Michael dodged and blocked the onslaught of claws and teeth with incredible speed. Caught up in the action, I gasped at the sight of him. He heard it and glanced my way long enough for the creature to land a blow to his back. He flinched, letting out a low, angry sound, almost a growl, and part of me wanted to run to him, to distract the creature, to make it leave him alone. But I stood motionless, frozen in place. I couldn’t look. I couldn’t bear to see him miss, to see the beast hurt him again.

I closed my eyes. Love. Michael had told me to love. I loved him with every cell of my body and every beat of my heart. I knew it as I knew my own name or the color of my own skin. My feelings for him were absolutely true, but I couldn’t feel them. That’s all he’d asked me to do. Feel that love. Just moments ago I had burned with longing, but now I was cold and spent, like steel and ashes. I had failed. What if it were the idea of him that I loved, and not really him? Conjuring images of him would usually make my head spin, but not tonight. Tonight I felt nothing.

Lost in thought, I hadn’t noticed the air getting thicker and heavier around me, or the smell of decay growing in the air until I practically choked on it. The warding necklace Fatima had given me pulsed at my throat. I heard the demon’s menacing laughter but couldn’t see how the fight was going. If Michael was winning or in grave danger, I had no idea, but instinct told me to open my eyes.

Just inches from my face, one of the demon’s heads sniffed me, as if I were food. It smiled a sickening grimace; wet, black flesh hung loosely from its teeth, and its breath was nauseating.

My lungs tightened, making it hard to breathe, and I clenched my hands to keep them from shaking. After distracting Michael the last time, I refused to react audibly and put him at risk. It was going to attack me and there wasn’t anything I could do about it. In a way, it already was. Its presence devoured the love from my heart the way an inferno sucks the air from a building. I’d accept this willingly if it meant Michael would get free. The head of the demon closest to me stuck out a forked tongue, tasting the air around me as a stream of light and energy escaped my chest. Slowly, I backed away, refusing to look directly at the demon. Looking at it only made me feel worse.

Instead, I focused on Michael. Engaged in battle, he was ferocious as a tiger and equally as deadly to this creature. His blue sword slashed and chopped at the demon’s other heads in a whirlwind of light and fire. His shirt, damp with slime, clung to his muscled torso, and I remembered those strong arms encircling me. How safe he had made me feel. How loved. My body burned with the memory of it. A memory that gave me hope…I absolutely did love him! I was wrong to doubt it, to doubt myself. And with this knowledge, I faced the demon, its mouth open, teeth dripping with slime. It was about to sink its jaws into me and it didn’t matter. Everything would be okay.

The creature hesitated, watching me with black steam rising from its mouth. The necklace thrummed at my throat, moving like I’d never felt before. With a high-pitched hum, it shattered and fell from my neck as though it had overloaded.

Michael thrust the blade through the demon’s neck. Black ooze gushed from its head. I recoiled, refusing to shriek, as the demon’s head fell to the ground. Somersaulting, Michael leapt over the severed neck to tackle another head, which he sliced off in a single blow.

The creature bucked and writhed and its remaining heads turned toward Michael, snapping all at once.

He held his ground and raised his sword above him. “Azazel, firstborn of the demons,” he commanded, his voice echoing a baritone chorus, “as Watcher and protector of this realm, I call upon the law to banish you. Back to Hell!”

With his words, a massive purple and gold light erupted around us, surrounding the demon. In the presence of the light, its body swirled and dissolved into a black, oily liquid. Then a huge rip opened in the grass behind Michael and the beast slithered right into it. When the tear sealed itself, I heard a sound echoing through the trees, like the slamming of an enormous steel gate.

The street light flickered back on. I let myself breathe again and the air around us became light, ebullient, freshened by a crisp sea breeze. Michael retracted his sword. It pulled back into its handle and extinguished before he tucked it somewhere between his shoulder blades.

“Are you okay?”

Shocked by everything I’d seen, I blinked at him a few times before I answered. “Yeah.”

He scanned the horizon once more: the empty trail, the line of trees, the waves crashing from the harbor against the rocky shore. Then he turned to me and asked, “Wanna get a pizza?”

My stomach hardened as though I’d swallowed a lump of concrete that was beginning to set. I stared at him in disbelief. “You’re hungry?” My voice was almost a squeak.

His face broke into a wide, boyish grin. “Starving. Like I haven’t eaten in days.”

He shook out his wings, scrutinizing them for damage. After a fine mist of black liquid sprayed off them, they looked flawless and clean again, undamaged. But there were wounds on his shoulders where the demon had struck, big open gashes from teeth and claws. His shirt was torn and soaked with blood and black slime. His face and hair were also covered, his jeans ripped and spattered, yet he glowed as though his skin were lit from within. His hands radiated light as he waved them over his wounds, and the bleeding stopped. Torn flesh inched its way closed, leaving no sign but the stain of damp blood on his skin.

He looked down at the state of his clothes and let out a grunt of distaste. His expression was almost sheepish. “I guess I should clean up a bit.”

Sheathing his wings, he walked to the beach and took off his shirt, exposing a lean, muscled back, taut golden skin that looked almost bronze in the streetlight. Crouching at the shore, he splashed himself with sea water, then completely immersed his shirt and wrung it out—once white, now it was gray and pink from rinsed slime and blood. He soaked his hair, his skin, and steam rose off of him in the cold night air.

As he approached, I noticed the water trickling down the few hairs of his chest and the tiny goose bumps that formed on his skin. “This is the best I can do for now,” he said lightly. “I’ll need to go home and change. We can pick up something to eat on the way.”

I tried not to stare at his naked chest, the six-pack below it, or the damp line of hair between his navel and the top of his jeans. Flushing, I looked up at his face and caught a smile. With his wet hair pushed back, he was painfully beautiful, and I felt ashamed, somehow, for admiring him.

If he noticed me staring, he didn’t say anything. Instead, he put on his tank top wet and tied his sweatshirt around his waist.

“Are you okay to go back now?” he asked. His voice was smooth, low, and surprisingly human.

“Your shirt is wet and it’s freezing out” was the only thing I could think to say.

He let out a short, surprised laugh. “We were attacked by a demon and you’re worried about a wet shirt?”

“You’re worried about pizza,” I replied defensively.

“Hey, a guy’s gotta eat,” he said, still smiling. Then, serious again, he unsheathed his wings and stepped closer. “Ready?”

Taking a deep breath, I nodded, and he lifted me into the air. I draped an arm around his damp shoulder, and the beach disappeared beneath us. The concrete ball in my stomach rolled a few times but settled quickly as I relaxed in his arms.

Chapter Twenty-One

After stopping to pick up an assortment of pizza slices which I ended up carrying, we landed in the backyard of a large, modern-looking house. It was completely surrounded by evergreens except for the view of Seattle’s harbor peeking through the trees. Michael took me by the hand and led me along a dimly lit path toward the house, then through a glass door to a ground-level studio. As the lights flickered on, I noticed a large, open-concept living room with a tiled kitchenette. A plush off-white sofa faced a huge flat-screen TV over a gas fireplace framed on both sides by built-in bookshelves. On the other side of the sofa, a king-sized Murphy bed lay open, covered by a soft-looking gray duvet.