“It’s not just about possession.” She paused for a moment but was determined to go on, to explain what beat so incessantly at her. “I want the security of knowing I am . . . owned. Oh, but that’s such a terrible word and yet I can’t think of a better one. I want to be cherished, protected, pampered . . . valued. I want the man to know me as well as I know myself. I want him to anticipate my needs and fulfill them but at the same time I want to be important to him. I want him to be strong. Capable. Dominant without being an asshole. For just a little while, I want to be in his hands. To give myself into his care and keeping and be able to trust in him to shelter me, pleasure me and teach me how to please him.”
She suddenly felt so vulnerable, as if she’d exposed herself in the most brutal of ways. She felt naked, stripped bare by her own words.
“Look at me,” he said gently.
Her chin came up and she met his gaze.
“You don’t trust me yet, and you shouldn’t as we’ve only just met. But you will come to trust me, and when that happens, you’ll give yourself into my care and keeping. When you do that, I will give you what you most want. What you need. And I’m going to love every damn minute.”
CHAPTER 7
Julie scurried around her salon like a drunken salamander. Nathan was due for his massage in five minutes, and she was seriously reconsidering her mad seduction plan.
She stopped in front of one of the full-length mirrors and arranged her shirt for the tenth time. It was low-cut and cupped her breasts like a lover’s hands. Her cleavage was plumped up like two ripe melons and it threatened to strain right out of her neckline.
Perfect.
“Oh hell,” she muttered as she rearranged her shirt again. “I look like a whore on the make.”
Worse than that, she looked desperate.
With a glum look at her reflection, she sighed and turned away to get the oils ready. She’d chosen them especially for Nathan because all her other stuff was too girly. Nathan . . . mmmm, he was all rugged man. He needed something that wouldn’t make him smell too soft and flowery.
She pushed her cleavage up one more time before she headed into the massage room. A few times leaning over Nathan, a brush or two against him, maybe an accidental shove of her bosom into his face as she leaned across to get a towel.
Surely he couldn’t continue to ignore her. She just needed to be brave. More forceful. Own her sexuality. Yep, that was it. Faith had owned hers (and then some), and Serena was well on her way into sexual slavery.
She rolled her eyes and shook her head. Sexual slavery, for the love of all that’s holy. What possessed the woman? Not that the idea of Nathan tying her up and having his wicked way with her didn’t inspire some serious heavy breathing, but she had some wicked and wild fantasies and in half of them, Nathan was completely and utterly at her mercy.
A decadent smile curved her lips as her groin tightened and pulsed. Oh, hell yeah, did she have plans for one Nathan Tucker. He didn’t realize it yet, but he was going to be hers. And he’d never know what hit him.
Her business line rang, and she reached for it even as she surveyed the massage table to make sure everything was in place.
“Julie’s,” she sang out.
There was a slight pause. “Hey, Julie, this is Nathan Tucker.”
“Hi, Nathan, are you running late today?” Hell, even her voice came out all breathy like some sixteen-year-old crushing on some college guy.
“Uh, that’s why I’m calling. I can’t make it today.”
Her heart sank. “Oh. Well, okay.”
“Can we reschedule?” he asked.
“Uh, sure, let me just check my schedule.”
She walked over to the counter where her appointment book sat and rifled through the pages, though she knew every time slot by heart.
“When would you like to come in?” she asked.
There was another pause and she heard him talking in the background to someone else. And then she heard a very feminine voice float through the line. There was a light giggle and then, “Oh, I’ll give you a massage, Nathan. No need to pay someone else.”
She stood there feeling ten times a fool. She glanced down at her cleavage and laid a hand over her chest to shield the low-cut shirt.
“Stupid,” she muttered.
“What was that?” Nathan asked.
“Nothing. Did you want to reschedule or not?” she asked through gritted teeth.
“I’ll tell you what. Let me call you in a few days and we’ll set up a time then.”
“Sure,” she said stiffly. “Have a nice day.”
Before he could respond, she hung up the phone and blew out her breath with puffed cheeks.
“Look on the bright side, Julie. You were saved from making a huge ass of yourself.”
Serena walked out of her apartment to the parking lot where Damon’s driver waited for her. She had to stifle the giggle that threatened to emerge when she saw several of her neighbors openly gawk in curiosity.
Tonight’s date with Damon was at his home. That fact made her a little nervous because they weren’t meeting on neutral ground. But at the same time, she was looking forward to seeing him in a more intimate environment.
She’d dressed in jeans and a T-shirt, purposely not going for an overtly sexy look. He was already well acquainted with her desires, and she didn’t want to pressure him, to make everything about sex. She wanted to feel comfortable around him and vice versa.
When she arrived, Damon greeted her in the circular drive of his large home. He opened the door and held out a hand to help her out.
To her surprise, he too was dressed casually, and if she thought he couldn’t look any better than when he was outfitted as Mr. GQ with the expensively tailored slacks and silk shirt with the leather loafers, she was dead wrong.
The man was simply to die for in a pair of tight-fitting jeans and a T-shirt that molded to his muscled arms and chest. His loose clothing from before had disguised just what a tight body he had.
He kissed her cheek in a casual manner before turning to guide her inside. Cooler air washed over her when they walked into the house. She followed him into a luxurious sitting room where a fire burned in the hearth of a large stone fireplace.
She did a double take and then turned to him with an expression of surprise. “A fire? In this heat?”
“I like the ambience,” he said. “It lends the room such a homey feeling, don’t you think?”
It did at that. “I love it. It was just a shock to see at this time of year. Heck, it doesn’t get cold enough down here in the winter for a fire most years.”
“I very much like my creature comforts,” he said with a smile. “You might even say I’m spoiled, but my needs are few, and I like to see that they are met.”
Oh, yes, he would take such good care of her. She could feel it, and God, she couldn’t wait.
“Please, make yourself comfortable,” he said as he gestured toward one of the leather couches. “Would you like something to drink? A glass of wine, perhaps?”
“That sounds lovely,” she said as she settled in the soft comfort of the couch. “Whatever you choose will be fine.”
He smiled that predatory smile, one that said he liked making her choices very much.
She kicked her sandals off and tucked her feet underneath her as she settled further into the couch. He was right about one thing. The room was homey and comfortable, and thanks to the rush of cool air being pumped in by the air-conditioning, the fire didn’t warm things too much.
Damon returned a moment later and extended a crystal wineglass down to her. Then he retreated to the armchair across from her and sat down.
She took an experimental sip and let the flavor burst over her tongue.
“Good?” he asked.
“Perfect.”
He nodded and smiled.