“Yes.”

“Yes. But what do you do? Not only take her out to dinner, which was stupid and thoughtless but not downright wrong—”

“But sleep with her. I know. Fuck it, Cat, I know, I know.”

“What were you thinking? You absolute and total bastard. You thoughtless, selfish, self-regarding, self-serving, mindless shit.”

Felix looked up at his mother’s suddenly raised voice, his small face crumpling. “Now look what you’ve done.” Cat picked her son up and took him on to her knee. He was sticky and radiating heat. Cat buried her face in his damp fair hair. She was shaking.

Simon sat in silence. She was right and he knew it and he was furious with her. The one person in the world by whom he had always felt unconditionally loved, the one person he trusted and to whom he had always been able to tell anything, had spun round and hit him hard in the face.

“I’m not sorry,” Cat said weakly. But she did not look at him.

“Clearly.”

“I don’t know why I’m crying because I’m right and I’m glad I said it, it wanted saying, you’re the one who should be crying.”

“Leave it.”

“Of course we can’t leave it.”

The air was thunderous. They sat in silence, Felix burrowing into Cat’s shoulder and kicking his feet against her, fractious in the heat. Simon twisted his beer glass round and round. He wondered if he had better not simply go, now, let the air clear between them for a few days rather than stay on for supper and have a sour evening.

Cat set a reluctant Felix down on the grass. “Come on, let’s give the chickens their corn.”

She took his hand and they went slowly off, Felix waddling beside her towards the paddock. She did not look back. Simon sat on miserably. The last time he and Cat had fallen out it had taken the death and funeral of their sister to bring them together again.

He got up. Felix was standing on the paddock rails, held firmly round his waist, waving his arm imperiously at the chickens. Simon stood beside them.

“Why?” he said at last. “I need to understand why and I don’t. I can’t.”

“Why do I harangue you? Why do you behave so badly to women?”

“Why am I like this?”

“Oh God.”

“Big question.”

“For a hot afternoon.”

“The thing is, I’m not unhappy. Inside my own skin.”

“Bully for you.”

“Cat c”

“Sorry. But listen to what you just said.”

“OK, I’m a selfish bastard.”

“Among other things. A whole lot of much better things.”

“Thanks.”

“Look, I’m not your psychiatrist, I’m your sister. The only thing I think you have to decide PDQ is what to do about Diana. Because you owe it to her. And don’t say you don’t know.”

“I don’t know.”

“Are you in love with her?”

“Absolutely not.”

“Do you like her?”

“I enjoy her company.”

“Would that be enough for you?”

“Christ, Cat, I don’t want to marryher.”

She looked at him. “Here, take him.”

Simon took his nephew and sat him on his shoulders as they walked towards the shed to collect chicken feed. Felix drummed small feet into his chest, squealing with pleasure. The shed was cool and smelled sweetly of the dry corn and meal in galvanised bins against the wall. Cat lifted a lid and began to scoop some into a bucket and the dust rose in a pale golden cloud.

“OK,” Simon said, “but what should I do?”

“Not for me to say.”

“That’ll be a first then.”

“No, I mean it, Si. It isn’t. You need to work it out. What do you want, who, where, when? I’d do most things for you but I can’t do that.”

She scattered corn into the dry patches of soil around the hen run and the birds began fussing about, busying themselves among it. Felix drummed his heels again.

“Maybe I should just get right away, Cat? And don’t tell me only I can decide.”

His sister linked her arm in his. “OK, just say that again, but this time replacing the word ‘get’ with the word ‘run’. Think about it while I put sir down for his nap and fetch you another beer.”

Thirty-six

Lynsey was finishing her shower when the phone rang at ten past eight.

“Hi, it’s Mel from Towers Rogers.”

“Hey. You’re in early.”

“I know, but you’ll like this. You know the fishing tackle place?”

“Behind Gas Street?”

“That’s the one c there’s the warehouse, the place they use for a shop which is actually the old lock-keeper’s cottage.”

“You’d never know. It’s a mess.”

“Someone—I can’t say who—put in a plan for getting rid of the lot and replacing it with a block of flats but now they’ve gone bust. Since then local planning has tightened as you know and presumption is now not to knock down and have new build. The council wants the whole site restored in keeping for part housing, part small workshops for local people.”

Lynsey sat down at the kitchen table. “You have my interest.”

“Thought I might. It’ll go out from here tomorrow. You’ve got twenty-four hours to suss it out and decide.”

“That’s not very long.”

“I’m not even supposed to be giving you that. If anyone finds out both our arses are bacon.”

“What ballpark figure would we be looking at?”

“It’ll go to auction with a guide price of ninety as a come-on, expect to pay upwards of one thirty, maybe a hell of a lot more.”

“So if I’m interested, I could put in a pre-emptive of what?”

“I’ve given you the figures, Lyns. Up to you now. Have to go.”

Forty minutes later, Lynsey was parking her car in one of the side streets leading to the canal. She had a map of Lafferton on the passenger seat and knew roughly where she was headed but not how accessible the site would be, whether she was even allowed to be there.

In the car, she had run through figures in her head. Whether she had to put in a pre-emptive bid or risk attending the auction, she had to find a great deal of money. This would be the biggest project she had undertaken but Mel knew that she had been looking for something like this for over a year. To convert one of the last redundant buildings sympathetically, to bring it back to its old glory and yet put it to new uses in the contemporary world, was a dream she had been keeping warm. Everything she had done as a property developer up till now had been relatively small. She had no doubt at all about her abilities, about the people she could call on, about her taste and eye for detail and period, about how something like this could be turned into a major success. Whether she could—dared—raise so much money was another matter.

She got out of the car, folded the map and put it in her pocket. The street was quiet and shady. The forecast was for another hot day. She could see the tow-path and the gleam of the canal.

“Lizzie! Oh God, Lizzie, please c”

She stopped.

“Lizzie, wait.”

He was a few yards from her, beside the entrance to the Old Ribbon Factory. He looked more unkempt and wild-eyed than she had remembered.

Lynsey touched the mobile phone in her pocket for safety.

“Wait.” He came towards her.

“I am not Lizzie,” she said firmly. “Whoever Lizzie is, I am not her. You mistook me for her before. I’m sorry. I have to get on now, I’m meeting someone, I’m late for an appointment.”

“Why are you doing this to me?” He reached out a hand. Lynsey shrank back. “Why did you come down here? Down this street?”

“I told you. I have an appointment.”

“You’re doing it on purpose. Because you look like her.”

“I don’t know you. If you don’t leave me alone now, and let me get on without following me or shouting after me again, I’ll have to call the police.”

“From behind you could be her. Everything. Not when you turn round, not when you talk, but from behind you’re Lizzie.”

“No,” Lynsey said gently, “I’m not Lizzie. You know that.”

She began to edge away from him, not turning her back completely, keeping her hand in her pocket, touching the phone. She wished someone would come out of one of the buildings but no one did. She wondered how long it would take to run away, how long before the police might come, whether he would follow her towards the canal. Perhaps it would be better to turn back. Someone might drive down this street any minute but once she was among the old buildings and if he came after her, anything could happen.