“And what’s the plan for the house and the shop?”

“I was at the shop all day, cleaning it out so it can get painted. It’s going to take a while, though, seeing as I’m on my own.”

She sighs. “I tried to get a few days off so I could come down and help you, but I think I’ve already pissed my boss off with my crazy schedule and constant traveling.”

“Don’t worry. I get it.”

“What about Dakota? Can she help?”

I snort. “Honestly, I’ll be faster working on my own than with Dakota there to distract me with her musings about spirits and auras and the meaning of life.” We’d probably just end up smoking a joint and staring at the wall for the afternoon. “I’m managing on my own just fine. Though I had to get help loosening a seized bolt today, from this guy who came in for a tattoo.”

“That was nice of him to help. What’d you end up doing on him?”

“Nothing. I refused to do his tattoo,” I mutter.

“Ivy . . .” Amber’s got the whole motherly reproachful tone down pat already. Her future kids are screwed.

“I know.” The guilt over being a complete bitch to him still lingers. “And he was really hot, too.”

“Let me guess—J.Crew and Calvin Klein?”

“Levi’s and Hanes, actually.” Amber’s making fun of the fact that I wear tats and leather and shave the sides of my head, and yet I go after guys who look like they belong in a chain store catalog. She’s right and I can’t explain it.

“So Miss Picky actually found a guy she deems ‘really hot’ and she turned down the chance to tattoo him and then, I’m sure, sleep with him?” Amber mocks. “I think that’s a first.”

I smile. “It’s definitely a first.”

“What did he look like?”

“Kind of like your brother, actually.”

“Ugh. Gross. And where did he want his tattoo?”

“Doesn’t matter. I would have made him strip either way,” I admit with a smirk.

Amber laughs. “And then you’d have had your way with him and sent him packing.”

“What can I say? My affections are fierce but short-lived.”

“I still don’t know how we became friends.”

“Neither do I, honestly.” We are as opposite as opposite gets. Amber thrives on long-term commitment. I’m pretty sure that her little “Irish fling” was the most spontaneous, wild thing she’s ever done, and ever will do—and now they’re in a full-fledged, long-distance relationship. Meanwhile, the longest commitment I ever made was to a guy named Jet, when I was twenty-two and living in Portland. He was a professional rodeo guy. I don’t even like rodeo guys. But I dated him for three whole weeks, mainly because we didn’t do much talking during that time.

“We just haven’t found you the right guy yet.”

“Good luck finding me someone who holds my interest for more than a night or two.”

“He’s got to be out there. And when you find him, you’re going to call me and, for once, I’ll be the one who gets to tell you to stop talking about a guy so much.” I roll my eyes at the cheesy romantic notion. I don’t see that ever happening.

“Seriously, how long has it been since you’ve dated anyone?”

“Dated” is so the wrong word for any of my hookups and Amber knows that, but I don’t correct her. “Since last summer, in Dublin.”

“Oh my God. Wait, does that mean you haven’t slept with anyone since—”

“Yup.” I admit grudgingly. “The longest dry spell of my short life since high school.” As much as I was an outcast in high school, as soon as I got out, I never had trouble attracting guys. Apparently everyone wants to fuck a badass Asian girl at least once.

Unfortunately for them, this badass Asian girl is not an easy score unless she wants to be.

“Maybe you should come back to Dublin then. I know he’d love to see you.”

I hum noncommittally. “Grinning Irishmen aren’t my type.” He actually did make me laugh, though I rarely let him see it.

“So . . . Once the store is cleaned out? What are you going to do?” she pushes, back to the serious side of things.

“Once the legal stuff is sorted out, we’re going to sell it. Ian can’t run it and I don’t want to. We also need to get rid of this house and its giant mortgage as soon as we can. Then I’m ghosting.”

“Seriously? You know you could run that shop. Isn’t that what you’ve always talked about?”

It’s my dream for an older, tamer version of myself. A quiet little shop with character, a steady clientele. “Yeah, but I never wanted it at the expense of my uncle’s life.”

She sighs. “I know . . . I’m sorry. It’s horrible to talk about it like that. But maybe you shouldn’t sell so quickly. Can you afford to sit on it for a few months?”

I scowl at the dirty ceiling above. It’s the first time I’ve actually lain in bed in daylight and bothered to look. Now I see that it’s in desperate need of paint, as much as every other room in this house. “Did Ian call and ask you to convince me to stay?”

“Ian doesn’t have my number, Ivy. Unless you gave it to him.”

I roll my eyes. As smart as Amber is, sometimes she doesn’t get my jokes. “The shop has a hundred K mortgage on it. Plus, I don’t want to stay. It’s just not the same here anymore. Everything about San Francisco changed when Ned died. The shop is haunted. This house is big and empty and eerie and . . .” I shudder. “Sometimes I feel like I’m being watched. It’s just . . .” I work at my laces, unfastening them so I can kick off my boots. “I agreed to finish someone’s tattoo for him tomorrow afternoon and I don’t want to do it. I don’t even know if I can do it.”

“I’d hate to be that person.”

“Ain’t that the truth,” I mumble, unfastening my jeans. I slide them over my hips and kick until they fall from my feet.

“It sounds like you’re done for the day. You should get some sleep,” Amber chides. “I’m sure you haven’t been doing much of that either.”

My pillow feels so soft and welcoming beneath my head. “That’s the best idea you’ve had in forever.”

She laughs. “Yeah. Okay. Call me anytime. Or text. If I don’t answer, it means I’m working or sleeping. Because that’s all I’ll be doing for the foreseeable future.”

“Night. And . . .” I hesitate, because saying anything that may hint at feelings has always been hard for me. “Thanks for calling.”

“Of course, Ivy. Now sleep. Nurse’s orders.”

I press End with a nostalgic smile. Those few weeks with Amber in Dublin were some of the best I’d had in a long time, and I now consider her one of my best friends. Clearly, that says something about me and my ability to make—and keep—friends. Speaking of which . . . I scroll through my texts, squinting to read the words through my bleary eyes. One from Dakota, who’s checking to see if I’m still coming over for our usual Wednesday night dinner at her place. As much as I could probably use the semblance of something familiar, dinner is never dinner with just Dakota. It’s with her and an array of very unusual people, some whom she may know well, or not at all.

I’ll have to call her, but not tonight because that’s an hour-long conversation about nothing. I like Dakota a lot, but the girl tends to go off on weed-induced tangents that I don’t have patience for.

There’s another message from Fez, the pizza delivery guy from down the street from Black Rabbit whom I’ve befriended over the months.

The cuts 2nite?

That sparks my interest. As exhausted as I am, my body is thrumming with tension. I could probably use a night out, to release some of this pent-up anxiety. And if I fall asleep now—which I’m about to—I’ll be wide awake by two at the very latest, twiddling my thumbs and needing to get the hell out of this eerie house.

I hit Dial, because the last time I tired-texted, auto-correct somehow turned my errors into a sexual proposition, and Fez definitely doesn’t interest me in that way, even if I know he’s secretly in love with me and would screw me in a heartbeat, given the chance.