"But you will encourage her to find Buckingham less repugnant?" De Winter watched him over the lip of his glass. "You have all the influence of the trusted mentor-as well as
of the lover. You may easily persuade her out of her dislike before asking for her help."
Such calculating cynicism! To use the influence of love for such a purpose. And yet, what choice did he have? At least he would not be guilty of deception. But it was hollow comfort for one who would be guilty of the blatant manipulation of a trusting innocent.
"I will do what is necessary," he said.
De Winter took his leave soon after. Nick snuffed the candles in the parlor before going into the bedchamber. Polly was sleeping the restorative sleep of youth and health, her hair spread across the pillow, her hands curled open above her head, lips slightly parted, presenting a picture as guileless and ingenuous as the flower of which she so often reminded him. That she was not as guileless and ingenuous as she looked, Nick was all too well aware, but the awareness did little to rid him of the sour taste in his mouth, the acrid roiling in his gut, as he thought of what he must persuade her to do.
He slipped into bed beside her, and she cuddled instantly into his arms, warm and pliant. "Nick?" Her mumble was sleepily questioning.
"Who else would it be?" A teasing response that rang in his ears as hollow as a beggar's bowl.
Polly giggled, wriggling closer before sliding back into sleep.
When she awoke, last night's rain had vanished. Early morning sun was pouring through the window. A blackbird trilled in insistent joy from the gnarled gray branch of an old apple tree in the garden. It was the first intimation of the closeness of spring, and she lay, snug in the deep feather bed, under the heavy quilt, feeling Nick's warmth and strength beside her. Contentment washed through her, bringing in its wake such a resurgence of confidence that she could barely believe her miserable panic of the preceding day. Remorse prickled as she remembered how sorely she had tried Nick's patience.
Propping herself on one elbow, Polly leant over Nick's
recumbent form, beginning with great deliberation to kiss him into awareness. His eyes stayed shut, but his skin rippled as her lips pressed into the hollow of his throat and she stroked him with her body, moving sinuously against him. Nick yielded to the glorious languour as sleep gave way to wakefulness and his body stirred beneath the sensuous caress of her skin. Indulging a wicked impulse, he kept himself as immobile as control over his voluntary reactions would allow, his eyes tight shut as if sleep still claimed him. Polly's tongue fluttered against his nipples; still he did not move. She raised her head to look at him, puzzlement clear on her face. If this was a game, it was not one they had played before. Then, with a little smile, she twisted, burrowing headfirst under the quilt.
It was too much. Nick groaned with pleasure, running his hands down her back beneath the quilt, his thumbs pressing into her spine, which arched and curved in catlike response. "Stop now," he whispered huskily as the edge of bliss drew inexorably closer. Polly, indulging her own devilish impulse, ignored the request, merely increasing her attentions. Nick groaned again. He smacked her bottom imperatively. "Wicked one!" Catching her around the waist, he hauled her up. "Don't you know what you are doing to me?"
She emerged laughing from the warm darkness of the covers, tossing her hair back. "Of course I know. Would I do it, else? I had to find some way to waken you." She leaned down to kiss his mouth, swinging one leg astride the narrow waist. He ran his hands over the curve of her hips, along the smooth planes of her thighs as she knelt astride him, stroked the softness of her belly, reached up to cup her breasts, holding them in the palms of his hands.
"I want you," she said with fierce and unashamed candor, leaning backward against his updrawn knees, offering the essence of herself to his touch. He slipped one hand beneath her to hold her buttocks, lifting her for the touch of his free hand; she exhaled on a soft whisper of pleasure. With a leisurely twist of his hips he drove upward, and Polly gasped at the pulsing fire of his penetration.
"And now you have me," he said, gently taunting, catching her hair to draw her head down to his. "What will you do with your possession, my flower?"
"There seems but one thing I can do," she murmured against the corner of his mouth, answering his teasing with her own brand.
"Then let us make the earth move," he said, taking a firm grip of her hips, liquid fire alive in the jewels of his eyes.
"Yes, let us," Polly agreed, her own gaze drowning in his, her body seeming to become one with his, consumed by the same fire. The blackbird's invitation became almost frantic as he called for his own mate on this first springlike day of the year; and withindoors the earth moved.
It moved again that afternoon in a different way, and for more than just lovers. Polly had one moment of near-paralyzing panic, standing in the wings waiting for her cue; her ears buzzed, sweat dripped between her breasts, black spots danced before her eyes. She looked around frantically.
"I am here." It was Thomas, quiet, calm, at her shoulder. ' 'Tis all right to be afeard now. It will go as soon as you walk onto the stage."
"How do you know?" Her voice rasped through a throat as stiff as dried leather. Her eyes held the desperate need to believe him.
"Because for all natural actors it does," he responded evenly. "I am not going to move from this spot. If you become afraid, look at me." Then the relevant words came from the stage, she gave him one last panic-stricken glance, and he pushed her forward with a ruthless hand.
Polly did not hear the buzz that greeted her arrival onstage, was unaware of the gasps as the flambeaux so carefully placed by Killigrew illuminated her for the audience. She did not notice the extraordinary silence that fell as she began to speak; a silence that continued, rapt and spellbound, for long minutes, drawing a slow smile of satisfaction from Thomas Killigrew.
It was a smile that broadened at the first gust of laughter when the house, recovering from its stunned amazement at the sight of Killigrew's surprise, responded to the provocative wit, the vivacious, flirtatious manner in which she engaged in the duel of the sexes. Her own enjoyment was transparent, communicating itself to her fellow actors as well as to the playgoers. The former found themselves responding with greater effort; the latter kept their seats-not one rising, as was usual, to wander the pit and the galleries, to engage in idle conversation while keeping but half an eye on the stage.
Nicholas sat dazed by the welter of emotions that assailed him. There was pride, certainly; satisfaction at his own part in bringing this about; a lover's pleasure in the other's achievement; but there was a most unexpected jealousy, also. This afternoon Polly did not belong to him. She belonged to every member of the audience; that amazing beauty, the gliding sensuality of her body, the wicked invitations of voice and eye, were offered to all. And he could hear all around him the way the offer was received, with lustful murmurs and speculative eyes.
He had expected nothing else, yet forewarned had not been forearmed. Until the moment she had walked onto the stage, he had thought of her as his creation: snatched, bruised and violated, from a brutalizing existence; made whole under his care, the potential of beauty and personality nurtured until it could blossom into adult maturity under the knowledge of love. But that ravishing, magical creature on the stage was not his creation. She was her own, fulfilling her own promises made to herself, and reveling in that fulfillment. She was giving herself, freely and with all her heart, to every man and woman in the playhouse, and he must somehow learn to live with it because, after this day, there would be no dousing of that star.