernon approached they heard the familiar gabble of a cocktail party. No champagne trays, no restaurant walls to throw back the sound, but otherwise one might have been at one more gallery opening, one more media launch. So many faces Clive had never seen by daylight, and looking terrible, like cadavers jerked upright to welcome the newly dead. Invigorated by this jolt of misanthropy, he moved sleekly through the din, ignored his name when it was called, withdrew his elbow when it was plucked, and kept on going toward where George stood talking to two women and a shriveled old fellow with a fedora and cane.

“It’s too cold, we have to go,” Clive heard a voice cry out, but for the moment no one could escape the centripetal power of a social event. He had already lost Vernon, who had been pulled away by the owner of a television channel.

At last Clive was gripping George’s hand in a reasonable display of sincerity. “It was a wonderful service.”

“It was very kind of you to come.”

Her death had ennobled him. The quiet gravity really wasn’t his style at all, which had always been both needy and dour; anxious to be liked, but incapable of taking friendliness for granted. A burden of the hugely rich.

“And do excuse me,” he added, “these are the Finch sisters, Vera and Mini, who knew Molly from her Boston days. Clive Linley.”

They shook hands.

“You’re the composer?” Vera or Mini asked.

“That’s right.”

“It’s a great honor, Mr. Linley. My eleven-year-old granddaughter studied your sonatina for her final exam in violin and really loved it.”

“That’s very nice to know.”

The thought of children playing his music made him feel faintly depressed.

“And this,” George said, “also from the States, is Hart Pullman.”

“Hart Pullman. At last. Do you remember I set your Rage poems for jazz orchestra?”

Pullman was the Beat poet, the last survivor of the Kerouac generation. He was a withered little lizard of a man who was having trouble twisting his neck to look up at Clive. “These days I don’t remember a thing, not a fucking thing,” he said pleasantly in a high-pitched, chirpy voice. “But if you said you did it, you did it.”

“You remember Molly, though,” Clive said.

“Who?” Pullman kept a straight face for two seconds, then cackled and clutched at Clive’s forearm with slender white ringers. “Oh sure,” he said in his Bugs Bunny voice. “Molly and me go way back to ’65 in the East Village. I remember Molly. Oh boy!”

Clive concealed his disquiet as he did the sums. She would have turned sixteen in the June of that year. Why had she never mentioned it? He probed neutrally.

“She came out for the summer, I suppose.”

“Uh-uh. She came to my Twelfth Night party. What a girl, eh, George?”

Statutory rape, then. Three years before him. She never told him about Hart Pullman. And didn’t she come to the premier of Rage? Didn’t she come to the restaurant afterward? He couldn’t remember. Not a fucking thing.

George had turned his back to talk to the American sisters. Deciding there was nothing to lose, Clive cupped his hand about his mouth and leaned down to speak in Pullman’s ear.

“You never fucked her, you lying reptile. She wouldn’t have stooped to it.”

It wasn’t his intention to walk away at this point, for he wanted to hear Pullman’s reply, but just then two loud groups cut in from left and right, one to pay respects to George, the other to honor the poet, and in a swirl of repositioning Clive found himself freed and walking away. Hart Pullman and the teenage Molly. Sickened, he pushed his way back through the crowd and arrived in a small clearing and stood there, mercifully ignored, looking around at the friends and acquaintances absorbed in conversation. He felt himself to be the only one who really missed Molly. Perhaps if he’d married her he would have been worse than George, and wouldn’t even have tolerated this gathering. Nor her helplessness. Tipping from the little squarish brown plastic bottle thirty sleeping pills into his palm. The pestle and mortar, a tumbler of scotch. Three tablespoons of yellow-white sludge. She looked at him when she took it, as if she knew. With his left hand he cupped her chin to catch the spill. He held her while she slept, and then all through the night.

Nobody else was missing her. He looked around at his fellow mourners now, many of them his own age, Molly’s age, to within a year or two. How prosperous, how influential, how they had flourished under a government they had despised for almost seventeen years. Talking ’bout my generation. Such energy, such luck. Nurtured in the postwar settlement with the state’s own milk and juice, and then sustained by their parents’ tentative, innocent prosperity, to come of age in full employment, new universities, bright paperback books, the Augustan age of rock and roll, affordable ideals. When the ladder crumbled behind them, when the state withdrew her tit and became a scold, they were already safe, they consolidated and settled down to forming this or that—taste, opinion, fortunes.

He heard a woman call out merrily, “I can’t feel my hands or feet and I’m going!” As he turned, he saw a young man behind him who had been about to touch his shoulder. He was in his mid-twenties and bald, or shorn, and wore a gray suit with no overcoat.