She surprised him by obeying. As soon as she crossed the chamber, he pulled her into his arms, told her to look up at him, and then gave her permission to shout at him.
"I don't want to shout at you," she said, puzzled.
"I know you're angry with me. You'll tell me about it now and get rid of it."
"I'm not angry with you."
"I made the decision to leave your horse behind."
"Yes, but it was necessary."
She turned away from him and stared into the flames. "MacNare's responsible."
"Yes."
"He took pleasure in what he did to Gilly. Didn't he?"
"Don't think about it."
"Answer me." Her voice was sharper than she intended, but Connor didn't seem to be at all bothered by it. His response was quite mild when he agreed with her.
"Yes, I'm sure he took pleasure in mutilating the horse."
"I hope Gilly died quickly before… Did she?"
He looked her right in the eye while he lied to her. "Yes."
"How can you know for certain?"
"I know." He was emphatic enough for her to think he was telling her the truth.
"I shouldn't have left the braided ribbons dressing her mane. That's how he knew she belonged to a woman, isn't it?"
"They would have known anyway. She was smaller than any of ours."
Connor was taking it all in stride. She pulled out of his arms and looked up at his face again but couldn't see any anger there at all.
"You're very calm about it all, aren't you? Don't you want to shout?" she asked.
"Would such a reaction change what happened?"
She shook her head. She knew he was right. Ranting and raving wouldn't bring Gilly back to her. Still, the lack of emotion Connor was showing made her feel all the more alone with her anger and her terror.
"Why did MacNare go to such trouble to send what was left of Gilly to us?"
"He wanted me to see what he'd done. Go to bed now. You need your rest."
"Was it a message for you or for me?"
"Me."
"Gilly belonged to me."
"But you belong to me," he reasoned.
"Was it a message of what's to come?"
"Hugh's soldiers said MacNare called it a gift," he told her. He forced her closer to him again and began to remove her clothes.
She didn't resist until he tried to take her chemise off her. "I'll be cold."
He wouldn't be deterred. "I'll keep you warm tonight. I notice you're still wearing the medallion your father gave you. I told you to throw it away," he reminded her. He really didn't care what she did with the wooden disk, now that he understood her better and knew she wasn't wearing it to insult him. It seemed harmless enough.
"I didn't do it."
"Do what?"
"Throw it away."
"I can see you didn't," he said, amused. "You're really exhausted tonight, aren't you?"
"Yes. I don't think I'll be able to sleep though. I'm too angry and…"
"And what?"
She shook her head. She wasn't ready to admit to him how frightened she was. "Will you come to bed with me?"
"Not yet. I have one more duty to complete."
"Is it important?"
"Yes."
"Could you rest beside me for just a few minutes, please?"
She wouldn't get into bed until he agreed, so he removed his boots, stretched out on his back, and stacked his hands behind his head. He stared up at the ceiling. She stared at him.
He gave the appearance of a contented man who didn't have a worry in the world, and had she not seen him standing across from her in the courtyard, she would have thought he hadn't seen or heard about Gilly yet. His reaction didn't comfort her.
She would have preferred sleeping on the side closer to the door, but he made her take the side by the window instead. She didn't want to stare out at the ruins, but she didn't want to look at Connor either, because his cold attitude was nearly as unsettling as the view in the moonlight, and so she ended up flat on her back staring up at the ceiling, too.
She couldn't understand her husband's indifference. When he was looking down at Gilly, he'd appeared completely unconcerned, but she thought he'd been pretending so the messengers wouldn't have anything worthwhile to report. Now she wasn't so certain. Perhaps Connor hadn't been pretending at all. Could he really be so unfeeling?
The horse was her pet, yes, and though she had raised her and loved her dearly, she was still just an animal. But would Connor have behaved differently if the remains of one of his soldiers had been dragged home to him?
She found herself fervently hoping so.
Several minutes passed in silence while she thought about her husband's behavior. She thought of another question to ask him then and glanced over to make certain he was still awake first.
"Who did you say the soldiers came from?"
"Hugh."
"Is he an ally of MacNare's?"
"His soldiers would have been killed a long time ago if their laird was an ally of MacNare's."
"Is he your ally then?"
"When it's convenient for him to be," he answered. "Hugh's land borders ours to the south. I let him live in peace as long as he stays out of my way."
"I wouldn't trust him."
"I don't."
Connor watched her struggle to stay awake. She could barely keep her eyes open and was yawning every other minute now, but she was still determined to talk about what had happened instead of giving in to the inevitable. He decided to help her lose her battle. He pulled her into his arms, held her close, and began to stroke her back. The heat radiating from his body warmed her and made her drowsy in no time at all.
"MacNare's a demon, and demons don't fear anyone," Brenna said. "That makes them all the more dangerous and terrifying to others."
He closed his eyes and waited for her to tell him she was afraid of the bastard.
She took a roundabout way of admitting it. "Women, especially, would be frightened."
"But not you," he said. "You know I won't let anything happen to you, don't you, Brenna?"
"Yes," she whispered. "And you know I won't let anything happen to you, don't you, Connor?"
He was smiling when he leaned down and kissed her forehead. "MacNare isn't immortal. He has fears like everyone else. He fears one man in particular."
"You're certain of this?"
"Yes."
"Should women also fear this man?"
"No."
"Who is he?" she asked. She fell asleep waiting for her husband to give her the name of the man this demon feared.
She slept soundly for over an hour, until she was jarred awake by the clanking sound of the drawbridge being lowered.
Connor wasn't in bed with her. She knew, before her feet touched the floor, that he was leaving the safety of the fortress. She grabbed her plaid and wrapped it around her on her way to the window.
The sight was ominous. A procession of soldiers on horseback, each carrying a fiery torch in one hand and holding a rope in the other, slowly crossed the bridge, dragging a bony carcass behind them. The clipping sound the horses made didn't cover the brittle echoes of the remains banging against the wooden planks.
Connor led the way to the ruins. When the procession reached its destination, everyone dismounted. They formed an arc, and in the center, four of the men began the digging. Their muscular silhouettes glistened in the flickering light as they lifted mounds of dirt and flung them to the side.
The hole was deep. Another soldier stepped forward, reached down, and lifted each man up. The beacons were thrust into the ground then, and the soldiers moved in unison to pull on the ropes. The carcass was slowly dragged forward. It teetered on the edge of the black hole for several seconds, then plunged down. The ropes, like snakes, slithered down into the cavity as soon as the soldiers released them.
After they filled the hole with dirt, a single torch was left burning bright on top of the mound, and the other beacons moved toward the horses.