“That’s how it can often start,” Adrian says, nodding. “It’s in the books.”

“One thing just led to another.”

Adrian stops scratching at the blotch on his face to study his fingers. “Did you rape her?”

“Like I said, one thing just led to another.”

“Did you kill animals when you were a kid?” Adrian asks, returning to his scratching.

“Did you?”

“Umm . . .”

“Remember the deal, Adrian? I was going to answer your questions but only if you answer mine.”

“I remember.”

“Was it a cat or a dog?” Cooper asks.

“How did you know?”

“But it’s never gone beyond that, has it? You’ve never killed a person?”

“No, never,” Adrian says, looking down, and Cooper can tell he’s lying. Adrian is a killer. The odds at getting out of here slip a little more. Hopefully the other people Adrian has killed haven’t been people he collected in this room.

“Tell me about it,” Cooper says.

“It was a long time ago,” Adrian says. “At school, I used to get bullied.”

“So did I,” Cooper says, though that isn’t true. He never got bullied and he wasn’t a bully. He was more of a ghost—people didn’t really see him.

“It was all the time. I didn’t get beaten up every day, but I got teased every day, and punched or pushed at least every week. I hated school.”

“It can be tough,” Cooper says, “but you survived it.”

“One day these kids beat me up really bad. I had to go to hospital. I was in there a while. They kicked me heaps and put me into a coma. The coma didn’t hurt, but the rest of it did.”

“That sounds awful,” Cooper says, wishing the kids had finished the job.

“It was awful. I wanted to get revenge on them but they were all bigger than me and there wasn’t anything I could do. I wanted to kill them. I would follow them home, but, but . . . like I said, they were all bigger than me.”

“So you started killing animals?”

“Pets. I started killing their pets. There were eight boys that beat me and they all had pets. Cats or dogs. At night I’d sneak out of my house and hang outside their homes. It took only a few days to learn what kind of pets they had. I didn’t think they’d all have them, but they did.” Adrian moves back to the coffee table. He begins to straighten up the books again. “Eight cats and two dogs because some of them had more than one pet. I started with the cats because they were easier to get to. I took a packet of cat food and when I caught one I held it down and wrapped it in a blanket so I wouldn’t have to see it, then I’d just jump on it. They would move around like a thousand volts was being pumped into them, and then they’d stop moving. When I unwrapped it the cat would always feel floppy and warm, like it was fast asleep. I’d leave the animal on their front lawn. Because I wasn’t going to school anymore, I could hang out near their house most of the day. I’d watch where they buried the pet, then that night I’d go back to visit the grave.”

Cooper says nothing. He can feel his mouth hanging open. The room still smells of vomit, and he is sure he’s going to be sick again. He takes a deep breath and thinks about what he’s just listened to. “You went back to the houses to gloat?” he asks, knowing it’s extremely common for serial killers to visit graves of their victims. The original theory had killers doing this out of guilt or remorse, but they learned serial killers were doing it to relive the excitement, to gloat. But not when the victims were animals.

“No. Not go gloat,” Adrian says.

“You felt bad?”

“No.”

Cooper doesn’t understand. It’s always one of those two reasons. “Then what?”

“I used to dig them up.”

“What?”

“It wouldn’t take long because the earth was always loose. I’d dig them up and hang them outside the front door. The people stepping out in the morning would always scream, and I’d be standing a few doors down to watch. There was a lot of waiting involved, but the payoff . . . the payoff was always worth it. I loved seeing their faces. I wanted to kill every pet those kids had. I got caught jumping on the fifth cat. The police came and then everybody thought it would be best if I got sent away, not just for their safety but for mine. So I got sent here, to the Grove.”

“The Grove?”

“It’s what we called it.”

It’s unlike anything Cooper has ever heard or read about, and it’s one of those rare moments in his life where Cooper just doesn’t know what to say next. He gets the idea there may be many of these moments over the next day. Adrian’s behavior back then is certainly outside the scope of the textbooks.

