“Do you think he killed her?”
“Chaz? He was mean enough to. I met him during our cardiology rotation at NYCH and when Kelly had our group up to their country home. He could be a bit of a charmer on the outside, but always found a sneaky way to criticize her, hiding it in a joke. And he could sure throw back the martinis at her parties. His comments got more cutting as the day wore on. None of us liked the son of a bitch.”
She put down the paper and studied him. “You sound angry.”
“I am. She was a friend. We all felt protective of her, especially since the rest of the class had given her the cold shoulder from the get-go. Most figured her a dilettante who was just slumming, riding the Braden name. Then when she worked her butt off and cut it better than a lot of them, they resented her more.”
“Sounds like she was a pretty remarkable lady.”
“She wanted to do pediatrics, and would have been great at it. Whoever killed her snuffed out all that.”
“But you went on thinking she’d run off, even when her parents insisted her husband had a hand in her disappearance?” Janet’s blue gaze grew skeptical. “That doesn’t sound like the poke-his-nose-where-it-doesn’t-belong man I married. Didn’t you wonder why she never so much as contacted them?”
“She seemed to have little to do with her mother and father. I never knew why and, believe it or not, since it wasn’t any of my business, didn’t ask. As I said, we all wanted to believe she’d successfully pulled off a vanishing act. It seems stupid now, but we convinced ourselves.”
Janet studied him a few more seconds, put her hands around his face, and kissed him gently on the lips. “She was lucky to have you as her friend.”
Some friend, he thought.
She turned for the door. “I’ve got to get back to the case room, but should be home in a couple of hours. Can you stop by the store and pick up some milk?”
“Sure.”
“And tell Brendan I’ll be there to tuck him in. Poor little tyke probably feels abandoned.”
“How about I promise we’ll sandwich him between us for his story tonight.”
She laughed, said, “Love you,” and was gone.
He hadn’t lied outright to Janet, but what he’d left unsaid seemed tantamount to lying… big-time.
The ache in his gut spread through him – like a stain.
8:00 P.M.
Geriatrics Wing,
New York City Hospital
She had no idea how long she’d been dozing when a soft cough roused her.
“Hi, Bessie.”
She blinked a few times to bring her eyes into focus on the figure who was standing inside the room. “Melanie? Melanie Collins?”
“Yes. I just dropped by to say hello.”
“My, I didn’t hear you come in.”
“Little wonder. You were snoring like a truck driver. How are you doing?”
“Well, I obviously could have used you when I came into ER three months ago.”
“Oh, Bessie, I’m so sorry I wasn’t there.”
“Pull up a seat.” She gestured to the little-used visitor’s chair with her good arm.
Melanie obliged.
Soon they fell deep in conversation making small talk, but after a few minutes Bessie inexorably returned to her present plight. She found release in complaining about it to other doctors, knowing they would best understand the scope of the outrage that had been done to her. When her own patients had gone on and on about their various illnesses, reciting the relapses and symptoms far more than necessary for her to make the diagnosis, she thought it was because they had little else to talk about, their diseases having pervaded every aspect of their lives. Over the last few months she’d come to realize that they’d been venting, sharing their symptoms so they wouldn’t feel so alone – a compulsion, she ruefully acknowledged, that she couldn’t even stop in herself.
“So-called emergency doctors – they simply didn’t get it the way you did.”
“Well, I knew your history. And remember, you were already admitted for pneumonia, so there were no delays. Who knows what would have been the outcome if I hadn’t had you on the floor and under my thumb when it happened? But since I did, the rest was easy-”
“Easy my ass, Melanie. Remember, you’re talking to a physician here. Don’t make excuses for their shoddy work by minimizing how great you were.”
“Now, Bessie-”
“I know full well that the blood tests indicated I was properly anticoagulated and shouldn’t have had another embolus. But unlike the bozos this last time, you were smart enough to treat the patient-”
“ ‘And not the test.’ ” Melanie gave an understanding shake of the head. “I know. I tell that to the residents all the time.”
“I hope those young punks in ER have at least learned to listen, or pay attention to someone even when they can’t talk.”
“I’m sure they have.”
“But look at me.” She laboriously raised her right shoulder and upper limb. Her hand and fingers drooped off the forearm, curled into a lifeless claw. “God, I didn’t think I’d end up like this.”
“I know.”
“And does anybody want to talk about it? Not on your life. They all think I’m going to sue.”
“Are you?”
“Of course not. I’m a doctor. I won’t go after my own. But I damn well want them to improve – be like you were in training.”
“Bessie, you’re making me blush-”
“In ’seventy-four you did nothing less than give me the second half of my life. The residents back then would have done me in, too, if you hadn’t stopped them. I’d never have seen my grandchildren. So give credit where credit is due, I say.”
“It was nothing.”
“There you go again. Nothing? My heart racing. Unable to get my breath. And everybody shouting, grabbing at the ECG tracing. I remember everything like yesterday.”
“Well, you know how it is in a precode when only residents are around.”
“But you measured out the rhythm and saw it for what it was.”
As part of developing the lore of her own sickness, Bessie had never stopped extolling to anyone who would listen how someone so young had maintained the presence of mind to pick out such a subtle distinction on a cardiogram in the midst of all that wild confusion. As she told and retold the story, she recalled seeing everything as if from the wrong end of a telescope, feeling desperate for air despite wearing an oxygen mask, and being about to pass out. The chief resident kept yelling for intravenous digoxin while others stuck her with IV needles and shouted a flurry of other orders:
“Furosemide!”
“Nitro!”
“Morphine!”
Like happy hour at a bar, she’d thought, watching the darkness close in on her.
A nurse had brought the syringe of digoxin up to the rubber injection port on a small intravenous bag.
Then that lone clear voice. “No! This is dig toxicity.” And a dark-haired girl with a plain face had grabbed the needle away before it could be injected. “The rhythm strip shows atrial flutter with block,” she added, speaking firmly and loudly enough to cut through the melee without resorting to panicky shouting like everyone else.
The rest of the team had immediately turned to give her their attention. “Look,” she said, running the long strip of paper upon which the ECG had been printed through her fingers, handling it like a ticker tape and pointing out the salient features.
Yes, yes, yes, the doctor in Bessie McDonald had thought, her hearing intact enough to pick up sufficient snatches of the quick-fire explanation to know it was correct even as her vision narrowed to mere pinpoints of light.
Atrial flutter with block, a hallmark of digoxin toxicity, meant a far too rapid heartbeat where the upper chambers, the atria, pounded along at 300 a minute, and the lower chambers, the ventricles, contracted at exactly half that rate, 150 a minute. The trick? To recognize it from the other arrhythmias where the atria and ventricles raced ahead at the same speed and the drug of choice was more digoxin. Had the chief resident succeeded in giving an additional dose to Bessie, however, he would have entrenched the problem, rendering her myocardium twice as resistant to treatment, and she could have died. Pumping at that speed, the chambers weren’t emptying properly, and her lungs were filling up with fluid. While the other drugs they’d ordered would help empty it out, the definitive step to solve the problem – slowing down her heart – had to be done by a synchronized countershock of electricity.