Being inside her this way feels too good emotionally and physically, and I can’t help but to feel selfish and only want it to be me from now on. The thought of Lucas coming back in six days has me pushing myself so deep that I cause her to cry out in pain. “Shit . . .” I place my forehead to hers for a second so I can collect myself. “Sorry.”

“It’s okay,” she whispers. “Please don’t stop.”

Bringing her legs over my shoulders, I slightly lift her hips and rock into her, biting the side of her calf as I bury myself inside and stop. “I love being inside you, babe. Fuck, you feel so good.”

Both of our bodies are covered in sweat. We’re both breathless and completely lost in each other as I continue to pump deep and slow for what feels like hours, but I don’t care because I can’t get enough of her right now.

Wanting to be even closer to her, I sit on my knees and bring her body up to straddle my lap. Our bodies are plastered together, not even an inch of breathing room as I kiss her flesh all over and bury myself inside her, pretending that she’s completely mine and I’m completely hers. In this moment . . . we are.

I feel her nails dig into my skin and her breathing picks up next to my ear. “I want to come with you, Alex. I’m so damn close. I don’t know if I can hold back anymore.”

Holding her as tightly as possible, I press my lips to hers and sway my hips, pulling her body so I can get as deep as I can without hurting her again. I feel myself close to orgasm, so I suck her bottom lip into my mouth, moaning as she clenches around my cock.

A few slow seconds later, I rock into her one last time, releasing my load inside her, being sure that she gets every last drop. Fuck . . . what that does to me, knowing that Lucas has never been inside her like this. Her pussy is filled with only my cum, and that does something to me that I don’t understand.

“Shit . . . Alex,” she says breathless. “I’ve never felt this good in my entire life. I have no idea how you do it, but you seem to know all the right things to take care of me.”

She lifts off of me and falls down next to me, lying flat on her back while fighting to catch her breath.

Feeling completely lost in some other world, I clean her off with my shirt and lay next to her, pulling her close to me. “I know you better than anyone else. Never forget that . . .”

She doesn’t say anything more, so neither do I. Instead, we both just lay here in silence, staring up at the night sky. Nothing else really needs to be said . . . tonight.

This moment is perfect and I’m going to keep it that way for as long as I can.

Until the morning comes and I have to go back to pretending . . .

IT’S BEEN A COUPLE DAYS since our night on the rooftop, but I can’t seem to get it out of my mind. I’m dying to be close to Alex and spend time with him, but between his endless appointments and Dax asking me to take on extra hours at the bar, we haven’t had much time together.

Well, besides sleeping. He’s fallen asleep in my bed every night, but hasn’t made a move to touch me sexually and it’s been driving me insane, leaving me with a need that I’ve never experienced before.

Lucas will be back in four days; four short days and I can’t help but to want as much alone time with Alex as I can get. I may be selfish, but I can’t seem to care right now. Alex is all that I’ve been able to think about.

He should be home from work any minute now. At least I’m hoping, so that we can hang out and finally do something besides sleep together.

I jump when Alex pokes his head into my room and slaps the doorframe, surprising me. “Change into some shorts and an old shirt. We’re going riding tonight. It’s going to get dirty.” He lifts his eyebrows. “Very dirty.”

“Oh yeah . . . what’s your version of very dirty?”

He bites his bottom lip and growls, as he looks me up and down. “Dirty enough for me to give you a shower later. Now get dressed. Fast.”

My heart skips a beat when he yanks his shirt off while disappearing down the hall toward his room. He’s going back to my dirty Alex and I’ll admit that I love this side of him.

It’s been a few years since he’s taken me mud riding and I miss it. I could definitely use the rush right now, not to mention . . . getting dirty with Alex is every girl’s dream.

I do what Alex said and quickly change into some shorts and an old shirt, before walking through the bathroom and opening Alex’s door. “I’m ready, stud. You have a lot of riding to make up. I want it fast and dirty. No holding back.”

Alex grins while pulling up his old pair of holy jeans. Fuck me. I haven’t seen those in a while. They were always his riding jeans and he looks sexy as sin in them. “Easy, firecracker.” He winks and throws on an old black V-neck. “I never hold back. Fast and dirty is what I’m known for.”

Oh fuck me . . . that mouth. I want it all over me.

I pull the hair tie off my wrist and throw my hair into a messy bun, ready to get dirty. “All windows down?”

He laughs and kisses me on the side of the head, before guiding me through his room. “You know it . . .”

It takes about twenty minutes to get to our special riding spot. It’s muddy as hell and full of bumps and hills, making it the perfect spot. The thrill is one of the best feelings in the world, and doing it with Alex has always made it that much better.

He turns to me and flashes his sexy as sin dimples. “Hold on tight, baby. I haven’t taken this old truck out in a long time. I’m ready to play hard . . .”

My heart starts beating fast from adrenaline as Alex punches the gas and we start flying through the mud, slipping and sliding with no other cares in the world; just like when we were young, stupid, and trying to find a way to escape.

“Whoa!” I scream while gripping onto anything I can grab. Mud splashes through the windows, sticking to my face. Alex looks over at me, muddy, my mouth gaping open and laughs at me, then turns the wheel and slams on the gas and brake at the same time.

“Hell yeah!” Reaching over, Alex pulls me into his lap and wraps his arms around my waist. “Ride it, baby.”

Smiling, I grip the wheel and push Alex’s legs out of the way, ready to tear through this mud and dirty us both. Alex has always loved being in charge when it comes to riding, but I have a feeling it turns him on to see a girl driving his truck. I’m not saying no to that.

I slam on the gas, gliding through the mud between trees, feeling Alex getting hard beneath me.

Focus Tripp. Do not think about his . . . Ooh . . . his boner. I feel Alex grind his hips beneath me, pulling me even further into his muscular lap as he releases a small growl next to my ear. I would definitely rather do that kind of riding over this kind any day.

Alex’s hands stay wrapped around me for the next forty minutes or so as I do everything in my power to get him as muddy as possible. Unfortunately, getting him muddy meant me eating mud a few times, but it was so worth it.

Dirty Alex is the best Alex. Did I already mention that?

“Damn girl.” Alex lifts me up, setting me back over into the passenger seat once coming to a stop and shifting the truck into park. “I’ve never seen you ride so hard.” He pulls his bottom lip into his mouth and bites it, before grinning. “Tastes like mud. Fucking delicious.”

We both laugh, me a little harder than him, but I can’t help it. The faces he makes can keep me entertained for hours. His animated eyebrows say it all.

“You like the taste of mud, huh? Does it taste good?” I tease. Wiping mud off the side of my face I fling it at Alex’s face.