‘I’ll see you there, then.’

‘Um … Will Mr. Eden be attending, too?’

He pauses as if surprised. ‘No,’ he says very firmly. ‘Mr. Eden is an employee who has very little information about the accounting side of things. As I explained before, and will prove during our appointment, this whole situation is an error made by a trainee, which can be rectified quite easily.’

‘Fine. I’ll see you Monday. Please don’t be late.’

He coughs uncomfortably. ‘Of course.’

‘Goodbye, Mr. Broadstreet.’

‘Goodbye, Miss Savage.’

I end the call and schedule the appointment into our diaries. Afterwards, I call my mother and confirm that I’ll be picking her and my father up at twelve. Then I call down to John to remind him that I’ll need to borrow the ‘official business’ car at eleven thirty. I lean back in my chair. Dom will not be at the meeting. Thank God. I honestly don’t think I could act normal if he was there watching me with those eyes, knowing he’s been inside me.

As planned, I pick my parents up at twelve and we have lunch at a local pub. The food tastes like what it costs—£5.99 for two courses and £9.99 for three—but my father seems to be glad of the change of scenery, and my mother’s in a good mood. So, it’s a nice, easy lunch.

After that, we all troop back into the car and I drive to Tesco to do the weekly big shop for my parents. Because I felt bad yesterday that I could never take them to a place like the Rubik’s Cube, I start picking up stuff that’s more expensive than I’d normally choose and place it in the trolley.

My mother touches my arm. She looks worried. ‘That’s too expensive for us, darling. Just the economy version will do,’ she says.

‘No,’ I say with sadness in my heart. ‘I want to treat you and Dad to something better than economy this week.’

‘But, darling,’ my mother whispers, ‘you’ll leave yourself short.’

I smile at her. ‘It’s only this one week, Mum. Next week we’ll go back to the economy stuff, OK?’

I fill the trolley with fine ham, expensive cheeses, two good cuts of sirloin, some of Tesco’s finest desserts, a lovely boxed Tesco’s Finest carrot cake, all butter croissants, branded ice cream, two duck breasts and organic walnut bread. The bill, when it’s rung up, is shocking. It’s almost double what I usually spend shopping for economy stuff. My mother gives me a ‘let’s put it all back’ look, but, ignoring her, I slide my credit card into the reader and key in my PIN.

I return to work at two p.m. to find a large brown box inside an Argos plastic bag. For one second I think my mother has sent me a gift. She does buy stuff from there, but then why would it arrive on my desk when I’ve just returned from spending time with her?

I walk toward the bag with a frown on my face. I take the brown box out of the bag and open it. Inside, there’s another box, only this box is from an expensive boutique. I quickly drop it back into the brown box and put everything back into the Argos bag. My face feels hot and my heart is beating fast in my chest.

Now I know exactly who the package is from. I stuff the bag under my table, switch on my computer, and stare blankly at the screen. It occurs to me that whoever he got to send the box to me went to a lot of trouble to make it seem as if I was just receiving some cheap thing from Argos. For that I’m grateful. The last thing I need is my work colleagues thinking I’m being bribed by tax evaders.

Lena, from down the hall, puts her head around my door. ‘You got your package then?’

‘Um … yeah.’

She comes in. ‘So what’s in it?’ she asks nosily.

‘Oh, just my mother sending me something for the flat. Probably crockery.’

‘Oh.’ She scrunches up her face as if to say, ‘Nothing interesting, then.’

I shrug as if replying, ‘That’s life, what can you do?’

She brightens. ‘Do you want to come with us for a drink tonight?’

‘Uh … No. Not tonight. I’m a bit tired.’

‘Oh, come on. It’s Friday.’

‘I know, but I’m too tired.’

‘You sure?’

‘Yeah. You have fun, though.’

The first thing I do when I get home is open the brown box and take out the expensive box. There’s an envelope attached to it. I pull it off and extract the card.

To replace the one I ruined.

                           Dom

His handwriting is bold and not the prettiest, but like him it oozes power and confidence. I open the box. Tucked amid white tissue paper is something red. I take it out and gasp. Wow!

It’s the most beautiful dress I’ve ever seen. It has a slit at the back and even looks like it’s my size. In a daze I run my fingers over the soft material. I’ve never owned anything so fine in my life.

Carefully, I hang the dress on a hanger and hook it on the door handle of my closet. Then, lying on the bed, I open the box of handmade chocolates, and, while eating them, admire the dress. The chocolates are delicious. The dress is fabulous. But I don’t like how confused I am about things I used to be so sure of.

In one hour Dom will be here.

EIGHT

I step up to the shower, turn it on, and the jet of hot water cascades down my body, relaxing my tightly wound muscles. I close my eyes and she fills my thoughts like an exotic perfume. Her eyes, blue and Bratz-doll enormous, flash into my mind. All day I’ve been haunted by their damn beauty. I know I’m being reckless, but I don’t care.

I’m gonna have her and fuck the consequences.

So many women have lain in my bed. They come, they go. They taste like fucking dry bread and tap water. A man needs to eat, so I filled my belly, but all the time I wanted honey and sweet flesh. A body that begs me to take it even when its owner doesn’t want me to.

Ella.

Ella of the zebra shoes, sexy calves and the perfect ass. Oh, that ass! What I could do with such an ass. So, yeah, I’m gonna fucking risk it again today, just for that adrenalin rush of opening her thighs and ramming my dick straight into her wet, tight pussy while she sucks my tongue.

My mind replays the moment I threw her against the wall and fucked her as her mouth hung slack and a rush that I’d forgotten I could feel pulsed into my cock, engorging it, making it ache. I clutch it in my hand and it hums … for her creamy body.

Soon, my friend. Soon.

I close my eyes and clear my head. Sometimes it feels as if I’m plunging off a cliff into the deep blue ocean. Maybe there are rocks under the surface. Maybe I won’t survive. Maybe she won’t take away the pain. Maybe she’ll stand on the cliff edge and watch me bleed to death instead, but so be it. I can’t stay away from her, even if it means my own destruction. I must see her soft hands lift her dress up and willingly offer me everything.

I must taste her honey again.

I keep my bedroom windows open, and when I hear the distinctive growl of the Maserati’s V8 engine I lean out of the window and call down to him as soon as he cuts the noise. He looks up, surprised, and as darkly beautiful as an avenging angel.

‘Don’t come up, there’s a parking attendant up the road. I’ll come down,’ I holler down to him.

‘Well, hurry up then,’ he shouts up.

I take one last look at myself in my pretty yellow sundress before running out of my flat and skipping down the three flights of stairs. As I step out into the street I see that Dom has come out of his car and is leaning his butt against it. My heart does a little dance. He looks super-edible in a black T-shirt, blue jeans and pristine Timberland boots. His arms are crossed, and my eyes greedily rove over the thick muscle cords. His eyes are as bright as gems and are focused on me. Hit by an unnatural attack of shyness (What? Me, shy?) I pause uncertainly by the entrance door.