“Oh, that’s nothing. A few beads are always dropping off—the work’s done in India and shipped back.”

“India?” Babe touched another half-finished dress. “Where do we get our linen?”

“China.”

“Mainland China?”

He laughed. “Of course.”

“And our lace?”

“Everything’s from China. Linen, lace, silk. The labor’s cheap, knock wood, and they keep their delivery dates.”

Babe could recall the distinctive touch and smell and look of Irish linen and French lace and Italian silk, textures she had used and mixed as an artist might combine pigments.

“What does this sell for?” She touched another dress.

“Twenty-four hundred.”

She stared at Billi with disbelief. “Wouldn’t we sell more at eighteen?”

“Babe, our clientele has expanded beyond a hundred of your WASPy best friends. Our hungry customers wouldn’t want anything for eighteen. They’re insecure. Twenty-four guarantees that it’s good. All our pricing’s done by a top market analysis firm.”

She could feel there was something she wasn’t tuning in on. In their silent way these clothes were telling her that fashion had gone its own independent way while she’d been asleep.

“We’re selling a hundred times the volume we did seven years ago.” Billi held a door for her. “And that’s just the clothes. Licensing brings in a good third of our gross.”

“What do we license?”

“All kinds of goodies. Perfumes, chocolates, wines, gourmet frozen dinners. You’ll have some at lunch. Where you’ll also meet our designers.”

“Funny—when I went to sleep I was our designer.”

“And now you’re our star.”

Billi took her down yet another corridor, stopping to introduce her to people whose names she couldn’t even start to remember. They all seemed to be bursting with projects for designing and publicizing and promoting.

“My little garret,” Billi announced.

With its gleaming glass and plastic surfaces, Billi’s office gave the impression of a surgery. On a chrome desk, buttons on two telephone consoles were flashing. On two walls, transparencies hung by steel clips beside illuminated viewing screens.

Babe leafed through the designs stacked on an easel by the window. The clothes were sharp-edged and aggressive, with jolting contrasts of color and extreme juxtapositions of texture. She stopped at a sable jacket worn with jeans. “Whose are these?”

“Mine.”

“You drew them?”

“No, no, no. I have a cabine of five designers—they submit sketches and fabric ideas. They have twenty-five people working under them.”

She let the sketches fall back against the easel, thinking of the days when she had run the Babethings boutique and atelier with a total of fifteen tailors and seamstresses and beaders. As she turned she noticed the large black eye of a computer terminal on the table next to the drawing board. “What’s that monster?”

“State of the art three-D simulator,” Billi said. “We use them to store designs, compose, revise. It’s quite handy. It’ll help your drawing.”

The computer screen reminded Babe of the surface of a stagnant pond: murky, dark, with infinities of microscopic menace swirling just below. “It won’t help my drawing,” she stated firmly.

“Babe, chérie, once you get your footing I’m going to see to it that you give progress a try. Now come along. One last stop.” Billi took her down a hallway and swung a door open.

She stood letting her glance scan the room. Her sense of déjà-vu carried a disturbing adrenal kick.

“It’s my old office furniture!” she cried. “You kept it!” She gripped Billi’s hand where it lay on her shoulder. “Billi—you angel!”

She lurched forward, caught her balance, then went slowly around the room, touching the gilt beechwood chairs, the antique French desk, the grandfather clock—all as familiar as the props of a recurrent dream. Placing her crutches against the wall, she sat at the desk and pulled open a drawer.

“I didn’t dare clean out those drawers,” Billi said. “Though they certainly could have used it.”

“You’d better not have.” Babe foraged happily through the familiar rubble of pens and doodads and scratch paper and cloth swatches. When she found a picture postcard she gave a delighted yelp.

“What’s that?” Billi said.

Babe looked at the postmark. “It’s from Mathilde—from Brittany. She went back for a week’s vacation to that old farm of hers just before I—before my coma.”

Mathilde had been the matron of Babe’s atelier—a wonderfully capable seventy-year-old Frenchwoman whom she’d hired away from Saint Laurent. “I wonder how she is. Does anyone ever hear from her?”

“I heard Mathilde was dead.”

Babe’s heart gave a little stab. “Oh, no.”

Billi shrugged fatalistically. “Well, she was old.”

“How’s work?” Dr.’ Corey’s hands moved over her in slow, careful motions, touching her with rubber hammer, icy steel stethoscope, inflatable plastic tourniquet with crackling Velcro clasps.

“I’m getting in a few days a week,” Babe said. “Trying my damnedest. But it’s like learning a language all over again.”

“You’re learning a lot of things all over again. You ought to be getting pretty adept at it.”

“I wonder,” Babe said. “I’ve been having some trouble.”

“Trouble with what?”

“Memories.”

“Forgetting things?”

“No—just the opposite. Remembering things.”

“That’s a good sign,” Dr. Corey said.

She smelled rubbing alcohol, then felt the cool touch of damp cotton, followed by the jab of a needle in the crook of her arm. She was aware of a slow uneasy warmth spreading outward from the skin puncture as blood was drawn up into the cylinder of the syringe.

“But these memories are like shadows,” she said. “I can’t get a focus on them. It’s as though they were someone else’s, not my own.”

“You’re a shrewd observer. The fact is, we all have memories that aren’t our own.”

Dr. Corey withdrew the syringe, offering her a smile. She wanted to believe that smile.

“Freud has a case of a nearly illiterate Austrian servant girl. She remembered and recited entire chapters of Leviticus in perfect biblical Hebrew. She’d never studied Hebrew and she could hardly speak her native German. It turned out she’d been employed by a Lutheran pastor. At night while she was sleeping he’d stomp up and down his study, declaiming the passages—ergo her memory. She heard Leviticus without realizing she’d heard it. The girl was considered a prodigy until Freud found the explanation.”

Babe ran her fingers up and down her arm, touching the little circular bandage Dr. Corey had put over the vein. “But the girl was a prodigy. The memory was hers.”

The column of the doctor’s neck swelled. His tone became explanatory, as though he were addressing a student. “The memory of the pastor was hers—but the memory of Leviticus wasn’t hers in the same sense. She’d suppressed the pastor but retained the sound, not the meaning, of his nocturnal recitations. Memory is an idiot with one hundred percent retention. Like an old relative who babbles on too long. On the other hand, consciousness and understanding are selective. It’s the selecting process—the selecting out of links—that gives us the impression of uncanny recall.”

“I’m not following that.”

“I’ll give you an example. One patient of mine—president of a leading brokerage house—remembers President McKinley’s assassination even though he was born forty years later. What he doesn’t remember is that his grandfather witnessed the assassination and loved to talk about it.”

“How do you know he heard his grandfather if he can’t remember?”

“His mother remembers her father telling the child when he was four years old. The shooting terrified the child, but he adored his grandfather. So in his mind he separated the two.”

“But Leviticus in Hebrew really exists, and McKinley’s assassination really happened. What about things that didn’t happen? Is it possible to think you remember them?”