The boy-priest leaped atop the altar. Instantly he had their attention again.

“The Queen,” he said, in that same eerie high sing-song, “is of god-essence, by virtue of Her descent from the people of the Great World, who lived in the sight of the gods. But She is not a god Herself.” The boy seemed to be parroting some text he had learned by rote. “She is the architect of the gateway through which the true gods one day will return. Such is the word of Kundalimon.”

“The humans, you mean?” the burly man asked. “Are the humans the true gods?”

“The humans are— they are—” The boy on the altar faltered. His eyes seemed to turn glassy. He had no prepared text for this. He looked down toward the girl, and she reached out with her sensing-organ, coiling it about his ankle in an astonishingly intimate way. Husathirn Mueri caught his breath, amazed. The gesture seemed to steady the boy; he regained his poise and cried, “The revelation of the humans is yet to come! We must continue to await the revelation of the humans! Until then the Queen is our guide.” He made hjjk-clicks. “She is our comfort and our joy!”

“She is our comfort and our joy!”

They were all clicking in response, now. The sound of it was horrifying. The boy had them under control once more. That was horrifying too.

“Kundalimon!” they cried. “Martyred Kundalimon, lead us to the truth!”

The boy-priest held his arms high. Even at this distance Husathirn Mueri could see how his eyes blazed with conviction.

“She is the light and the way.”

“She is the light and the way.”

“She is the essence and the substance.”

“She is the essence and—”

“Look,” Husathirn Mueri whispered. “The girl’s got her sensing-organ on his, now.”

“They’re going to twine, sir. Everybody here is going to twine.”

“Surely not. All in one place together?”

“It is what they do,” said Chevkija Aim casually. “They all twine and let the Queen enter their souls, so I do hear. It is their custom.”

Numb with disbelief, Husathirn Mueri said, “This is the greatest vileness that ever has been.”

“I have officers outside. We can clear all these hjjk-lovers out of here in five minutes, if you give the word, and smash the place up.”

“No.”

“But you’ve seen what they—”

“No, I said. The persecutions mustn’t be resumed. That’s the chieftain’s express order, and you know it.”

“I understand, sir, but—”

“Then no one is to be arrested. We’ll leave this chapel absolutely undisturbed, at least for now. And keep it under careful observation. How else will we understand what kind of threat we face, if we don’t look the enemy right in the face? Do you follow me?”

The guard-captain nodded. His lips were tightly clamped.

Husathirn Mueri looked up. In front of him the dark shapes of the congregation were rising, moving about, joining into groups. The hjjk-clicking sound could no longer be heard, and in its place came an intense deep humming. No one took any notice of the two men whispering in back. The air in the narrow long room seemed to grow superheated. It might burst into flames at any moment.

Quietly Chevkija Aim said, “We should leave, now.”

Husathirn Mueri made no response.

It seemed to him that he had become rooted in place. At the far end of the room the boy and the girl were unashamedly twining before the altar, and, two by two, the members of the congregation were beginning to enter into the communion. Husathirn Mueri had never heard of such a thing. He had never dreamed of it. He watched it now in terrible fascination.

Chevkija Aim whispered, “If we stay, they’ll want us to do it too, sir.”

“Yes. Yes. We have to go.”

“Are you all right, sir?”

“We — have to — go—”

“Give us your hand, sir. There. That’s it. Come on, now. Up. Up.”

“Yes,” Husathirn Mueri said. His feet felt dead beneath him. He leaned heavily on Chevkija Aim and tottered and stumbled toward the door.

She is the light and the way. She is the essence and the substance.

She is the beginning and the end.

The cool fresh air outside struck him like a fist.

* * * *

Hresh said, “What I believed about them, once upon a time, is what everybody’s always believed. That they’re a malevolent alien folk. Our sworn enemies, strange and menacing. But lately I’ve been beginning to change my mind about that.”

“So have I,” said Nialli Apuilana.

“How so?”

She shrugged. “It’ll be easier for me if you speak first, father.”

“But you said you’d come here to tell me things.”

“And I will. But it has to be an exchange: what you know for what I know. And I want you to go first. Please. Please.”

Hresh stared at her. She was as baffling as ever.

After a moment he said, “All right. I suppose it began for me that time you addressed the Presidium: when you said the hjjks have to be regarded as something other than monsters, that in fact they’re intelligent creatures with a deep and rich civilization. You called them human, even. In the special sense of that word that I sometimes have used. It was the first hint you’d given of what you experienced while you were in the Nest. And I realized that what you said must certainly have been true at one time, for they were a part of the Great World, and in the visions of the Great World that I once was able to have I saw them, living among the sapphire-eyes and the humans and the others in peace and harmony. How could they have been demons and monsters, and still a part of the Great World?”

“Exactly so,” Nialli Apuilana said.

Hresh looked up at her. There was something even stranger than usual about her today. She was like a coiled whip.

He went on:

“Of course what they were in the Great World and what they may have become by now, hundreds of thousands of years after the Great World, aren’t necessarily the same. Maybe they have changed. But who can say? We have people like Thu-Kimnibol who’ve been convinced from the start that the hjjks are evil. Now, though, we have some among us who take the opposite position entirely. This new religion, I mean. I hear that in the chapels the hjjks are spoken of as the instruments of our salvation: benevolent holy creatures, no less. And Kundalimon is looked upon as some sort of prophet.” Hresh gave her a searching glance. “You know about the chapels? Do you go to them?”

“No,” Nialli Apuilana said. “Never. But if they’re teaching that the hjjks are benevolent, they’re wrong. The hjjks have no benevolence. Not as we know the meaning of the word. But neither are they evil. They’re simply — themselves.”

“Are they monsters, then, or holy creatures?”

“Both. And neither.”

Hresh considered that a moment.

“I thought you worshiped them,” he said. “That you wanted nothing more than to go to them, to live among them for the rest of your life. They live in an atmosphere of dreams and magic and wonder, you said. You breathe the air of the Nest, you told me, and it fills your soul.”

“That was before.”

“And now?”

Wanly she shook her head. “I don’t know what I want. Or what I believe, not any more. Oh, father, father, I can hardly tell you what confusion I feel! Go to the Nest, says a voice within me, and live in eternal Queen-love. Stay in Dawinno, says another voice. The hjjks aren’t what you’ve taken them to be, says that voice. One is the voice of the Queen, and the other — the other—” She looked at him with eyes bright with pain. “The other is the voice of the Five. And their voice is the one I want to obey.”

Hresh peered at her, not believing it. This was the last thing he would have expected to hear from her.

“The Five? You accept the authority of the Five? Since when? That’s something new, Nialli.”


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