I take a moment just to stare at him. A white, sleeveless undershirt stretches across his broad chest now, making his tan biceps look huge. And with his dark, messy hair and scruffy five-o’clock shadow darkening his jaw, he looks as if he just stepped out of an ad for men’s cologne or something. Sometimes I wonder if he’s even real.
I eventually peel my eyes away from him just long enough to situate the sweatshirt and boxers I had been holding on one stool, and I take a seat on the other.
I don’t say anything. I just go back to watching him as he puts two pieces of bread into the toaster and then moves to the stove, adjusts the flame and then turns the bacon over in the skillet with a pair of tongs. He’s done this before. Every movement is like clockwork.
“Do you need any help there, Ace?”
I’d rather just watch him and his sexy self, but I also feel a little guilty not helping.
He glances back at me. “Nah, I’ve got it all under control. You just sit back and relax, baby.”
I smile and then prop my elbows up onto the counter and rest my chin in my hands.
“Where’d you learn to do all this?”
He keeps doing what he’s doing, but he does find a moment in between flipping and placing some scrambled eggs onto a plate to look back at me.
“This?” he asks, eyeing the stove.
I nod my head.
“My grandma,” he says. “She’s one hell of a cook.”
“What about your mom?”
He laughs. “She’s one hell of a woman, but she’s no cook.”
I laugh to myself as he sets a plate and a tall glass in front of me.
“Scrambled eggs, bacon, toast and orange juice,” he says, smiling proudly.
I look down at the plate and breathe in the aroma of breakfast. It’s a foreign smell. Breakfast for me is usually just a strawberry cereal bar from a generic, cardboard box.
“Jorgen, this smells and looks so good.”
He turns back to the stove, and after another minute, sets another plate and another glass of orange juice onto the counter next to mine. Then, he picks up my old sweatshirt and boxers from the stool and places them on the couch behind us. He’s careful with the clothes — almost as if he knows what they mean — meant — to me. The simple gesture makes me feel better somehow.
I wait for him to take a seat in the barstool next to me before I dig into the bacon.
“Mmm,” I say, chewing. “I think I’ll keep you.”
I swallow, and Jorgen finds my big, cheesy grin. I take another bite of the bacon and flash him a quick wink. And just like that, he seems to freeze. I start chewing slower and slower and then finally force myself to swallow. His eyes are serious now.
“I love you, Ada.”
I lower my head and feel my heart start to race. I don’t even think. I just say what I want to say in this very moment.
“I love you too,” I say, lifting my eyes to his.
A grin slowly crawls across his rugged morning face, and then, I watch as he picks up a piece of bacon and takes a big bite.
“You know, this really isn’t so bad,” he mumbles to himself as he eyes the bacon.
I’m still staring at him when his wide-eyed gaze finally falls onto mine again.
“What?” he asks. “I’ve loved you since the moment you showed up at my door naked.”
Without warning, a soft laugh escapes me. I swear I don’t know what I’m getting myself into. I go back to my plate and stick my fork into some scrambled eggs, but I keep an eye on him. And all the while, I can’t stop smiling. The three little words I thought I would never be happy to hear again from a man just melted my heart. And he had said them over eggs and bacon, as if it were just another day — as if I should have known all along how he felt about me — as if I should have known all along that he loved me. And I had said them too, and I hadn’t shattered; I didn’t break. I’m still fully intact. I mean, I had every reason to, but I never gave up on love, not even after… I stop and push the memories back.
I still believe in love. And now, in one morning, I had woken up with my first love, crawled into bed with my new love, shed a layer of my old life, had grown a new one and had said I love you—all before finishing my eggs, bacon and toast.
Chapter Twenty-Five
Love
“Well, what do you want to do today, Ada Bear?”
Jorgen picks up my plate and sets it into the sink, while I take in a deep breath and breathe out a smile.
“Nothing. Absolutely nothing.”
He nods his head. “Absolutely nothing sounds pretty good to me.”
He comes up behind me and kisses me softly on my neck, sending goose bumps down my arms and legs. Then, all of a sudden, he scoops me into his arms.
I laugh out loud and tighten my arms around his neck. He carries me to the couch and lays me gently down, then lies next to me and rests his forehead on mine.
“I do love you,” he says.
I let go of a wide grin. “So I’ve heard.”
“You know, I pictured it being more romantic when I said it — like maybe there were fireworks in the background or rose petals on the floor or there was this plane writing it in big cloud letters in the sky. But you just looked so darn cute in my sweatshirt, and you said you liked my bacon; I just had to say it.”
I laugh. “I did like your bacon. And I liked that you said it over breakfast.”
He’s quiet for a moment, but he keeps his eyes in mine. I wish sometimes I could tell what he was thinking.
“I don’t know what it is about you, Ada, but I want to be around you all the time. I mean, I know it’s only been a few months, but I just know, you know?”
My eyes drop from his. I can feel the heat rushing to my face.
“You’re just so dang beautiful,” he goes on, brushing a strand of my hair out of my face with the back of his hand, “with your green eyes and your pretty lips and your little nose.” He presses his lips to my nose, then pulls away. “But it’s not just that. Ada, you make me laugh. And you’re grounded. And you really see people, you know?”
My eyes venture back to his. I’m still blushing, but now my eyebrows are also knitting together a little. I’m not sure what he means.
“In your stories — every day — you see more in people,” he explains. “You see more than just an old man owning a bunch of old tractors or an eccentric woman who might or might not harbor strange illusions about cats. You can appreciate that some things are strange and you can laugh about them, but you can see past it all too. You see a soul, a life, a heart that beats.”
He lowers his eyes. “That sounds really corny.”
“No,” I say. “It doesn’t.”
Now, he’s blushing. It looks cute on him.
“Well,” I say, “if you had my job, you’d learn to do that too.”
I watch him slowly shake his head.
“You didn’t learn that, Ada. People don’t learn that sort of thing. That’s a heart thing. You either got it or you don’t. That’s what my dad always said, anyway.”
My gaze gets stuck on the leather in the couch.
“Well,” I say, “I might be able to see well enough to tell someone’s story, but you actually put your hands to people. I admire that.”
I find his blue eyes.
“I really admire what you do — more than you know,” I continue. “I can’t imagine how much courage it takes to see what you see every day and to still put a smile on your face at the end of it and to still want to get up the next day and do it all over again.”
I stop and look away. I don’t want him to see my emotions betraying me.
“Thank you,” I say.
“Why are you thanking me?”
The words are on my tongue. I want to tell him that someone like him once rescued me, but I let the moment pass instead. I’m afraid I’ll fall into a billion, tiny pieces, and I won’t be able to put myself back together again.
“Because you probably don’t hear it enough,” I say instead.
I lock onto his eyes again and fall deep into their shade of blue. Then, all of a sudden, I feel his strong arms tighten around me.