To his mind, a perfect day would be one where he did not wake at all, where he would be allowed to forget about the death and disease that ravaged the place he called home. He thought about these things as he waited for the alarm to sound, for the digital bleating to cry out in such tortured tones that he would have no choice but to sit up and let the sleep slough off from his body. It was a pointless fit of indolence, he knew, to spend those minutes consumed with thoughts of what he desired not to do, rather than utilizing them for anything productive. Life was like that, an endless series of opportunities to waste your existence in between mandated stops along the way.

With that assumption in place, Detective Knox wondered what was the point of life, why we made the effort to live and breathe each day, when we got so little in return, and the end could come so quickly. The logician in his head could not be silenced, and Knox became consumed by the ugly thought that perhaps nothing mattered. He tried to shake the thought free, to break the bond tying him to it, but a new shoot grew every time he sawed off the limb.

Detective Knox's internal clock never failed, and as he turned his head to the side, he watched the colors change shape with the passing hour, as the wretched noise rose from the tiny box. He let out a deep rush of air, and threw his hand off the edge of the bed, where it landed heavily atop the clock. Each day he hoped the plastic would grow brittle enough to crack under the pressure, for the circuitry to burst forth like the innards of a fatal wound, but the cheap device persisted. It was, like the roaches, one of the last things in the world that would die.

Kat enjoyed the mornings, the crispness of the air, the singing of the birds. They were her favorite times, not least because her husband was fast asleep, and unable to ruin her enjoyment by pointing out all the flaws. She regretted feeling as she did, but she preferred her husband when he was unconscious, because these were the most intimate times they shared. She could open herself up, tell him all the things she knew he didn't want to listen to, in the hope that some of them would sink into his subconscious.

Every morning, as Detective Knox stumbled into the kitchen, she would stare at him and wonder how two human beings could be wired so differently, could see the same world as such radically different places. It never occurred to her that such a huge difference should have ruled them incompatible. It was a fact, no different to any other, rather than a grand pronouncement on the subject of his humanity.

Kat poured the coffee as her husband took his seat, his mind clearly somewhere else. The dark aroma would coax him back into the world of the living, and perhaps leak through and warm his heart. As he took his first sip, he looked up at Kat, and for the first time in ages did not see the expected smile.

“What's wrong? You don't seem like yourself.”

“Relax, I'm fine. You didn't miss any clues, so there's nothing to worry about.”

“So what is it?”

“It's you, not me.”

“You've been waiting to use that line for a long time, haven't you?”

“I have indeed.”

Kat winked as she said this, an affectation Detective Knox was not fond of. He preferred the plain-spoken, being blunt and honest, without the vagueness that comes from subtext. Despite all appearances, his world was black and white at its foundation.

“So what did I do this time?”

“You didn't do anything.”

“This is getting old very fast. Will you please just tell me what's going on?”

“Read the paper. It's right in there.”

Knox grabbed the flimsy rag, peering to make out the fuzzy type. The Herald was no prestigious bastion of journalism, a fact it took full advantage of. Whether through corporate greed, general incompetence, or a sense of morality making sure people did not realize the extent of the city's problems, the news arrived each morning weak and torn, the type blurred and smeared, perhaps by the tears of the unfortunate delivery people who mistakenly read the headlines as they moved up and down the streets.

The headline was clear, resonating in his head as Knox continued reading. The words were daggers, chipping away at his icy exterior, the anger seeping through the cracks. In all his years as a detective, never before had his abilities, nor his very dedication to the job, been questioned, let alone publicly. The editorial was not just an attack on the police, but on him personally, a broadside that caught him with full force.

“This is absolute garbage.”

“I know it is, but what can you do about it? People are going to think what they're going to think.”

“Thinking it is one thing, but printing it is something else.”

“Did you ever hear of a thing called freedom of the press?”

“That doesn't mean they're free to write lies that are going to cause people to panic. It's irresponsible, it's despicable, and everyone who had a hand in that piece should be praying to their deity for forgiveness.”

“That's a bit much, don't you think?”

“Maybe. I don't know. I'm not up to date on what religion thinks about stoking the fires of civil unrest.”

“You could try going to church and finding out.”

“I told you before, it's not just that I don't want to go. They made it clear they don't want me there.”

“You've even been deemed unsaveable by the father of forgiveness. Congratulations.”

“It puts me in strong company.”

* * *

Detective Lane rounded the corner, confused as to where he was meeting his partner. Detective Knox had only given him the bare minimum of information about the place, along with a promise that he would tell all when Lane arrived. Being left in the dark was not a new experience for him, but it was usually explained by Knox exploring new trains of thought, and not having the time to bother informing everyone else of the possibilities. This time, however, Lane could think of no reason why they would be meeting in this particular place, nor what connection it could have to their latest clue.

Detective Knox was standing, impatiently shuffling his weight from one foot to the other, his hand already on the door handle, waiting to pull it open. As Lane came into view, Knox flung the door wide, throwing himself inside. Lane rushed to catch up, if only to find out the cause of such a frenzy. He had never seen Knox move so quickly, or show such a display of emotion. For as long as Lane had known him, Knox was as stoical and philosophical a person as he had ever met. For him to be so unlike himself was a cause for worry.

Knox was waiting for him at the elevator, his large hand holding back the door as the motor struggled to shut it. Lane jogged over as carefully as he could in slick-soled shoes, taking care not to fall on his face and further delay their progress. Though he did not know the circumstances they found themselves in, Lane knew better than to do anything to increase Knox's ire. A quiet man explodes the loudest was the proverb, or parody of one, that Lane thought to himself as he boarded.

“What's going on?”

“Did you read the paper this morning?”

“No, I can't say I did. I don't care to learn about even more bad news than we encounter on a daily basis.”

“That's not a bad idea. I wish I hadn't today, but then these people would get away with it.”

“With what?”

“That putz who's been writing those editorials about how we can't solve the Hobbes murder was at it again, only this time he's telling everyone to fear for their lives, because we can't protect them.”

“I see where this is going.”

“Yeah, the paper's offices are upstairs, and I'm going to give them a piece of my mind. They can't print that kind of trash without expecting a bit of blow-back.”

“I'm not telling you to stop, but did you think about what the brass is going to say when they get wind of what you're doing?”