"Sent out job applications, word got passed back that I'd been blackballed. I was a troublemaker, nobody wanted a thing to do with me."
"No one stood by you?"
"You don't know how afraid people are" of your damned virus, she finished silently.
There was a twist to his eyes, a small, sad smile, a flash of pain desperately masked that told Cody he knew far more than he dared let on.
"So," he said softly, finally, "you're here…" She filled in the rest: because you have no choice.
"I'm a doctor, this is a hospital. And I need the job."
"I have doctors, Cody, I don't need a doctor. I need my right arm." He made a small gesture with it, and didn't bother hiding the flash of pain in his eyes. There was a tentativeness now to his voice and manner that seemed to Cody like nothing so much as shame.
"We Takisians are so proud a species. We promote an ideal, in thought and deed and self. Deformity is cast out. Yet now, as you see, I am deformed. As unworthy in flesh to hold my name and rank as I've proved myself so eloquently in deed. Perhaps my ultimate penance for bringing the wild card to Earth."
She said nothing.
"I need someone I can trust to help me run this clinic."
"Why me?" she asked.
"Mostly…" He paused a moment, and she wondered whose thoughts he was collecting, his own or hers. That was what made this so damnably infuriating-not knowing whether he was inside her head or not. And then she thought of what he might see-advertently or otherwise hard as it was for her to deal with the nasty nooks and crannies of her psyche, how much worse for him? And she had just herself to worry about; he was privy to everyone's secret selves. Might be a bit much, for even the most hardened voyeur. Then twisted herself back into focus, to catch what Tachyon was saying.
"It was Scent who told me about you," he said. "I am a proud man, Cody, but even I can't deny anymore my need for help. Or theirs."
She sighed, taking refuge in the view out the window. The sky was more black than blue; the storm was about to break.
"I don't know," she said finally. "Then why did you come?"
"I thought…" What? she asked herself. A wayward gust filled the room, carrying a stale salt sea smell off the river, and before she was even aware she'd moved, she was on her feet, two steps toward the door, hand grabbing instinctively for the. 45 tucked in the bottom of her purse.
She couldn't move. Stood like a dumbfounded statue, while Tachyon came out from behind his desk, violet eyes mixing shock and concern as he gently took the Colt from her hand, her purse from her shoulder. They went on the desk. Still frozen, she watched him pour a stiff cognac into a cut crystal snifter. Then, he released the mind lock.
She didn't fall-though she dearly wanted to-but didn't hit him, either.
She took a cautious sip, the cognac burned deliciously. "That encounter this morning must have made quite an impression," he said quietly.
"Seems so," she agreed, trying to will her hands to stop shaking. "I gave as complete a description as I could to Dr. Finn."
"I saw. The joker you encountered isn't in our files, but that's hardly surprising." It isn't a joker, she screamed silently, don't you understand?
And said instead, as she set down the glass, "This was a mistake, Doctor, I think we both know that. I shouldn't have come here. I'm sorry."
"Actually, I think you're right. They're lepers-aces as much as jokers, though too many think their powers make them somehow immune. More and more, it seems as though every hand is turning against them. People you know suddenly become total strangers, people you trust betray you-or, worse, believe you've betrayed them. The work we do here is as much psychological as physical; we can't afford such ambivalence-and latent hostility-even on a member of the regular staff, much less my alter ego."
She started to say, "I know you'll find someone," but left the words silent in her throat, because she and he both knew they'd be a lie.
She was almost out the clinic's main foyer-painfully conscious that aside from the occasional staff member, she was the only person she saw with anything approaching a normal appearance, every so often catching a whispered curse and not-so-whispered taunt when Scent caught up with her.
"Sorry to see you didi maul Major," he said.
"Win some, lose some, Scent. We should be used to that."
"This summer-after that fuckin' convention-I feel like we're bein' fuckin' overrun. Prob'ly makin' the smart play, buggin' out while you can."
"Yeah."
"Look, that ain't why I'm here. The joker you ran into-I can't say for sure since I can't see to make sure, but I think they just brought it in, DOA."
"Where?"
"Morgue."
"Can you show me?"
No attendants in the body shop, only a single pathologist on duty, a nat, more than willing to give full vent to his anger at the city medical bureaucracy for sending him to this gulag. He knew of Cody, figured that made them kindred spirits; they both stood up to the system and got royally screwed. She figured him for a jerk, but wasn't about to let on with him in a mood to help.
The corpse lay on the examining table and Cody was surprised to discover it no less disturbing dead than alive. "Pretty fucking gross," the pathologist agreed.
She didn't reply at first as she continued her examination, mentally comparing the body before her with the one imprinted in her mind's eye. "Ever see anything like it?" she asked, at last.
"You kiddin'? Jeez, I hope not. B'sides, I thought each manifestation of the virus was unique."
"That's the theory," she agreed. "Any chance of a positive identification?"
"Not a fucking prayer, pardon my French. Other than the fact it's female."
"Female?" she asked sharply.
"Yeah." He shrugged. "Take a look. No tits to speak of, but what appear to be appropriate genitalia. I suppose, during the post, I can check to see if the internal plumbing matches."
"Do it." She spoke with such an automatic, offhand voice of command that he responded by writing the order down in his workbook, assuming she was senior staff. "About the ID?"
"No hands, which means no fingerprints; no way we'll get retinagrams from those eyes; and dental records…?" He pointed to the sawtooth fangs filling the partially open mouth. "This is a complete physical metamorphosis-'cept, of course, bein' a joker, nothing works like it's supposed to. So you got an aquatically configured creature who can't live in water. Flippers for swimming, but no gills."
Cody looked at the thickly massive, almost elephantine flippers that were the creature's "feet."
"What can you tell me about these?" she asked. "Whaddya mean"-he stifled a yawn-"other than what I already said?"
"Any wear and tear?"
"You can see that for yourself. Same kinda shit you'd have on your feet, you walked around barefoot. Especially in this town."
"Hasn't been doing it long, then?"
"Doubtful. Any real amount of time, they'd develop rough, horny calluses, scar tissue from the constant pounding and abrasion. Probably compression of the legbones, as well-y'see, these really aren't feet in any sense that we mean it, they aren't designed for walking. Nah, y'ask me, Doc, this baby's right outta the box."
"And somebody sure as shit wasn't happy to see her." He pulled aside the sheet that covered the joker's torso, revealing a pair of fearful wounds. "You ever see jaws," he asked, and as Cody nodded, "when I was in med school, we got some poor sumbitch, did a dance with a tiger shark. Same kinda bite structure. 'S funny." He stepped away from the table, gave the corpse a long look-and Cody revised her opinion of the man; for all his annoying behavior, he appeared to be good at his job. "If I didn't know better, I'd almost say the joker did this to herselfsimilar bite radius, actually a little larger, same kind of teeth structure. But no way could her mouth reach around to make those wounds."