Without another word, I turned on my heel and left my mother’s house, feeling worse than what I had when I arrived.

My apartment door had someone banging on it. I should have answered it. Instead, I stayed in bed and hid under the covers.

Whoever it was gave up, and I was thankful for the silence.

It took time, but I finally fell asleep, tears staining my pillow.

Quinn called the next day, and the day after that, and the day after that.

My phone was blowing up with missed calls and text messages. All of which I ignored.

There was nothing I wanted to say to him, but his messages were breaking my heart.

Quinn: I’m the world’s biggest asshole. Please answer the phone, Mia.

Quinn: Baby, please. I’m so sorry. I know you don’t want to talk to me and I get it, but please give me a minute to apologize.

Quinn: I feel like shit. I hate what I said and I didn’t mean it. I don’t even know why I said it. I hate myself probably as much as you hate me right now. But I’ll say it again. I’m so sorry, Mia. So sorry.

Quinn: Please, Mia. Talk to me.

Quinn: Okay, I get the message. I’ll stop, for now.

Then finally, the one message that cut me deeper than the others.

Quinn: I was jealous.

What was I meant to do with that? Was that Quinn admitting that he felt more for me? Or was that Quinn admitting he didn’t like people playing with his toys?

I didn’t know what to think, so I did what I did best. I pretended I was okay.

Harry came to my apartment the day after the Mom incident. I answered the door and slumped, ashamed of myself. “Hey.”

With his hands in his pockets, he attempted to smile. “Hey. Can I come in?”

I pushed the door open and stepped aside. “Soda?”

“Yeah.” I went to the fridge, got us both a diet soda, and sat on my beanbag. Harry sipped his drink, searched my face, and then asked what he was obviously dying to. “The other night with Mom…where did that come from?”

I shrugged. “Years of brewing, I suppose.” Then I added quietly, “When you bite your tongue, it builds up, you know? It’s like I didn’t have a choice, Har. It just spewed out.” His lip twitched. I asked, “How’s Mom?”

He blew out a breath. “Sad.” Shit. My chest ached with the tidbit. Harry added, “But I think she needed to hear it, and although I wouldn’t have done it in quite a loud and dramatic way, I think you did good.”

I was not expecting him to say that. My throat thickened. “You don’t think it was harsh?”

He nodded. “Hell yeah, it was harsh, but it was all true, and sometimes the truth hurts.”

I swallowed hard, looking down at my feet.

“What’s wrong, Mia?” Harry asked before adding quietly, “Someone took your smile.”

That was all I could handle. I dipped my chin, crumbling as my shoulders shook in silent sobs. Lifting a hand, I swiped at my eyes. “I’ve had a bad week.”

Harry made his way over, took my hand, and hauled me into his arms, hugging me tightly. “Minnie.” I rested my head on his shoulder and sobbed. “You just cry it out. Cry that sadness away.”

A few minutes of crying and I felt like talking about it. Pulling back, I reached for the tissue box. “Thanks for that.”

“It’s okay. You know, I don’t think I’ve seen you cry like that since Mark Wayne cut off one of your braids in seventh grade, which makes me think there’s a little more to this.”

He always knew when something was wrong with me. This was Harry. I could talk to him about anything. Couldn’t I? I tested the water to see if it would get weird. “You’re right.” I sighed, wiping my eyes with a tissue. “There’s this guy…”

His shoulders tensed and he gritted his teeth. “Wait, what guy? Who? Did he hurt you?”

I shook my head. “No. Well, yes, but not in the way you’re thinking.” I did my best to explain it. “I really liked him, Harry, and I think he liked me too. But he told me he wasn’t looking for a relationship. I went on a date the other night, and he was waiting for me when I got home. I think he just wanted to see me, and he did.” I winced. “Coming home from my date. With my date.”

I thought about Kit and how wonderful he was when I called to tell him I wasn’t ready to date again. He took it in good grace and offered me his friendship. He was a genuinely nice guy and I wished him all the best.

Harry looked uncomfortable, but not enough to stop me from continuing.

“He said some awful things, Harry. Mean things. Things said to inflict hurt. Things that I don’t think I can forgive. He keeps apologizing and saying he didn’t mean what he said, but I don’t know.”

Harry nodded slowly, processing what I’d just told him. “Sometimes men can be really stupid, Mia. It sounds to me like this guy saw you with another man and realized he was losing you, and he got angry about it. He probably said some things out of anger, and things said out of anger are designed to hurt. I’ve done it. Haven’t you ever said something you wish you could take back?”

Yes, I had. I’d done it just the other night with my mom. “Yes,” I whispered.

Harry smiled. “They say you don’t know what you’ve got till it’s gone, and it seems this guy of yours panicked. He reacted badly. Let me ask you this. Was him acting that way out of character?”

My response was immediate. “Yes, completely. I was shocked…and disappointed.”

“And you like him?”

My eyes filled with tears and I choked out, “I’m in love with him.”

My brother smiled at my declaration. “I’ve not seen you make a bad decision in your life, Mia. You’ve always had a good head on your shoulders. I think you should trust your gut. What does it tell you?”

“It tells me to forgive him. But not right away.”

Harry tipped his head back and laughed. “Okay, so let him stew for a while.” He stood, lifted a hand, and squeezed my shoulder. “As a man, I can tell you that we can be real idiots, but we’re not all bad. If you’ve found someone who you think is right for you, I’ll trust your judgment.” He walked to the door and I followed him. He stepped outside and we said our goodbyes. Just as I went to close the door, he called out, “Mia.” I looked over at him. He uttered a sincere, “I hope you work it out with your guy.”

I smiled at him and closed the door, leaning back against it.

Me too, Harry. Me too.

The next morning, I woke, showered, got ready for work, and stepped outside my apartment.

And almost smooshed the white box directly in front of my door.

I frowned at it, picked it up, and then brought it inside. Lifting the lid of the box, my eyes widened at the message frosted on the red velvet cake.

Sorry I was a dickhead.

Underneath the message was a vanilla-frosted cartoon-like penis. I couldn’t help but smile. Shaking my head, I chuckled lightly. Lifting my phone of out my pocket, I sent a text.

Me: You think you can win me over with cake?

His response came a minute later.

Quinn: No. Definitely not.

Then,

Quinn: Unless if it worked. Then yes.

A smile stretched at my cheeks.

Me: Well, it didn’t.

Quinn: But you’re talking to me. That’s more than I could have hoped for right now.

My smile waned.

Me: I’m not ready to forgive you.

His response was delayed.

Quinn: Okay, Mia. And I know you’re sick of hearing it, but I need to say it one more time. I am so sorry for what I said to your date. I’m sorry I hurt you. If I could take it all back, I would. I miss you, and I miss your laugh. I never want to see you look at me the way you did that night. It will haunt me for the rest of my life.

A moment later came,

Quinn: I’m not letting you go. I’ll fight my corner. You deserve for someone to fight for you.