Inside, the hallways remained empty. I let myself into the quiet apartment. Sam no longer curled under his covers. His bed was made. He’d probably left in search of coffee.

I grabbed some clean clothes, headed to the bathroom, and cringed at the sight of myself in the mirror. He wouldn’t speak and dragged me through mud and leaves. How exactly was that a good start to a relationship? I spent longer under the hot spray than I would have liked as I tried to work the leaf debris from my hair. Too late, I concluded brushing the leaves out first would have been better.

Someday, I’d have to get the full story about how I got so dirty. But how could I? He wouldn’t speak to me. He seemed willing to listen though...until I said something he didn’t like. When I talked about talking, he stopped listening. Did that mean he wanted me to do all the conversing? It made sense that he wouldn’t really want to reveal anything about himself given what Sam had mentioned about his childhood. I could empathize. There wasn’t much I wanted to share with a stranger about my childhood either.

I tugged on the last of my clean clothes, a pair of cotton shorts (I’d been counting on a lounge day) and a tank top. Having planned a three-day weekend, I hadn’t packed much. I balled up the dirty clothes, tossed them into a plastic bag, and set it by the bedroom door. Hopefully, Sam’s washing machine could take the abuse.

I sat on the edge of my bed and, swinging my bare feet over the carpet, thought over my options. Stay and accept my fate or find a way back home to continue with the plans I’d made for my own future? Sure, I could stay and make an effort to understand and learn more about Clay. But I’d already made my plans. How fair was it to expect me to change them? If Clay truly lived in the wild, it wasn’t as if he had any plans. Maybe he didn’t even understand the concept of planning. Could I possibly talk Clay into letting me go? He didn’t seem too fond of me.

Absently, I started to towel dry my hair. When I had hinted we might not be Mates, he hadn’t turned away. Did that mean he had doubts too? If he did, maybe I had a chance.

Determined, I tossed the towel aside and stood. Due to the pull I had on human men, I’d honed my skills of reason and avoidance. If reasoning didn’t work, I avoided them. This would be no different. Piece of cake.

I gave myself a pep talk as I hurried through the halls. A few of the men I passed gave me curious glances. I remained focused on finding Clay, while thinking of, and rejecting, the possible reasons for his doubt.

The main door swung open with a nudge. I hopped off the porch into the sun and winced when my bare feet met with the sharp gravel. Too absorbed in my purpose, I hadn’t thought of shoes. Resolute, I tiptoed across the parking area as quickly as possible.

Clay still tinkered with the truck. However, when he heard me, he turned to watch my approach. Other than a few quick glances at him to ensure he didn’t leave, I focused on placing my feet in the smoother areas where tire treads had cleared the stone and left sand behind. My ill-timed, stiff steps made a prancing dance. I hoped no one had a video camera.

As I neared, he took a shop rag from his pocket and set it on the ground near the truck. I paused mid-prance and looked down at the soiled rag. I’d just showered. What was with getting me dirty? Not a fair thought. My soles were probably already filthy. The insistent bite of the gravel decided it. I stepped onto the rag, wiping my feet on the grease and carbon stained surface to dislodge the piercing shards still stuck to them. The relief made it worthwhile.

“Thanks,” I said looking up at him.

Since he’d set the rag directly in front of the truck, I stood closer to him than I would have liked. I could see brown eyes staring at me from behind the stringy hair. He studied me intently, and I felt that strange pull in my stomach again. It reminded me of my problem. We had an obvious connection; one I didn’t want and one he might not want. Maybe, instead of trying to figure out why he might doubt our connection, I needed to explain why I didn’t want it in terms he could relate too as a Forlorn werewolf.

Taking a breath, I plunged into a lie. I knew I played with fire. Living with Sam had taught me werewolves could sense a lie through increased heart rate, smell of fear, or anxiety. But, the simple beauty of the situation—the dash across the gravel, which had elevated my pulse—made the lie hard to detect.

“Sam just told me that you’re to be confined to a room for the remainder of the day. With me. They want to see how we react to each other so they can determine if you really do have a Claim to me.”

A low growl rumbled from him before I finished speaking.

“What? You don’t want to spend time with me?”

He stopped his growling and looked down at my feet on the rag. I glanced at them too and noted what the gravel hadn’t done, the rag had. They were filthy again. If Charlene found me walking though the hallways with feet this dirty, she’d give me an earful.

I looked back up at him. “You do want to spend time with me, don’t you?”

He shrugged, still looking down. Not staring at my feet, then, but thinking. I continued to press my point before he caught on.

“So, it’s not me. Don’t you like being indoors?” He shrugged again, this time looking up at me. “Ok. If it’s not me, and not being indoors, then what?” I let the question hang briefly before I said what I already knew. Ultimately, Forlorn didn’t join packs because...

“You don’t want to be told when or how to spend time with me. You don’t want someone telling you what to do. Is that right?”

He didn’t look away. Didn’t move at all.

“Yeah, me either.”

I watched him closely, waiting for some sign he understood I’d lied to him. His motionlessness felt like a standoff and temporarily shriveled my hope. Maybe there was no reasoning with Clay. No, I just chose the wrong tract.

Ignoring the pain, I stepped off the rag and bent down to pick it up. I shook it out and handed it back to him.

“I’m sorry I lied to you, Clay. I thought maybe if you knew how it felt to have your choices taken from you, you’d understand why I want to leave. It’s nothing personal.”

He took the rag from me and turned back to the truck. Someone had brought him more tools, and he was in the process of taking something off what I assumed was the engine. He picked up a ratchet and started to loosen a bolt.

His inattention didn’t deter me. I had to keep trying.

“Your instincts say I’m the one. I don’t have those instincts. Instead, I just keep thinking how I don’t even know you. And the little bit Sam’s told me...that you spend most of your time in your fur, doesn’t help me understand how there can be an us. I have no fur. I can’t just run off into the woods with you.” The clicking of the ratchet began to slow. He listened.

“I’ve enrolled in college—one I chose—despite Sam’s opposition. Do you know why I picked it? Because it was far enough away that I knew it’d be harder for people to tell me what to do. Major decisions, up until this point, have been made by others based on what they thought would be best for me. Sure, they ask me what I think and try to consider it, but not always. How do you think Sam got me to Introductions for the past two years? It wasn’t by asking me each time if I felt like going.”

The ratcheting stopped, but he remained facing the engine.

“I don’t mean to sound heartless. I’ve been through enough Introductions to know what they mean to your kind. I’m not trying to throw your traditions back in your face. I’m just asking for some compromise. Don’t ask me to forget the one thing I’ve chosen on my own.”

My pleading didn’t appear to sway him any further so I switched tactics and offered him a little hope.

“If you’re serious about me, then come to the city with me and learn while I learn. We can get to know each other. I need that in order to even consider there being an us.” He still didn’t move. Frustration crept into my words. “I know I’m asking a lot. You’d need to start talking, stop growling, and bathe. No offense meant, but you look like a crazy man the way you are.”