"That's unjust to me," said Vic, who didn't like her tone.

Edith smiled benignly to herself and decided to look at the skirt next. As she unfolded it something dropped out on to the floor. "Hey, Vic," she said. "What's this?"

It was an old notebook with a leather cover.

"Jesus," Vic Serotonin said.

He was reaching for it when something fell over loudly in the old man's room upstairs. Vic looked at the ceiling despite himself, which allowed Edith to sweep the book quickly from under his hand. Their eyes met.

"Emil's awake, Vic," she said. "You should go see if he needs help."

"I'll want to talk about this," he warned her over his shoulder as he left the room.

Edith watched him go. He would always care for the old man. As for Edith, the Accordion Kid still played to packed audiences in her head, its pipeclay face Uncle Zipped to a perfect Shirley Temple, one instrument following another-bigger and more expensive, with more chromium and japanned rare wood-each year as she played herself clear across the Halo into adolescence and a career in the New Nuevo Tango; always trying to look after Emil because he did such a job of looking after her, packing in a kind of comfortable guilt until now it was a permanent situation, because Emil would never be able to look after either of them again. Close her eyes and the accordion danced, and she felt like a cultivar-a succession of perfect little-girl bodies in shiny skirts with kick-up net petticoats, white socks and round-toed patent leather sandals. She followed Vic Serotonin up the stairs, thinking of these scenes.

Emil Bonaventure's CV was this: he started out indentured to some arm of Earth Military Contracts-in his case on a project known only by the number "121," which he never talked about. After that he brawled and drank and fucked his way across the Halo with his baby daughter in tow until he wound up in the Saudade site and she wound up an adult. That stopped him in his tracks. It got his attention. As a young man he was like any of those people. He had a lot of appetites but until he got to Saudade he had no idea who he was. All those years later Vic found him lying half out of bed in this upper room at the edge of the tourist port. A damp sheet was tangled round his white old upper body, which had bruises in all stages and colours from similar falls and incidents. His face was pushed into the wall by his own weight. "Help me, Edith," he said.

"I'm Vic," Vic said.

"Come on, help him!" said Edith.

Between them they wrestled him back into bed, then she said, "I'll let you two brave entradistas talk." She went to the window, and stared out of it across the port where rain was falling through the halogen lights.

"Vic," Bonaventure whispered, as soon as she had moved away, "come here. Sit down. I thought about the things you said."

"What things were they, Emil?"

"Listen Vic, everybody I ever took in there, I took them on a promise of more than they could have-"

"They want to go, Emil. It's what they want."

"No, listen!" He clutched Vic's arm. "I knew that. I knew that every time. There's something in there, but it's nothing. They always see that in the end. They see you've fooled them."

"Where's this leading, Emil? Is it leading to the same old shit?"

Bonaventure shook his head tiredly.

"I just want to know where you've been, Vic. I want to know what locations we have in common."

"You want to compare dicks," Vic said.

"Because you must have been in Sector 7 and seen that immense white thing like a face, hanging over the roofs-"

"Give it up, Emil."

But Bonaventure refused to be saved. "Listen to me!" he demanded. "Just for once!" Whatever decaying memory had hold of him was pulling him down. His generation all had the same need to rehearse, compare adventures, keep alive the things that terrified them in there. Vic could feel his whole old body trembling with it. "After that the houses are piles of bricks, this fucking utter wasteland of bricks. There's an echo every time a tile falls, and the face watches you-" He saw Vic's expression, and the tension went out of him suddenly. He sighed. "Why am I bothering?" he asked. He shrugged. "If you haven't seen that," he said, "what have you seen? Nothing."

"Here it comes again," Vic predicted.

"He only wants to talk, Vic," Edith said tiredly from the window.

"Stick to the safe edge," Bonaventure advised the world in general, Vic in particular. He said, "Be a tourist like the rest of them."

Vic threw up his hands. "I can go anywhere and have a better time than this." He appealed to Bonaventure's daughter, "I could have a better time than this at the Semiramide Club." Edith shrugged. She gave him a direct look-If you go, the look suggested, don't come back-and resumed examining the street outside as if it was full of things which, though they didn't interest her much, were more interesting than Vic.

"Jesus!" Serotonin said. He had a sudden image of Paulie DeRaad's Shadow Boy, and the face of its doomed proxy lighted by the splashback from whatever operation had gone on at Suicide Point. "No one gives a fuck about the things / have to deal with," he complained. He got up to leave.

"I'm sorry," Bonaventure said. "Vic, it's a big place. Maybe we just saw different parts of it."

Vic said from the doorway, "I don't think so."

"I can't dream, Vic!" Bonaventure called. "I can't dream!"

"You knew it would come to that," Vic said. He didn't know how to help. "You always knew it would come to that."

"Wait till it happens to you, Vic."

"Hush," Vic said absently. "Hush up, old guy."

Edith Bonaventure found him downstairs, coldly ripping pages out of the old man's notebook.

"I thought I hid that again," she said unconcernedly.

"There's nothing written in it."

"Isn't there? It mustn't be the right one, then."

"You already knew it wasn't," Vic said.

She acknowledged this with a smile "Even the ones he's written in aren't necessarily the right one," she said. "Emil wrote a lot of stuff in his time. Do you want a drink?"

Serotonin dropped the notebook on the floor and yawned. "I ought to go," he said. She brought him the drink anyway, and stood in front of him while he swallowed it. "What is that?" he said.

"You finished the good stuff," she reminded him.

Serotonin wiped his mouth. He looked round the room, with its shelves full of little-girl memorabilia; he couldn't resolve into one image the Edith he knew and the Edith who kept those things. He set down his glass and pulled her in close until she was compelled to sit on his knee. "Does he need money?" he asked her. Edith looked away and smiled. She pulled Vic's head down and made him kiss the nape of her neck.

"We always need money," she said. "Mm. That's nice."

After he had gone, she lay on the sofa thinking about him. Serotonin reminded her of all the men she met on her way across the Halo. Everyone she encountered in those days was trying to live out some dream already irretrievable when they were sixteen.

If she was fair she had to include herself in that. On Pumal Verde, for instance, she got bagged on Dr Thirsty's, hallucinating for eleven hours straight a huge white bird flapping slowly and ecstatically through vacuum. Her boyfriend of the time said, "Edith, that bird is your life, and you'd be wise to follow where it leads." He didn't do much with his own life, only joined EMC like the rest, and was made pilot of some kind of fighter craft which necessitated him being rebuilt by the military tailor so that wires came out his mouth and into the controls. They were supposed to have damped out the gag reflex, but sometimes he felt the wires in there like a mass of sinewy fibrous stuff he couldn't swallow. If he panicked, or let his concentration slip, he heard his mother's voice in the cockpit, calm and firm, telling him to do things. It was hard to disobey. She said not to be frightened. Not to be angry. She said, concentrate now and get this part right. Then everyone will be saved. That was mostly the end of him as far as Edith was concerned.