“I can’t imagine why she’s doing anything. I think she hated B-Girl.”

“You have no way of knowing that. Just because she acted disinterested with a group she knew were counting on a dramatic reaction, shows she’s cunning and fast on her feet. I refuse to underestimate her abilities, and if I were you I wouldn’t either.”

“Really?” I ask weakly.

“You will never know how she really feels about B-Girl until you are together alone and have a chance to talk it out. I sense that won’t happen until she knows you are safe from his treachery.”

“I guess,” I say uncertainly.

“Give her some time, Son. She will come to you when she’s ready. Remember she was hit hard yesterday too. It also doesn’t sound like she has a support system like you do. She was exposed and humiliated from the conference room footage. She no longer has a job, whether by her volition or not. Finally she found out that the man she was in love with, kept a very large secret from her, that involved her, for their entire relationship.”

His words hit me hard, my angry outer shell cracking and falling in small pieces around me. I take a swig of water and sit a little taller in my chair. “What do I do now?”

“You need to focus on your defense and cooperate with Walter. Go through all of your art and look for anything at all that could help your case. Take rigorous care of yourself during this time of extreme stress…no more binge drinking. Your electrolytes must be completely out of equilibrium.”

“Everything’s out of whack,” I admit, rolling my eyes.

“You need to structure your day, workout fastidiously and eat healthy.”

Damn…my Dad and his practical insanity can be incredibly annoying at times.

“Eat healthy?” I stretch out my legs and notice the Scooby-Doo on my right shin must have gotten doused with scotch at some point last night.

Dad stands. “Look, get in the shower and I’ll find something in the kitchen for you to eat. When you’re done, you need to start going through your archives. We’re meeting with Walter in the morning.”

At first the hot shower feels like a thousand needles penetrating my skin, but after a minute it actually soothes me. By the time I get out and dry off, I start to feel human again…still miserable, but at least human. When I step into the kitchen I smell brewing coffee and peanut butter.

Arthur looks stern as he shakes his head. “Your cupboards are practically bare, Nathan. The best I could do is peanut butter and jelly. There’s barely evidence here of two major food groups, the other three are completely missing. I’m surprised you aren’t showing signs of malnutrition.”

I shrug. “I love peanut butter and jelly. And I usually have milk here for my Lucky Charms cereal, but Brooke and I were so busy this week and I ran out. That’s another food group…three outta five, Dad.”

He just shakes his head, as he pushes the plate towards me and then pours a mug of coffee.

He joins me at the table and like a papa bear, watches me slowly eat. We don’t talk, but we’re comfortable in the silence. As my head starts to clear I can’t help but appreciate that he’s here trying to help me.

When I’m done I push the plate away, and briskly rub my face. “Okay,” I say, trying to assure him I’ll be all right, even if I’m not so sure myself.

“Okay,” he responds relieved. “So are you going to get to work now?”

I nod.

“Good boy.”

I smile at him, and he smiles back when he realizes how that sounded.

He stands to leave. “I’m going to call you later and if I don’t hear progress, I’ll be back,” he warns grinning.

Did my Dad just do a Schwarzenegger-Terminator impression? I can’t help but smile. “Okay. Thanks Dad.”

He pulls me into a hug. “I love you, Son. We’re going to get through this.”

“I believe you, Dad. And I love you too.”

• • •

As I pull open the first drawer in my home office, my internal struggle starts. I close my eyes wincing. I’m just not sure I can do this right now. I open my eyes and briefly look at the neat stack of drawings. Every sketch makes me think of Brooke, and Starbucks cups, Arnold taking B-Girl, and Sketch Republic going on without me. Resisting the urge to flee, I look over to the window and notice my Wonder Woman figurine perched on the nearby shelf. I get up and walk over to her, admiring her majestic stance.

With a sudden impulse, I pick her up and carry her back to my desk area. I pose her on top of the bookcase facing where I’m trying to work. A feeling comes over me.

“Hey, Wonder Woman,” I say in a quiet voice. “I could use a little motivation right about now. Could you help me out?”

I don’t even feel like the freak I am as I study her, waiting patiently for her response. “If you could talk, I bet you would tell me to be strong…wouldn’t you?”

I reach over and tip her head forward like she’s nodding.

“Can you share a little of your super powers with me? And as long as I’m going down crazy lane, can I ask one other thing?”

Her little eyes gaze at me intently.

“Can you look out for Brooke too?”

I don’t even have to nod her head for her, because just then the light from the window shifts and she kind of glows. I might be imagining it, but it gives me comfort nonetheless. She’s going to help show us the way.

I reach into the open drawer with new resolve. My heart may be shattered, and I still fear I may never hold my Brooke again, but I’ve got to prove to myself and Brooke what I’m made of. I’m gonna try to fight for my B-Girl like any superhero would.

I look back at the little heroine and nod. “Okay, Wonder Woman, let’s get this done.”

Animate Me / Chapter Twenty-Seven / Persuasion

“As long as these pants are square and this sponge is bob, I will not let you down!” ~Spongebob Squarepants^xxvi

I’m already awake and have finished my Pop Tarts when Morgan calls.

“Whoa, Nathan…the inmates have taken over the asylum!”

“What do you mean?” Morgan needs to get better at this phone stuff. She keeps freaking me out.

“I’m calling to hear if you knew about the artist uprising at work today?”

I think back to my conversation with Dani and Nick. Oh no. What the hell did they do? “Uprising?” I ask, the fear evident in my voice. “No, what’s going on.”

Morgan sounds completely gleeful. “I just got a call from my friend in accounting. She went in a little early cause her month ends are due, and said there are posters of Arnauld as a monkey all over the building. It’s some kind of pro-creative propaganda statement. Maintenance was trying to take one out of the elevator as she rode upstairs to her floor, but it’s completely glued down.”

Arnold as a monkey? I remember the caricature I had done of him a while back, swinging through the rain forest holding a very small banana. That drawing was in the stack Nick and Dani rescued for me. Fuck…they didn’t…

“Holy shit,” I gasp.

“You don’t know the half of it,” she says excitedly. “Go turn on your computer, and go to the Sketch Republic homepage.”

“The public homepage?” I ask, filled with a twisted combination of thrill and terror.

“Uh huh,” she says smugly. “I’ve got it open on my blackberry. I must say, it’s a fitting tribute to our noble leader.”

I rush into my studio and flip open my laptop. “Okay, it’s on and warming up.” I can sense her impatience over the phone.

“So is the homepage open yet?”

“No, wait a sec.” My fingers fly over the keyboard as I type the web address in my browser. I feel the blood leave my face as the image comes up. It’s my drawing all right, and they’ve added bits of accent colors. The brightest spot is the hot yellow of Monkey Man’s tiny banana. But it’s the copy accompanying the drawing that takes my breath away.