He went topside in haste, back to the bridge, sat down at the com and opened the port shields on night sky. He dimmed the bridge lights, threw on the outside floods, illuminating grass and small shrubs round about the ship.
He put on the outside address.
"Sax. Sax, it's Paul Warren. There's no one left but us. Listen, I'm going to put food outside the ship tomorrow. Tomorrow, hear me? I'll take care of you. You're not to blame. I'll take care of you. You'll get well, you hear me?"
He kept the external pickup on. He listened for a long time, looked out over the land.
"Sax?"
Finally he got up and walked out, down to the showers, sealed his clothes in a bag for destruct. He tried to eat after that, wrapped in his robe, sitting down in the galley because it was a smaller place than the living quarters and somehow the loneliness was not so deep there; but he had no appetite. His throat was pricklish. . . exhaustion, perhaps. He had reason enough. The air-conditioning felt insufficient in the room.
But he had driven himself. That was what.
He had the coffee at least, and the heat suffused his face, made him short of breath. Then the panic began to hit him. He thrust himself up from the table, dizzy in rising, vision blurred— felt his way to the door and down the corridor to the mirror in the showers. His eyes were watering. He wiped them, tried to see if there was hemorrhage. They were red, and the insides of the lids were red and painful. The heat he had felt began to go to chill, and he swallowed repeatedly as he walked back to the galley, testing whether the soreness in his throat was worse than he recalled over the last few hours.
Calm, he told himself. Calm. There were things to do that had to be done or he would face dying of thirst, of hunger. He set about gathering things from the galley, arranged dried food in precise stacks beside the cot in the lower-deck duty station, near the galley. He made his sickbed, set drugs and water and a thermal container of ice beside it.
Then he called the pseudosome in, walked it through the track from his bed to the galley and back again, programmed it for every errand he might need.
He turned down the bed. He lay down, feeling the chill more intense, and tucked up in the blankets.
The pseudosome stood in the doorway like a silver statue, one sensor light blinking lazily in the faceplate. When by morning the fever had taken him and he was too weak to move coherently, he had mechanical hands to give him water. Annewas programmed to pour coffee, to do such parlor tricks, a whim of Harley's.
It wished him an inane good morning. It asked him How are you? and at first in his delirium he tried to answer, until he drifted too far away.
"Assistance?" he would hear it say then, and imagined a note of human concern in that voice.
"Malfunction? Nature of malfunction, please?"
Then he heaved up, and he heard the pseudosome's clicking crescendo into alarm. The emergency Klaxon sounded through the ship as the computer topside registered that there was something beyond its program. Her lights all came on.
"Captain Burlin," she said again and again, "Captain Burlin, emergency." 2
The pulsing of headache and fever grew less. Warren accepted consciousness gradually this time, fearful of the nausea that had racked him the last. His chest hurt. His arms ached, and his knees. His lips were cracked and painful. It amazed him that the pain had ebbed down to such small things.
"Good morning."
He rolled his head on the pillow, to the soft whirr of machinery on his right. Anne's smooth-featured pseudosome was still waiting.
He was alive. No waking between waves of fever. His face felt cool, his body warm from lying too long in one place. He lay in filth, and stench.
He propped himself up, reached for the water pitcher, knocked it off the table. It rolled empty to Anne's metal feet.
"Assistance?"
He reached for her arm. "Flex."
The arm bent, lifting him. Her motors whirred in compensation. "Showers." She reoriented herself and began to walk, with him leaning on her, his arm about her plastic-sheathed shoulder, like some old, familiar friend.
She stopped when she had brought him where he wished, out of program. He managed to stand alone, tottering and staring at himself in the mirror. He was gaunt, unshaven, covered with filth and sores. His eyes were like vast bruises. He swore, wiped his eyes and felt his way into a shower cabinet.
He fainted there, in the shower stall, came to again on the floor, under the warm mist. He managed to lever himself up again, got the door open, refused a second dizziness and leaned there till it passed. " Anne."
A whirring of motors. She planted herself in the doorway, waiting.
She got him topside, to the living quarters, to his own compartment door. "Open," he told her hoarsely; and she brought him inside, to the edge of his own unused bed, to clean blankets and clean sheets. He fell into that softness panting and shivering, hauled the covers over himself with the last of his strength.
"Assistance?"
"I'm all right."
"Define usage: right."
"Functional. I'm functional."
"Thank you."
He laughed weakly. This was not Anne. Not she. It. Annewas across the living quarters, in controls, all the company there was left.
Thank you. As if courtesy had a point. She was the product of a hundred or more minds over the course of her sixteen-year service, men and women who programmed her for the moment's convenience and left their imprint.
Please and thank you. Cream or sugar, sir? She could apply a wrench or laser through the pseudosome, lift a weight no man could move, bend a jointing into line or make a cup of coffee. But nothing from initiative.
Thank you.
It was another few hours before he was sure he was going to live. Another day before he did more than send Annegalleyward and back, eat and sleep again.
But at last he stood up on his own, went to his locker, dressed, if feebly. The pseudosome brightened a second sensor at this movement, then a third. "Assistance?"
"Report, Anne."
"Time: oh six four five hours ten point one point two three. Operating on standby assistance, program E one hundred; on program A one hundred; on additional pro—"
"Cancel query. Continue programs as given." He walked out into the living quarters, walked to the bridge, stood leaning on Burlin's chair, surrounded by Anne's lazily blinking consoles, by scanner images no one had read for days. He sat down from weakness.
" Anne. Do you have any program to lift off?"
The console lights rippled with activity. Suddenly Burlin's deep voice echoed through the bridge.
"Final log entry. Whoever hears this, don't—repeat, don't—land. Don't attempt assistance. We're dead of plague. It got aboard from atmosphere, from soil. . . somehow. It hit everyone. Everyone is dead. Biological records are filed under—"
"Cancel query. Reply is insufficient. Is there a course program in your records?"
"Reply to request for course: I must hold my position. If question is made of this order, I must replay final log entry. . . Final log entry—"
" Bypass that order. Prepare for lift!"
The lights went red. "I am ordered to self-destruct if bypass is attempted. Please withdraw request."
"Cancel—cancel bypass order." Warren slumped in the chair, stared at the world beyond the viewport, deadly beguiling morning, gold streaming through cumulus cloud. It was right. Burlin had been right; he had ensured even against a survivor. Against human weakness.