Even under the circumstances, part of him is thinking there has to be a paper in this. Maybe even a book. He just has to get out of here.

“Can I ask you something else, Adrian?”

“It’s my turn to ask you questions,” Adrian answers. “How do you feel when you kill somebody?”

Like you don’t already know.

He can tell Adrian that he feels nothing, no ecstasy or remorse, but he takes the other path instead. “I like to hear them beg for their lives. Is that why I’m here?” he asks. “Because you want to be like me?”

“You wouldn’t want to be like me,” Adrian says. “I’m too average for anybody to want to be like me.”

Adrian is right. Being like him is the last thing Cooper wants. “I doubt you’re average, Adrian. None of this seems average.”

Adrian doesn’t answer. Just shrugs the way an average man would when he can’t make a decision.

“What do you do for a living? Do you have a job?” he asks, wishing he could take notes.

“You think you already know, don’t you,” Adrian says, and he shuffles the books around so they’re no longer straight. “You’ve already built up a profile of me.”

It’s true, and part of the profile Cooper has come up with has Adrian sorting out colored buttons from other colored buttons, or sweeping floors, or he receives disability benefits. Does he drive? Yes, because he brought Cooper here. Does he have friends? No. Does he live here alone? Yes.

“No, I haven’t built up any profile,” Cooper answers. “Only thing I’ve been thinking about is how my friends and family are going to miss me. My mother relies on me, Adrian, to look after her.”

“You hate your mother.”

“Why would you say that?”

“Because all serial killers hate their mothers.”

True. Most serial killers do hate their mothers. Cooper loves his. “You’re right, Adrian, I hate my mother,” he says, the words sitting uncomfortably. He can’t stomach the idea of her finding out he’s missing. “But she still relies on me, and I’m worried about what she’ll do if I’m not there to help her. I’m scared of her.”

“It’s all going to be okay. I promise.”

“And the police? They’re going to be looking for me. Have you thought about that?”

Adrian smiles, and Cooper can tell that he has. “I’ve taken care of that. For you. You don’t want them finding out you’re a serial killer, I mean, you don’t want them knowing, right?”

“How have you taken care of it?”

“I’m tired,” Adrian says. “I’m not used to staying up late. We can talk again tomorrow if you like. I know I want to. I hope you want to too.”

“Of course I do, buddy,” he says, and Adrian winces and Cooper knows he’s pushed too far.

“I’m not your buddy,” Adrian says. “You’re trying to trick me.”

Shit. Now what? Own up? Or jump further in? “It’s true,” he says. “I don’t know what it is, but there’s already a connection between us. Come on, Adrian, you must feel it too, right?”

“You think I’m a fool,” Adrian answers, and with that, he turns away and runs up the stairs, leaving Cooper alone in the dark, angry and disappointed with himself.

chapter fifteen

It’s my first day waking up as a free man. I put my phone on charge and refuel on a bowl of cereal before heading out into the heat to find Emma Green alive and well. That’s the goal. That’s the frame of mind I’m going to keep. Yesterday was hot and today is even hotter. There are no clouds in the sky and if there were they’d probably catch fire. Mother Nature is holding her breath because there isn’t the slightest hint of any breeze. Smoke hangs to the south over the Port Hills, blazing scrub fires turning the sky out there gray. Last night I left the rental in the driveway and I suffer for that now, the steering wheel hot to touch and my sunglasses, which I left on the dashboard, burn the bridge of my nose. I leave the doors open and let things cool before hitting the road. It’s nearly ten o’clock and the traffic is much thinner than it would have been an hour ago. Everybody looks tired. Everybody looks like they want to take the day off from whatever it is they’re doing and spend it inside sleeping. It’s no different when I reach Canterbury University. The parking lot is a quarter full and the silver birches lining it are less tree than they are kindling. The people climbing out of their cars are all in a daze.