"I know," she says giving me that teasing smile of hers as she gets down to her knees.
The right thing would be to stand her up and take her inside, but I don't. I stay out here holding tight to her hair while her tongue runs the length of my shaft. Once she takes all of me in her mouth I forget everything else.
I dive deeper into my lair of denial because the way she gets my body to respond to her is perfect. It's right on target, and I can further convince myself all is well.
I forget everything as my hips thrust back and forth as I fuck her mouth. All I know is the feeling building inside me. I keep my eyes locked on her. She's never looked more perfect than she does right now kneeling in front of me, completely vulnerable. And then it happens. I try to pull out before I explode, but she doesn't let me.
When I finish cumming, she wipes her mouth with the back of her hand, and I help her back up to her feet. Selene smiles at me, the sweetest, most beautiful smile I've ever seen. My heart is thumping fast and furious, and it's not because I just came, it's more than that. It's the heaviness in my chest as I bring my mouth to hers and kiss her with every ounce of passion I feel for her.
I can't find the words, so I need the kiss to express how I feel. I want her to know beyond a doubt that she's mine. She's been mine since I first laid eyes on her. But here, now, I laid a claim on her that solidifies it.
She's my girl, and she’s sexy and hot, and kinky. She's my girl, and she's fucking perfect. I gloat as I say the words over and over in my head, she's my girl.
The words I want to say, need to say are on the tip of my tongue. I don't give a shit that she hasn't said it or that we've only known each other a few months. I know the way my pulse races when I think of her, the way my heart drums in response to her, the way she invades and occupies my thoughts, that I love her. I'm in love with Selene. But instead of telling her, I choose to show her.
I sweep her up into my arms. "Cooper!" she squeals laughing.
"It's your turn, baby. And you better hold on tight, because I'm going to fuck you so hard everyone in this city is going to hear you scream for more.
Chapter 15
I step outside, but it's not the hotel terrace. It's higher and much wider with no rails or barriers. I'm on a roof. I don't know how the hell I got here. I look behind me. There's no way to get back inside.
What the fuck?
A girl with long dark hair is sitting with her legs dangling off the edge. I want to call out to her, but I'm afraid if I do, I might startle her and she might fall.
"What took you so long?"
I look around to see who she's speaking to. I'm the only one here, so it must be me.
"If you want to talk, why don't you come over here and step away from the ledge."
"No, Cooper," she snaps back, pain and anger ripe in her voice. "You can't save me. It's too late. So don't bother trying."
"I don't believe you. You're here for a reason."
"You're right." She turns to me and it's the first time I've seen that smile in years. My heart skips a beat, and I find it hard to swallow. She's just as beautiful as I remember, but the feeling spreading through me isn't love. It's regret. "I'm here to take her away."
"What? Who?" At first I don't understand what she's talking about. I don't piece it together, because Luna and Selene have nothing to do with each other. They're completely separate parts of my life. But Luna's violet/ blue eyes size me up and pierce into me, as if she knows exactly what I'm thinking. Her lips creep up at the corners into a mocking smile."
"You always were a day behind and a dollar short."
"What?" I wish she'd stop talking in fucking riddles.
"Come on, Cooper, you're smarter than this." Luna turns away from me and looks down once again.
"Come on," I walk over and grab her by the arm. My fingers are wrapped so tight around her flesh my knuckles are white.
She laughs at me. She's fucking laughing, and I have half a mind to shove her off the roof myself. Luna sneers at me at me and licks her lips. It's the most evil fucking look I've ever seen.
I feel rage rising up inside me. There's no other way to describe this all out, uncontrollable anger that she stirs in me. It needs to be unleashed before it consumes me. I can feel it, see it, she's trying to destroy me, and I've lived like this long enough. I need to put an end to this, to her, here and now.
"Get the fuck up." I yank her arm hard and pull her up to her feet in one swift motion.
Standing, Luna looks down at something on the ground and waves her hand. My heart is beating so fucking hard I feel my pulse throughout my body, in my throat, and my fingers. Even down to the tips of my toes. I'm trembling beside her, knowing without looking who she's waving to.
"What's the matter, Cooper? Did she find a way to break into that steal heart of yours?"
"No!" I yell at Luna. "You bitch. Don't you dare hurt her!"
"Or what? What can you do? You can't fight me. You can't run from me. I'll always find you. So what is it you think you can do?"
My hands are clenched into fists at my sides. I never wanted to hit a woman so bad in my life. I'm struggling, using every ounce of self-restraint to keep myself from decking her and pounding on her face until she goes away forever.
"You turned away from me. Turned me away when I needed you the most."
"Go back to where ever the hell you came from."
"Not until I see the look on your face." Again that knowing sneer. That sneer that says she has the upper hand. She can't possibly. Not unless . . .
I know the blood just drained from my face. Maybe even my whole body. "What did you do to her?"
"Go ahead, Cooper. Look. Take a look at your precious Selene. You know you want to. You're trying to convince yourself that everything is fine, but you know better. You feel it in here." She taps her hand against my chest, and it hurts, as if she zapped me with a lethal electrical charge.
"Come on. You know looking will confirm your worst fear. You'll never believe if you don't see it. You want to look. You want to look so bad you're forcing your eyes closed, because you don't want to give me the satisfaction, and you know if they're open the temptation is too great. You're going to do it, Cooper. You might as well get it over with." She shoves me forward and pushes the back of my head. "Look, Cooper! Look at her lying on the ground."
Luna has me in some sort of paralysis grip. I'm at the edge, facing forward and I can't move. I try to fight her hold on me, but it does nothing. Nothing but wear me out and frustrate me. And then it happens, just as she said, I can't keep my eyes from looking down and seeing my precious Selene, splattered on the ground, blood all around her.
"Selene!" The scream is so loud, so guttural I think a vein in my head burst and my vocal cords snapped in half. I can't breathe. The pain in my chest feels like it's been ripped open and someone's breaking my ribs apart. "Selene!" I cry again.
"Shh. I'm right here." Her hands are on either side of my face, holding me. Her soft lips press against my cheek, making their way to my mouth. "I'm right here, Cooper."