"I will settle for it, Marthe."
"And perhaps, after the battle, you would spend some time with me in my quarters. Or I could come to yours."
A new surprise. They had not coupled since early in cadet days.
"I would wish that, Marthe.'
"Good. Well-bargained and done."
Dawn had come, and the offensive was now set to begin an hour hence. Watching the council laboriously end its session, the two former sibkin remained silent for awhile, then Marthe spoke.
"War councils and warriors," she said. "The words sound well together, but they do not belong together. Warriors should act, not talk. It is the way of the Clan to avoid waste. We conserve material; we try to conserve lives through bidding the lowest possible force of personnel. But we have no qualms about wasting words, quiaff?"
"Aff. Marthe, I fear that the Clans are in danger of losing Tukayyid. And why? Because our numbers and combat abilities came up short? No, I do not believe that. It may be that we had already lost when we agreed to this proxy battle, lost by giving too much respect to the Inner Sphere, to ComStar."
"Respect? I respect no one from the Inner Sphere orComStar."
"And neither do I." He dropped his voice. "But perhaps our leaders do. Perhaps they have been hoodwinked by fancy Inner Sphere words.Marthe, we invaded the Inner Sphere. Invaders do battle, take bondsmen, receive isorla,leave scars on landscapes. We conquer on our terms. Now, suddenly, we are fighting on theirterms. It is not right, Marthe. Of that much only am I certain. It is not right. Once the ilKhan agreed to deal with the enemy representative, he compromised the way of the Clan. That is all I know. But I am a loyal Clan warrior and will not fight less fiercely."
"Would you prefer some kind of revolution? Overthrow?"
"No. Never. That would be Inner Sphere, too, and not Clan."
"Yes, I agree."
They were silent for a while. Aidan felt peculiar. He had never expected to find that he and Marthe would be so much alike when they met again. Once he had thought they had grown apart. Though both were plagued with doubts about the conduct of the war, he felt a certain pleasure in their secret alliance.
As the war council began to break up, Marthe and Aidan joined the exodus, stopping when they reached Marthe's hovercraft. She turned toward him, her face partially in shadow.
"What is it, Aidan?" she asked, seeming puzzled by his expression.
"In this light, you look so much like one of the Falcon Guard warriors—MechWarrior Diana."
"Perhaps her sibko shared our Mattlov or Pryde gene heritage."
"She is freeborn."
"I have never had a child."
"What a curious thing to say."
"I know. Clan warriors are rarely parents. Have you ever been?"
"Just the thought of it makes me uneasy. The mere words relating to natural birth make me uncomfortable."
"If I visit the Falcon Guards, you will show me this MechWarrior, quiaff?"
"Aff."
Marthe began to climb into her hovercraft, then turned back. "I wanted to say that . . . well, I would be proud to enter battle led by the Falcon Guards. By Pryde's Pride."
Then she was gone, vanished into the darkness of the hovercraft. Aidan walked to his VTOL, along the way hearing further mutterings from Clan commanders. Perhaps he even heard one of them call the Falcon Guards " Pryde's Denied."
* * *
Diana watched her father leave the VTOL and stride to the Guard command post. She had accompanied him during the ride to the Command Group in order to get a replacement circuit board for her 'Mech. Watching the exchange between Aidan and Marthe Pryde, she had not been sure what to think about it.
Although she strove to be a true Clan warrior, it was still difficult to purge some of her village ways. Coupling among the lower castes was much less casual than among Clan warriors, and a taboo existed against sexual contact between members of the same family. Yet, Clan warriors, members of the same genetic line, the same sibko, coupled easily and often. She did not begrudge her father the comfort of sex, but it made her uneasy to think he might do it with a sibkin.
Then it struck her that she, after all, was the offspring of Aidan and another member of his sibko, Peri. That had never seemed significant or ominous. But Peri was her mother, and Diana had grown up admiring her, though she was often absent. She recalled Peri once telling her that words for the parent-child relation were nearly obscene in the sibko, which was why Diana did not call her "mother." Peri had been raised to believe the word forbidden, the very concept of parenthood anathema. Though she had willingly become a parent, abandoning birth control in order to conceive a child by Aidan, she had gradually taught her daughter to call her Peri instead of mother.
"You look somewhat pensive this evening, MechWarrior Diana."
She turned and saw that it was Elemental Star Commander Selima of the First Delta Elemental Star. He was a tall, dark-skinned man with prominent cheekbones and a gentle mouth. The tallest of all the Falcon Guard Elementals, he towered over Diana, who was tall for a MechWarrior. She had always liked him. He was not gruff or rude like so many Elementals, and seemed capable of serious thought, another contrast to most Elementals. She had never seen him engage in horseplay with other members of his sub-caste. Generally, he held himself aloof.
"You will not report me for thinking on duty, will you, Star Commander Selima?"
"No. I saw no dereliction. My comment was directed to the expression on your face. You were thinking of something that had meaning for you."
"In a way. But it is a private thought."
"Aahhh. I had not meant to intrude."
"You did not intrude. I am glad you are diverting me from it."
"A pleasure. You are a special MechWarrior, Diana."
"Why do you say that?"
"Because you are complicated. Not many warriors are complicated."
"I am freeborn."
"That may explain it."
"You do not find warriors to be complicated? Do you not think our Star Colonel, for example, complicated?"
"Yes, I do. But like you, he is different. Examine his codex. Not the typical military record."
They talked a while longer. Before Selima left, Diana said to him, "You have not commented on my physical appearance, Selima. Men usually do."
"Elemental men?"
"Well, no, not Elemental men."
"There you have it. We do not even find each other beautiful. We would hate it if we did."
"I hate it, and I am not Elemental."
"You, MechWarrior Diana, are a genetic misfit," he said with a smile that made his words sound complimentary. "And now I bid you good night."
The tall Elemental loped away gracefully, returning to his Star's assembly area.
Diana was suddenly unhappy. This night, which should have been filled with the sound and fury of battle, was filled with words instead. Walking quickly and then breaking into a run, she went toward her BattleMech to prepare for the attack. Well, she thought, at least for now the words will stop.
27
Prezno Plain came to an abrupt end, reminding Aidan of the ancient Terran belief that the world was flat and people would drop off the edge when they reached the end of it. What a piece of strategy that might have been, Aidan thought, staring at the view of the plain's end on his primary screen. What if ComStar had been able to arrange for a flat world so that the Clans would gallop right off its edge? The image was fanciful yet impressive—hordes of Clansmen in their gleaming BattleMechs running off the edge and vanishing into the vacuum of space. He shut his eyes for a moment and saw a vision of hundreds of 'Mechs disappearing into the void.