I thought about Simon, well past midage and tackling me like a teenager when it looked as if Castro was going to run me down. I thought about Teru’s serious expression when I told him where I was going, Teru wanting to know when I would be back. I wondered if maybe I was taking certain things for granted and decided that I probably was.

When the odometer indicated I had traveled ten miles past the Ortega turnoff, I slowed and started looking for a dirt road on the left. According to the notes, it would be marked by an old cattle guard. When I reached the twelve-mile mark, I knew I had gone too far. I found a slightly wider spot where I could turn around, and after a lot of backing and filling, I managed to get the Range Rover pointed back the way I had come without driving off the mountainside. I saw a small cloud of dust beyond the next ridge, probably another vehicle coming my way down the road. A park ranger, maybe, or some hikers or campers heading into the wilderness.

I found the cattle guard this time and turned.

The notes in the congressman’s file had called it a road, but it was a path, really, mostly fit for hikers and horses. It was also what the Range Rover had been built for, although I was probably the only person in the state of California who was using that make of vehicle to its full potential at that moment.

I rolled and pitched and yawed along the path until I reached a spot where some large rocks and little boulders had fallen across it in a rock slide that even the Range Rover couldn’t handle. The soil there was a deep red, which was unusual, since that part of the Santa Ana Mountains were mostly made of white to dark-tan rock. I wondered where the red color came from. I thought about the blood that had been spilled nearby and felt my mind begin to slip along bizarre connections.

An image came—red rivers flowing from a fallen man’s open skull and seeping down into the soil to stain it for all time. The soil around the Range Rover began to undulate with waves of blood. It was rising to the axles. It was curling up like breakers. Any minute it would overwhelm me. I shook my head and stopped the Range Rover. I sat there with my eyes tightly shut, tasting metal on my tongue, hearing laughter in my head, and willing the chaotic visions back to the reptilian place from which they came. I thought of what was excellent and good. I thought of Haley.

Eventually the world around me coalesced again. When the things I saw and heard were more aligned with what one would expect along a remote mountain road, I got out of the Range Rover and clipped the M11 onto my belt. I didn’t expect any company, but there were always the rattlesnakes and mountain lions to consider, even if the red beneath my feet was only from iron oxide.

About a quarter-mile farther down the path, I found the shack sitting on a level area a little bit higher up the hillside. There was a narrow trail that zigzagged up the slope toward it. I climbed.

The shack was mostly made of plywood. There was a small deck in front, big enough for four chairs and a table if someone had been so inclined, and a single window with four panes overlooking the deck. Alongside the window, the door stood open. Looking inside I saw an undisturbed film of dust on the plywood floor and some sort of animal scat. I didn’t bother to announce myself. It seemed clear that nothing but raccoons or possums had entered the little building for years.

Once I was inside, I saw the shack was only about fifteen feet wide and twenty deep. In addition to the one window in front, there was a second one in back, which had been boarded over. I saw a set of cabinets along one wall that looked as if they had once served as a kitchenette, and a small compartment in the back left corner, where I saw a fiberglass shower stall and a hole where there used to be a toilet. Vandals had long since stolen the toilet, the kitchen sink, the faucet, and everything else they could haul away.

Screwed into the blank side wall opposite the cabinets, I saw a pair of eyebolts, the kind a person might use to chain a prisoner, should they be so inclined. I sat on the floor and leaned my back against the wall between the eyebolts. It was where Doña Elena would have spent those horrific days waiting for release or death. From where I sat, it was impossible to see outside, either through the single window or the open front door.

I stood up and went to the blank wall in back beside the toilet compartment. There I found a row of nail holes high up near the ceiling. I thought it was probably where Alejandra Delarosa had fastened the backdrop she used to film the videos—black fabric with the URNG’s logo in white and red. I searched the rest of the walls and the floor carefully.

Then I went back outside. I hopped down off the front deck and walked around the side of the shack. I knelt and peered into the space between the hillside and the floor framing. I sighed, thinking of black widows and rattlesnakes, and then I dropped onto my stomach and crawled into the shadows. I found plenty of cobwebs and some evidence of the original construction, bits of lumber left behind, but nothing else of interest. I crawled back out, stood, and dusted myself off as best I could.

So. There were no bloodstains, no bullet holes, no other evidence of the crime. It had been seven years, after all, but I was still disappointed.

I walked downhill to the path. I followed it to the Range Rover, got in, removed the handgun, and put it on the passenger seat again. I turned the vehicle around very carefully and then drove back out to the park road.

Just beyond the first hairpin turn, I nearly hit a white Escalade, which was parked in the middle of the road with its hood up. A man stood by the front bumper reaching down into the engine compartment. He didn’t bother to look around when I stopped. He wore a straw cowboy hat tipped back on his head; a pair of jeans; a red-and-black-striped, western-cut shirt; and a pair of boots. He rose up on his toes and reached a little deeper into the engine compartment.

I glanced over at the gun on the passenger seat. I thought about slipping it into my holster, but a strange lethargy had settled in. I simply didn’t bother. I wanted the pain to stop. The ache of missing Haley and longing for her touch. The constant sense of being incomplete. I left the weapon where it was and got out of the Range Rover.

“Need a hand?” I asked.

“This thing,” he said. “I had to take it back in three times already. Dealer won’t admit it’s a lemon.”

I walked up beside him and looked down at the engine. “What’s it doing?”

He removed his hand from where it had been hidden down among the pulleys. In it was a Beretta M9 semiautomatic. He took one step back to get out of my reach, the Beretta aimed at my midsection. Both moves were the kind of thing they teach you at the Western Hemisphere Institute for Security Cooperation, what used to be called the School of the Americas. He was one of the guys who had been following me. Not the one with the gold medallion around his neck. The Other One.

He said, “Okay.”

I heard a door open as someone got out of the Escalade. Although I couldn’t see him behind the raised hood, when he stepped into view, I saw he was the one with the medallion. He wore his top shirt buttons undone, like before.

“You guys got a different SUV,” I said.

“We have lots of them,” said Medallion. He said it in Spanish.

I switched to that language too. “Who are you guys again?”

“You know what it means to be disappeared?”

“I have heard the expression.”

“We are going to make it happen.”

“I wish you would reconsider.”

“We warned you fairly, did we not?”

“You certainly did. I have no objections about that.”

“And our friends warned you again yesterday, but here you are.”