“Oh, I see. Right. And you wouldn’t want to have to go back to Hergest Ridge.”

“No. I wouldn’t.”

“So, that was the only reason for refusing the lift?”

“What other reason could there be?”

“Oh, I don’t know. You might have decided to play safe. If you thought she was offering something more than a lift, I mean. If you and her… misunderstood each other.”

I felt a surge of anger at what he was implying. But I was determined not to show it. “I at no point suspected-or had cause to suspect-that Lady Paxton was trying to pick me up.”

“No, sir. Of course not.”

“In the circumstances, the very idea seems positively offensive.”

“Oh, I agree, sir. But we have to consider offensive ideas in this sort of case. If only to anticipate what the defence may come up with. They can be very inventive, you know.”

“This man Naylor’s denying everything?”

“In a manner of speaking, sir. But I really can’t discuss the matter. I’ve probably already taken up too much of your time. If I made the appropriate arrangements, could you call at the station in Petersfield, say this afternoon, and make out a formal statement of what you’ve told me?”

“Yes. Certainly.”

“Good. And the time, sir. Seven forty-five. You can swear to that?”

“I can. And will, if necessary.”

“Thank you, sir. That’s just what I wanted to hear.”

I walked into Petersfield to dictate and sign the statement that afternoon. My mother had even more questions to ask me than Sergeant Joyce and I was keen to grasp any opportunity of being alone. It wasn’t just that I was afraid of letting something slip. The fact was that my life in Brussels had become more and more solitary and this I’d grown rather to enjoy. Since a disastrous affair with an Italian stagiaire, I’d deliberately kept intimacy at bay. My bachelor flat in the rue Pascale had become a haven which I only now realized I was going to miss. Especially if my mother’s hopes of my living with her at Greenhayes were fulfilled. Which naturally I was determined they wouldn’t be.

I was at the police station nearly an hour. The statement I signed, when at last it had been typed, was as accurate yet uninformative as the account I’d given Joyce. It seemed at the time to answer all the different calls on my conscience, though none of them fully.

I can’t remember what I was planning to do when I left the station. Perhaps I still hadn’t decided by the time I reached the pavement. If not, my mind was soon made up for me. A car horn sounded and, looking round, I saw my sister-in-law Bella smiling at me from behind the wheel of her BMW convertible as it coasted to a halt beside me. “Hop in,” she said. And, obediently, I did.

By the time I’d fastened my seat-belt, we’d accelerated away down the street. Bella turned onto the main road and headed south out of the town. Middle age and bereavement hadn’t sapped her enthusiasm for speed and glamour; quite the reverse. But then I was confident nothing ever would. She’d always been larger than life. And not just metaphorically. Tall, red-haired and built like an Olympic skiing champion, she’d never been what you’d call beautiful. Her jaw and nose were too prominent, her shoulders too broad for that. What she had was a striking, almost intimidating, presence. The way she ate and drank, the way she walked and talked, were part of a physical message only slightly muted now the copper sheen came out of a bottle and the firm thighs courtesy of dedicated hours on an exercise bike. I knew why Hugh had fallen for her. I knew only too well. I understood exactly what drew men to her, formerly in droves, but lately still in appreciative numbers. She exuded sexual appeal like a musk, stronger than any perfume. Meeting her, it was always difficult not to imagine-or remember-the act she took such pleasure in. When would it fade? I sometimes wondered. This power she couldn’t help exerting. And the only answer I could give was: not yet.

“Were you going back to Brussels without seeing me, Robin? That wouldn’t have been very nice, would it?”

“I haven’t been avoiding you, Bella. But… pressure of time…”

“And pressure of police inquiries? Hilda’s told me all about it. That’s how I knew where you were.”

“This isn’t a chance meeting, then?”

“There’s no such thing, is there?”

I couldn’t help thinking of Hergest Ridge as I replied: “I’m not sure.”

“I was hoping you’d come out for a drink with me. It’s a lovely evening. The sunny garden of some country pub with an unattached lady for company. What more could you ask for?”

A decent sense of mourning, I was tempted to suggest. But what would have been the point? Bella had never made any secret of her indifference to Hugh. She’d never made a secret of very much at all, to tell the truth. Except what she really felt. About me. And the rest of my sex.

“Shocked not to find me in tears and widow’s weeds, Robin?”

“No. Not shocked.”

“But disappointed?”

“No. Not even that.”

“You’ll come, then?”

“Do I have a choice?”

“Oh yes. We all have a choice. And from what I hear, you’ve been making some pretty odd ones lately.”

We stopped at the Red Lion in Chalton and sat with our drinks in the garden. The sun was still hot, unnaturally so, as it had been all week, the sky cloudless, the air dry. Behind us, a gentle breeze rolled in slow blue waves across a field of linseed. I sensed unreality at the edge of my sight, significance close by but out of reach. As if there were symbols in everything I saw and said, but I couldn’t find the key to read them by.

Bella closed her eyes and bent back her head, luxuriating in the heat. Her white shirt was knotted at the waist, exposing an inch or more of well-tanned midriff above her pale blue jeans. The bangles at her wrist glinted and rang as she lowered her arm to the table. Then I noticed: she too had abandoned her wedding ring. But the tan had hidden the mark. She must have cast it aside soon after the funeral. Or perhaps not so soon. It would only have taken a day or so in such burning sun to obliterate all trace. In which case-

“I’m no longer married,” she said suddenly. Her eyes were open and trained on mine. “Why wear the chain of office?”

“Out of respect, I suppose.”

“Ah, but I never was respectful. Was I?”

“Not very. But enough to keep on wearing it while Hugh was alive.”

“I don’t believe in throwing things in people’s faces. Nor do you, as I recall.” She slid the tip of a finger down the condensation on the outside of her glass. “Tell me about Lady Paxton.”

“Nothing to tell.”

“Liar.”

I couldn’t help smiling as I sipped some beer. It was good to know something she didn’t when it had so often been the other way around. “You haven’t congratulated me on the directorship,” I said, changing the subject, as I thought, adroitly.

“Congratulations aren’t in order, Robin. You’re making a big mistake.”

“You think so?”

“A tiny old-fashioned company making cricket bats? It’s got no future, has it? In twenty years, all the kids will be playing baseball. And Timariot and Small will be history.”

“Maybe the European Community will be as well.”

“You know better than that.”

I shrugged. “We’ll see. Meanwhile, I’m throwing in my lot with history.”

“And coming home to Petersfield. I expected better of you, I really did. Hilda says you’ll be moving in with her at Greenhayes.”

“Wishful thinking.”

“Where will you live, then?”

“I don’t know.”

“There’s plenty of room at The Hurdles.” That I could easily believe. The Hurdles was the uxoriously over-sized house Hugh had built for Bella at Hindhead in his first flush of possessive ardour. “I feel quite lonely there these days. I miss Hugh, I suppose. The idea of him living there, I mean. The coming and going. I’ve even thought of taking a lodger. Just for the company. Perhaps…”


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