"And what do you think I was doing?"

I emerged then, stepping into the light spilling out of her house. She leaned up against her doorframe and watched me.

"There you are," she said, trailing one hand along my cheek, just as my shadows had done to her. "Always a joy to see your face, Naji."

"May I come in?"

"Of course." She held the door open. I could smell the steely scent of river water coming from inside her house, thescent that followed her everywhere. She was saving her money, I knew, in order to move to a new house in the canyon, close to the river where her power would be strongest.

I went inside,and she shut the door behind us.

"So you’refeeling lonely tonight?" she asked, sliding up close to me, slipping her arm in mine. I let her, of course. "Couldn't stand the thought of spending the evening withonlythose dusty old books?"

"I had a commission."

Her arm stiffened.

"Did you? I take it that it went well, if you're here for a celebratory tumble." She laughed.

I forced myself to ignore her, to not think about the unraveling magic of her touch. "You know it didn't."

"Didn't what?"

"Didn't go well!" I pulled away from her. She blinked up at me, her face guileless. "The target was gone before I got there."

"Are you sure you should be telling me that? I don't think the Order would be glad to know that you let someone beat you to the job--"

"I didn't say he was dead. I said he wasn't there."

She didn't say anything. Her hair fell across her left eye in a way that made me want to push it aside. I didn't.

"The house was drowning in fallout."

"Sounds like he got away, then."

"Someone helped him."

"Oh, Naji, I know it may be hard for you Jadorr'a to understand, but therearepeople in the Empire with more power than--"

"I saw your damned river flowers all over the place."

She stopped, lifting her chin a little, draping herself against the wall. Her expression changed. It was no longer guileless at all.

"I was hoping they wouldn't send you," she said.

"Where is he?"

She watched me for a few moments without answering. I returned her gaze.

"Did you really think it'd be that easy? That you'd ask and I'd tell you?"

"Darkest night, Leila! I can't go back to the Order unless the commissionis completed! This was supposed to beroutine."

"So stay here with me." She slid forward and reached out for me. I jerked away from her.

"Where is he?" I asked again, although I knew it was futile trying to intimidate Leila.

She slumped back and sighed. For a moment she looked older than she really was. Ancient. The sight chilled me.

"What made you think this would be simple?" she asked.

"What?"

"This commission. You said it was supposed to be routine. Why would you think that?"

"I didn't thinkyouwere going tobeinvolved, for one thing."

Leila narrowed her eyes. "You should never assume that, Naji. And you should never assume a commission is going to beroutine."

"Don't tell me how to do my job."

She put her hand on my shoulder. "I really didn't think they'd give him to you." Her voice was soft and stripped bare. I knew she meant it.

"Why not?"

"Because you're young." She looked up at me, her eyes big and luminous. In other circumstances I would have kissed her and finished our conversation in the morning. But not tonight. "Because he's a dangerous man."

"Most people would say I'm a dangerous man."

Leila's face broke open in a smile. Everything about her transformed. "Ah, true enough. But you don't like to hurt people, and he does."

"So why'd you hide him?"

"He paid me." She shrugged. "I've almost got enough to move out of the city." And then she stepped away and I could feel the negative space of her absence. She didn't look at me.

"Fine," I said. "You hid him. You did what he paid you for. I'm assuming he only paid you to hide him once? If the Jadorr'a come after him a second time--"

She looked at me over her shoulder. "Don't," she said, her voice dark. "I told you, he's dangerous. You're in over your head. Go back to the Order and tell them to send someone else."

"I can't do that."

She rolled her eyes and swirled away from me. "You won't be able to find him. I know too much about your tracking spells."

"There are other ways to track someone."

She stopped. Her hand traced along her thigh and her hip, a distracted gesture.

"Leila," I said. "If you're waiting for the rest of his payment, you know I can get that for you."

She didn't answer.

"I'll find him eventually."

Her shoulders hitched, and she looked at me again, her spine curving beneath the thin fabric of her dress. I couldn't look away from her.

She smiled sadly and said, "I'll be praying to the spirits of the river that you don't."

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After I left Leila's house I slipped through the shadows until I came to abaron the edge of the city, one that was open despite the late hour. It was also completely empty, and the waiter watched me with alarm as I moved across the room and took a table in the corner, no doubt recognizing the dark robes and carved armor thatbrandedme a member of the Order.That has always been the hardest part of being Jadorr'a. The way people look at you like you're a monster.

I stared at the waiter until hecame over andtook my order, and then I slouched back in my chair and drummed my fingers against the table. I was putting off communicating with the Order, to be sure, but I also wanted to consider the best way to track the target -- Lisim Sarr. Without my magic, I would have to use his name.

I hated thinking on the names of my targets.

The waiter brought my drink, a slim glass of sugar wine imported from the south. I drank it fast enough that my head spun. I could feel the waiter cowering next to his stack of coffee cups even though I took pains not to look at him.

I supposed I should start by findingoutwho my targetwas.

I finished my sugar wine and gestured the waiter over. He picked up the empty glass with trembling hands. "Anything else, sir?"

I pulled out three sheets of pressed copper, twice what the wine cost. "Do you know anyone named Lisim Sarr?"

The waiter stared at me like he thought I was playing a trick.

"Well?" I asked. "Do you?"

"No, sir."

I studied his face carefully, but I saw no hint that he was lying. No matter. I hadn't expected things to gothateasily.

"Ah,well," I told him. "Thank you anyway."

I pushed away from my table and walked out of thebar, leaving the waiter shivering in my wake. I needed an inn. It was ridiculous, that I should have to stay in an inn in my own city, but under no circumstancescould I return to the Order's manor house unless my commission was complete. And so I traveled through the shadows to the pleasure district, where I would have to endure filthier rooms but fewer questions. I selected an inn close to the docks and requested a room that looked over the sea. The sea and the river aren't the same, of course, but the lapping of the waves reminded me of Leila.