He threw it down and ran into the kitchen.
Pulled open the door to the pantry.
The half-bundle of plastic-wrapped firewood still sat on the floor. He frantically searched the shelves, hoping for a toolbox, a hatchet, something, but the heaviest object he spotted was a thirty-two-ounce can of whole cherry tomatoes.
Think. Think. Think.
As he’d first approached the brownstone after opening the wrought-iron gate, he’d walked up a set of stairs to reach the first level.
Which means—
—there’s probably a basement.
Grant shut the pantry door and spun around.
The shock of seeing Paige standing two feet away buckled his knees as if someone had cut his ligaments.
Grant stumbled back against the door.
His sister stared at him—reeking of sex, lingerie badly wrinkled, and looking as bleary and confused as if she’d just woken out of REM sleep.
“Are you all right?” he asked.
She blinked several times without answering, as if the connections between thought and speech were rebooting.
Said finally, “Did you see Jude?”
Grant nodded.
“He left my room?”
“He did a lot more than that.”
“Tell me everything.”
Chapter 14
The temperature inside the brownstone was diving.
Grant built up the fire with the remaining logs, and with Paige’s help, dragged over the leather sofa and the mattress she’d been sleeping on.
He took the flashlight upstairs, stripped the guest bed.
Hauled the pile of blankets and covers downstairs.
It was long past midnight when Grant finally eased down onto the sofa, and as his head hit the pillow, the sheer exhaustion swept through with such intensity he could’ve mainlined it.
He wrapped two blankets around himself and turned over to face the fire.
The heat felt good, and it came at him in waves.
Paige lay on the mattress several inches below.
“You getting warm?” he asked.
“Not yet. Has it been worse than this?” she asked.
“No, I think we have a winner.”
Without the central heat running, it was quiet enough in the powerless house to hear the rain and the occasional hiss of a car going through a puddle on the street, though they were driving by with greater infrequency at this late hour.
Grant pulled his arm out from under the covers and touched Paige’s shoulder.
“I can’t believe you’ve been living with this for weeks,” he said.
Tears had begun to shine in the corners of her eyes.
“Before,” Paige said, “when it was just me, I kept thinking maybe this wasn’t real. Maybe I was imagining it. Losing my mind. But now you’re here. And don’t get me wrong—I’m so glad you are—but it means this is actually happening.”
“There’s an explanation.”
“What?”
“I don’t know. But we’ll figure it out.”
“You’re a detective. It’s your job to believe there are answers to everything.”
“There are answers to everything. Also, I’m very good at my job if that makes you feel any better.”
“No offense, but I think haunted houses are a step above your pay grade.”
The room undulated in the firelight, Grant so tired his eyes were lingering on the blinks.
“Do you really think this place is haunted?” he asked. “Whatever that even means.”
“I’ve thought about it a lot, and I don’t know. But if this isn’t haunted, I’d hate to see what it takes to qualify.”
“How do you sleep knowing what’s up there? Or rather, not knowing?”
“I only sleep when my body shuts down and my eyes refuse to stay open. The dreams are awful.”
“You have a gun in the house?” he asked.
“Yeah.”
“Where is it?”
“My coat pocket. The gray one hanging by the door.”
“Loaded?”
“Yes. Why? Planning to shoot a ghost?”
“Never know.”
“You know you can’t ever go into my bedroom. You know that, right?”
“Yeah.”
“Promise me you won’t.”
“Cross my heart.”
For a moment, Grant considered trying to leave again, but just the threat of that all-encompassing pain put a shudder through him.
“I know what you’re thinking,” Paige said.
“What’s that?”
“You’re thinking when you wake up in the morning, it’ll be different. That there will be light outside and people driving around, and we’ll have somehow slept this off.”
“I don’t know what to think.”
She reorganized the covers and tucked them under her feet.
Shut her eyes.
“Don’t get your hopes up. You don’t wake up from this.”
Chapter 15
Two years ago on Thanksgiving night, Grant had questioned a man charged with manslaughter in the death of his wife and children. He’d driven them home drunk from a family dinner and veered head-on into a tow truck. Somehow managed to escape without a scratch.
Grant never forgot how the man had sat in the hard, remorseless light of Interview 3, his head buried in his hands, still fragrant with booze. He wasn’t a bad guy. No priors. Had only been moderately drunk. And up until that evening, he’d always been a model family man.
He’d just happened to make a bad choice, catch a tough piece of luck, and ruin his life.
He wouldn’t answer questions, wouldn’t look at Grant, just kept saying over and over, “I can’t believe this is happening. I can’t believe this is happening.”
Grant had been disturbed by it for a lot reasons, but mostly because he’d driven when he shouldn’t have plenty of times.
But for the grace …
But lying in the firelight as sleep stalked him, he realized he’d never truly understood the sentiment, the horror running through that poor man’s mind, until now.
I can’t believe this is happening.
Exactly.
It was the feeling, the desperate wish, to go back. To hit undo. To have never walked up the steps to this—haunted?—brownstone. To have never seen Paige’s eyes on Facebook. To be anywhere but here—lying on this couch in this cold house under these conditions and Don dead upstairs.
Don is dead.
He hadn’t put those words together yet. Hadn’t had a chance to.
Now, in the dark with Paige asleep beside him, they came upon him like a freight train out of nowhere, arriving all at once with a truth so big it tripped his breakers.
He felt dizzy, sick.
Don is dead.
It kept repeating in his head—such small words—and yet they were the sound of a lynchpin sliding out. Of Rachel, Don’s wife of fifteen years, washing the dinner dishes alone at night in the kitchen before going up to an empty bed.
A new gust of nausea swept over him.
He’d convinced Don to come here.
Grant couldn’t handle the stillness any more.
Needed a drink now.
He swung his legs over the edge of the sofa and leveraged his weight up, carefully stepping over Paige.
The dying fire provided just enough glow to see the flashlight on the coffee table. He grabbed it and picked his way through the living room, testing each floor plank for noise before committing.
At the wet bar, he reached for the Macallan. Pulled the cork, took a long drink straight from the bottle. It didn’t touch his ravenous thirst, but it quenched something so much deeper.
Grant moved through the living room toward the front door.
At the edge of the foyer, he stopped, turned on the flashlight.
Canvassed the room.
Everything in its right place.
Further on in the dining area, the table and ladder-back chairs made a strange geometry of shadows on the wall as the beam passed over them.