“Not yet. Stay a little.”

She glanced at him. “A little time out?” she said softly. She walked over to him. “Got a cigarette?”

He took out the pack, half dry, and lit one, then handed it to her. “Isn’t this what we’re supposed to do after?”

She looked away. “Everything’s backward, isn’t it? Maybe we’re ahead of ourselves.” She shook her head, a weak smile. “Now, too. We’re ahead of ourselves.”

“Molly—”

“It’s all right. He’s why you’re here. I–I just came along for the ride.”

“That’s all?” he said.

She looked up at him, her eyes caught. “I thought so.” She took a drag on the cigarette. “Anyway, it’s too late now. Let’s just get through it. Two days. But no tourist post, okay? No letters. They look for that. You don’t want to end up in a Czech jail.”

“It’s not that.”

“Oh. I thought—” She stopped short, waiting now.

He looked at her. They had started together, a bar in London. “He wants to go home.”

“What?” As if she hadn’t heard, had missed a joke. “What are you talking about?”

“He wants me to arrange it–to get him out.”

“Are you crazy?”

“Maybe he is. But that’s what he wants.”

“He can’t be serious. You think they’re going to let him out? It’s not the kind of trip you make twice.”

“He thinks he can.”

She took a breath. “Nick, listen to me. Don’t get involved with this. I mean it. You don’t know–it’s different here.”

“I don’t have to do anything here. Just deliver a message.”

She looked up at him. “To whom?” Then she looked away, as if she had overstepped. “Tell him to deliver his own message. Go to the embassy or something.”

“He can’t. You know that.”

“Why not? Maybe they have forms for defectors. I wouldn’t be surprised.” She stopped. “I’m sorry. It’s just too crazy. Why would he want to?”

“He’s sick, Molly. He wants to go home.”

“To jail?”

“He won’t. Not now.”

“Home free,” she said, with a hint of sarcasm. “What makes him think anybody wants him back?”

He looked away. “Maybe nobody does.”

She said nothing for a minute, watching him. “You do. It’s what you’ve always wanted, isn’t it?” She shook her head. “I don’t believe this.”

“He’s my father. I can’t just leave him here. He doesn’t belong here.”

“Nobody belongs here. The Czechs are stuck, that’s all. So is he.” She walked back toward the rain, folding her arms over her chest. “How is it supposed to work, anyway? Swap him for one of theirs?”

“I don’t know yet. I don’t think he wants me to know. He seems to have it all planned.”

“He’s crazy. You don’t go back. You just don’t. It’s a one-way thing.”

“And what if he could? And I didn’t help?” he said, almost to himself.

“So you’re going to.”

“I don’t know.”

“I do. I can tell. Look, I don’t want any part of this.”

“It doesn’t involve you.”

“That’s right,” she said sharply. “I just came along for the ride.” She looked up at the leaves, dripping now with rain, closing in on them. “Well, you’re full of little surprises today. No wonder you’re all excited. Nick to the rescue. God. He still thinks he can get away with it.”

“He didn’t get away with anything. It’s a long time, twenty years, to live like this. For something you didn’t do.”

She glared at him, a sudden inexplicable anger. “Is that what he said?”

“He’s not a traitor–not the way you think.”

“Really? How many ways are there?”

He looked at her, surprised at her tone. “What’s wrong?”

“Him. Everything. I can’t believe he’s doing this.”

“He’s sick.”

“I know he’s sick,” she said quickly. “Why do you think I came? I thought that’s what he wanted–to tell you about her. You know, a little confession. So good for the soul. I’d finally get to hear it from him.” She looked at him. “All right, from you. Why not? I wanted to know how it happened.”

“How what happened?”

“Ask him. Before you start all this.”

“I’m asking you.”

“He can’t go back, Nick. He killed her. He thinks they don’t know, but they do. They’ve always known.”

“He didn’t kill her.”

She nodded. “He did, though. He was there, in the hotel room. It’s in the police report. You can see it for yourself. He was there. He’s lying to you, Nick.” She turned to him. “Still want to get him out?” Then she stepped out into the rain and started up the hill without looking back.

The storm went on all afternoon, trapping them indoors, and Nick retreated into a kind of hangover wariness, afraid that the smallest gesture might give him away while he waited for his head to clear. Around him they busied themselves with the usual motion of a rainy day. A fuss was made about their wet clothes, exchanged for dry upstairs, Anna’s old slacks and sweater hanging loosely on Molly, a child playing dress-up, his father’s fitting him comfortably, uncannily like his own. He watched his father make a fire in the wood stove, poking at the kindling, and then they were in their usual cabin places, his father in his rocker, sitting opposite, Molly curled up in the corner of the couch with a mug of tea. Nick looked at the coffee table, half expecting to see the Sunday paper folded open to the puzzle, a pencil lying across the filled-in blocks. What did they used to do? Play Hearts. Read. Now they talked, not free to withdraw, moving words like pieces in a board game to fill the time.

Molly avoided him, chatting lazily with Anna, afraid to meet his eyes. What police report? But the presence of the others, the makeshift family, made it impossible to talk about anything he wanted to know. They picked at conversation, strained, like old army friends who think they want to see each other but have only the past in common. What they should see in Prague. What it was like last August when the tanks rolled in, everyone’s trace memory. The almost comic surprise of the Soviet soldiers, expecting to be welcomed, dodging stones. Finally Anna got up to start dinner, leaving an empty moment of silence.

“Where did you go that night?” Nick said suddenly. “The night you left?”

His father looked at him, surprised by the shift. “That night?” He sat back, as if he needed to refresh his memory. “To Canada. There was a ship. I went to Detroit. It’s easy to cross there. We had to go all the way to Philadelphia to catch the plane, in case I was recognized at National. So unnecessary. That long drive–it took hours, I remember, because of the snow. The roads were still slippery. There had been a lot of snow.”

“Yes,” Nick said, remembering footprints.

“Hours. We almost missed the plane. I remember I was dying for a cigarette. I’d forgotten my lighter, and the driver didn’t have any matches. Can you imagine, a Russian who didn’t smoke? Finally I made him stop at a gas station outside Baltimore. He went in–he wouldn’t let me. I’d be recognized. By someone pumping gas in Baltimore.” He shook his head. “It never changes.”

Nick could feel Molly stir beside him on the couch, sitting erect, watching his father.

“I mean in Washington. Where did you go in Washington?”

“In Washington,” his father said, puzzled. “New York Avenue, I suppose. We took the Baltimore Pike. He picked me up out back and we took the pike, so it must have been New York. Does it matter?”

“You didn’t stop anywhere?”

“No,” he said easily, “of course not. We were in a hurry. He knew the roads would be bad. We could have had an accident, the way he drove. How different everything would have been. But he didn’t–we made it. Does it matter to you?” he said again. “All these details?”

“Yes.”

But his father eluded him, lost now in other details, telling stories beside the fire.

“I remember the ship. My bunk, anyway. I couldn’t go on deck. The crew wasn’t supposed to know I was there. They locked me in. Nothing to read. No air. A cell. I never knew what they were carrying. Grain? Pig iron, maybe. Who knows?”