He nodded toward the door and grinned. “Let’s go.” Then he made his way to the door to
walk out of the safety I had found in his room. I couldn’t seem to get my legs to follow him.
When he glanced back to see I hadn’t made a move to go with him, he chuckled and shook his head. Then he held out his hand to me and waited.
I liked holding his hand. I could do this. I took a step forward and slipped my hand in his. The warmth was back, and I was able to take a deep breath again. Okay. This was good.
“Come on, little dancer,” he said gently, then led me out of the room and down the hall.
The music was louder out there and the laughter and voices reminded me of how I didn’t fit into this world. I was a loner. I liked being a loner. As if Krit could read my mind, he squeezed my hand reassuringly. Right. He was with me. This was his crowd, and he wasn’t going to let anyone say anything to hurt me.
“Where’d you two go?” Green asked with a frown on his face, but I couldn’t hear Krit’s response over the noise.
I started to say something to Green, who was really nice and who I had felt comfortable with right away. He had a friendly smile. Before I could speak to him, Krit pulled me over to stand beside him. “Here’s a beer,” he said, handing me a red plastic cup. I took it, although I wasn’t sure I was going to drink it. I didn’t like the way alcohol smelled.
“You left me,” the blonde I had seen him with when I arrived said as she walked up to him and turned her back to me.
“A friend showed up. Sorry, babe, but I’m going to spend some time with her. I’ll find you after she leaves,” he replied with a wink, and tugged me closer before walking us toward the sofa.
The girl pouted at him then shot an angry glare at me. She was upset that I was taking her date away. She should be. I wasn’t going to make any friends by doing that.
Krit sank onto the sofa, pulling me down beside him. I could feel people staring at us. Were they all mad that he wasn’t with the blond girl? I studied the cup in my hand, unable to lift my eyes.
“Who’s this?” a curious male voice asked. He didn’t sound angry. He sounded nice.
“This”—Krit slipped his finger under my chin and lifted it so that I was now forced to look at the person speaking to him—“is my new neighbor, Blythe. Blythe, this is Matty. He’s the drummer in our band.”
Matty had bright orange hair that stuck up in all different directions. I wasn’t able to focus on much else. I had never seen hair quite like his before.
“Hello, Blythe,” Matty said, and I realized he had a warm smile and friendly brown eyes.
“It’s nice to meet you,” I croaked out. The nerves weren’t letting up. Speaking to strangers was hard.
Matty’s grin got bigger, and he shifted his gaze back to Krit. “Dude,” he replied, and shook his head. I watched him take a long drink of the beer in his hand.
“Matty can be a douche, but we overlook his lack of verbal skills,” Krit said so close to my ear that his warm breath tickled the sensitive skin there.
I shivered, and Krit went very still beside me. Before I could start worrying about my reaction, his hand tightened its hold on mine. Again the warmth calmed me.
“Dude,” Matty said a second time, now chuckling. “Shitting me,” he muttered, then turned his attention to me and smirked. “Careful with him, sweetheart.”
“Don’t,” Krit said in a hard voice that startled me.
Matty’s eyebrows shot up, then he walked off. He had seen me. He saw what everyone
saw. I wanted to leave. Krit was the most accepting person I had ever met, and I didn’t want to meet anymore of his friends, because I was sure they would all react like Matty had.
“I need to go,” I told Krit as I tried to slip my hand from his.
“No,” he said, tightening his grasp. “Ignore him,” he said.
I wished I could have ignored him, but I had spent my life dealing with people not wanting to be around me. And there was a beautiful blond woman there who wanted to be with Krit. He was trying to help me fit in, and he was being so kind about it. I couldn’t do this to him.
“I am really tired. Thank you for … for sitting with me and talking to me,” I said. “But I really am ready to go back to my apartment.”
I managed to get my hand free, and I stood up quickly and darted for the door. I kept my head down and my attention focused on not tripping and falling. Once I was free of the apartment, I took a deep breath but kept moving.
“Blythe.” Green’s voice called out to me, and I wanted to ignore him and get to the safety of my apartment. But he had been nice to me.
I stopped and looked back at him. He was walking out of the apartment and headed toward me. “Are you okay?”
I nodded and forced a smile. “Yeah, just tired.”
He didn’t look like he believed me. “You sure?”
Krit was moving through the crowd now. His eyes were on me, and he was headed my way.
I had to go. “Really, I’m fine. I just want to go back to my place.”
“Blythe.” Krit’s demanding voice stopped me from running. He sounded angry. I hadn’t meant to make him angry.
“What did you do?” Green asked him as he scowled at Krit.
“Fuck off,” he growled at Green. “I didn’t do shit. I need to talk to her, so go,” he replied, but his eyes were locked on me.
“She’s not one of—” Green started, but Krit was in his face immediately.
“I fucking know that. Not what this is about. Now, go.”
Green let out a defeated sigh and nodded before turning to walk back into the party.
“What happened in there?” he asked me.
He still didn’t get it, and I couldn’t bring myself to break the news to him that I was tainted.
“I’m just tired,” I told him.
He ran a hand through his blond locks and sighed. “Okay. I get that. If it’s the real reason you’re leaving.” He pointed back at his door. “But if this is about what Matty said, then ignore his stupid ass. He thinks I’m trying to make a move on you.” He stopped and grinned at me like he had made a private joke. “He saw you and assumed the wrong thing. I’m not blind, Blythe. I know you’re not my kind. He was worried about it. I’m not a bad guy. I would never go there with you. I see you. I get it. I was just trying to be friendly. You seemed like you needed someone to help you deal with shit, and I wanted to help.”
Oh. So he did see me. He knew. I was going to be sick. My head started pounding, and the small amount of comfort I had taken from him was ripped away. I had to go. I managed a nod before I took off running. I had to get to my apartment before I threw up. The sick knot in my stomach had exploded.
KRIT
I stood at the window overlooking the gulf as I drank my second cup of coffee. It was fifteen
minutes to eleven, but I hadn’t been up very long. Britt’s snuggling had woken me up. I didn’t like it when Britt passed out and stayed the night after sex. She touched me when she slept, and I hated being touched.
It had taken me getting trashed to fuck Britt after my sexy little shy-as-hell neighbor went running off like the bats of hell were chasing her. Shit, that girl was fucked up. It was the only explanation. The girl had head issues. Sure, she was gorgeous, and damn, those eyes were hard not to get lost in. But the head issues were more than I could handle.
Britt was easy. I liked easy.
But Britt didn’t have the sweetest smile I’d ever seen. Shit. Shaking my head, I slammed my cup down and turned around to see Green standing in the living room, glaring at me.
“What?” I snarled. I hated it when he had that judgmental look on his face.
“You know what,” he replied, annoyed. “You couldn’t just leave it alone. I had it under control. She liked me. She was getting comfortable with me. But you had to fucking prove you could get her attention. She isn’t like that. She’s innocent, Krit. Motherfucking innocent. Stay away from her.”