For the first time, I don't want to know what he's thinking. Fear coils around my thoughts and in the pit of my stomach. After all I've been through, what could be so terrible that he hesitates to tell me? All the remarkable strength I felt after feeding evaporates with the dread building in my chest because I realize whatever it is, he doesn't think I can handle it.
And that makes me mad.
"Avery."
He turns from the window, surprised at the sound of my voice—or rather, at my tone.
"How dare you do this to me? I've gone along with all your stupid games. I've listened to your words of wisdom and accepted what you've told me I must accept. But I won't let you make me afraid. Either you tell me what's got you so spooked, or I walk out of here right now and I won't come back."
His mouth pulls into a sour grin. “You think you are prepared to go your own way?"
"You just told me that I was. You just told me that I'm still the same person, that's it's my body, not my mind that has changed. If that's true, I don't need you to live as I always have."
A glint of amusement returns to his eyes. But his mind is still closed.
And that must stop, too.
He tweaks an eyebrow at me.
I mean it, Avery. Either you open your mind to me fully and all the time, or I shut my thoughts away from you, too.
You think you can?
I watch his face as I close my mind to him.
He doesn't believe it, at first. He keeps his eyes on mine, tries to bore into my head. I refuse to look away or to allow him access.
After a moment, I smile.
It's not so hard, is it?
He smiles back. How did you figure it out?
By being observant. You do this thing with your eyes when you shut down. You narrow them just a bit at the corners. I thought I'd try it, too. Guess it works, huh?
I soften my tone. Now, can we get down to whatever it is that has you so upset? Just give it to me straight.
Avery gestures me back to the desk. All right, Anna. Sit down, please.
I settle myself in.
You want it straight, here it is. You have to find Donaldson. And you have to kill him.
Chapter Thirteen
Maybe I shouldn't have asked him to be so direct. A laugh bubbles up. “You're kidding, right?"
Does it feel like I'm kidding?
The urge to laugh dissipates like air from a popped balloon. No. It doesn't. But it also doesn't make sense. Two minutes ago you told me I wasn't like Donaldson. Now you're telling me to find him and kill him.
He pauses, a heartbeat, then, “Have you watched any television tonight? Heard any news on the radio?"
I shake my head.
Avery's eyes are grim as his frown deepens. He places his elbows on the desk and leans towards me. Donaldson has killed again.
Two more victims were found near the border. He's getting more daring and more careless. Chief Williams has managed to keep most of the details from the press, but it won't be long before someone leaks the fact that there's a killer out there draining his victim's blood.
I'm on my feet, pacing in front of the desk. But the police are looking for Donaldson. They'll find him and bring him in.
It's not our way.
What?
We have to take care of our own, Anna. We can't risk his bringing attention to our community. Remember, I told you there are people out there who seek to destroy us. Donaldson's actions are just what these people look for. Even with Chief Williams's influence, these killings will not go unnoticed.
And my tracking him down and killing him will be?
If you're careful.
Suspicion replaces surprise in the back of my mind, especially since Avery is carefully guarding his thoughts. I let the doubt seep into my voice. “Is this a set up?"
He looks puzzled. “A set up? What do you mean?"
I wave a hand at the door. “I mean I wasn't invited to join your little flock. Maybe sending me after Donaldson is a way to get rid of me."
"If I wanted to get rid of you, Anna, I could have killed you in the hospital. You had lost a lot of blood. I could have easily drained you of the rest, and no one would have been the wiser."
The abruptness of his reply gives it a ring of truth, his thoughts confirm it.
"Then why choose me to do this? Surely there are others better qualified."
He looks at me as if I've asked a very stupid question. “Weren't you tracking Donaldson down when he attacked you? Isn't this what you do for a living?"
It's my turn to stare at him. “With a big difference. When I was tracking Donaldson, it was with the intention of turning him over to the authorities. I am willing to do that again, but I won't kill him."
Now, in spite of what he's just asked me to do, his thoughts reflect skepticism about my ability to bring Donaldson in.
I feel warmth flood my face, knowing that he's remembering how easily he overpowered me just moments before.
I will be ready this time.
He raises an eyebrow. And Donaldson will be ready for you.
How will Donaldson know?
Avery's green eyes narrow. You and he have a connection. He will be able to feel your presence long before he will be able to see you. You will be able to hide your thoughts from him, but he will sense you nonetheless. You can use that to your advantage, but it can be dangerous, too.
How so? I ask
The drawback is that he will know that there is someone close that he has turned. If you are careful to keep your thoughts from him, he will not know who it is. So far, we have been successful in keeping your name out of both police and press reports. He knows he was interrupted with you, but at the rate he's killing, he may not notice that you have been omitted from his list of victims.
And the advantages? I prompt.
You will be able to sense him, too. You will know where he has been. If you hone in on his thoughts, you will know where he is going. You can set a trap—
There is a discreet knock at the door. Avery pushes himself away from the desk and crosses the room. He opens the door just wide enough to allow him to greet his visitor without revealing my presence.
It's Police Chief Williams. His thoughts are troubled. They've found another body. I must go.
I watch Avery reach out a hand. We'll take care of this. Be assured.
Williams sighs. We'd better. We haven't had trouble like this in a long time. I like it here, Avery. I don't want to be forced to move because of this renegade. He must be dealt with.
Avery moves out of the room for a moment, pulling the door shut behind him. Then he reappears and, once more, closes the door.
I assume the maneuver was to prevent me from hearing his parting shot to the Police Chief. It doesn't matter. I've already made up my mind.
I get to my feet. “I'm leaving, too, Avery."
He tries to probe my mind. When he doesn't succeed, he frowns, eyes hard. You are choosing not to help?
"I am choosing to protect myself. You have a nice little support group here of many of San Diego's most prominent citizens. The way I see it, inviting me tonight was a way to dangle the carrot. I can become a part of this exclusive club if I perform one little task for you. The trouble is, as the newest member, I am also the most expendable. If I kill Donaldson, so much the better. If Donaldson kills me, I don't upset the balance of power. You can probably find another newly minted vampire to take my place. You say this isn't a set up. Forgive me if I find that hard to believe."