He eased from the stall, moved, as he always was, by the spontaneous joy of seeing a new life begin. Hermione was acquitting herself like an old hand, but Beck would stay around to make sure the foal nursed in the first hour of its life and the mare passed the afterbirth. After that, there was little he could do to keep the odds running in the filly’s favor.

Sara, wrapped in a thick wool shawl, peered over the half door. “What a little beauty.”

“A big beauty,” Beck countered. “Hermione has an eye for the draft stallions, I think, but the filly’s elegant for all her size.”

“She’s gorgeous.”

Beck was taken aback to see a sheen on Sara’s eyes. He moved in close and wrapped his arms around her. “Mother and baby are doing fine, and all’s well.”

“I know.” This sounded more like lament than agreement. “But she’s so… dear. Precious.” Beck said nothing, thinking dear and precious applied to the female in his arms as well. When he stepped back, he kept hold of her hand.

“I’ll mind them until the baby nurses,” he assured her. “Sit with me over here. They’ll do better with a little privacy.” He tugged her across the darkened barn aisle to sit on a trunk outside Ulysses’s stall. The gelding noted their presence without a pause in his consumption of hay.

“What made you come out here?” Sara asked, her hand still in his.

“Allie told me the signs were pointing to sooner rather than later, and mares are famous for dropping foals in the quiet and privacy of the night,” Beck said. “How about you? What drew you out here on this chilly night?”

“I saw your lantern light.” Sara’s voice was soft, as if she were mindful of the peace conducive to a newly forming bond between mare and foal. “I don’t think North could have been any help, so badly is his back hurting.”

“Does it pain him often?” The ladies seemed better attuned to North’s back than the man himself was.

“When he overdoes, which is to say, yes. Last year, he tried to do the plowing alone, and it did not go well for him. Polly made him hire help for the haying and the harvest, or he’d still be sitting in the hot spring, cursing and refusing help.”

And the ladies would have been without any meaningful protection. The precariousness of Sara’s existence at Three Springs loomed more clearly in Beck’s mind.

“North and Polly are stubborn, but Three Springs requires stubbornness, I think.” Beside him, he felt a little shudder go through Sara’s smaller frame. “You’re cold.” He tucked an arm across her shoulders. “Budge up. I’m good for warmth, if little else. So when are you going to let Allie make another painting?”

He drew away again to drape his jacket around Sara then used his arm about her shoulders to draw her close to his side.

She made no protest, and the feel of her against him comforted in a way that had to do with the mare and foal and with being far from home.

“I should let Allie paint again soon. She needs to paint the way Polly needs to cook and North needs to stomp around the property cursing the weeds, the fences, and the foxes.”

“And what does Sara need?” A safer question than what Beck himself needed.

“To see the people I care for happy and safe,” Sara said. “That’s what I need, Beckman. What about you?”

“This is a mystery.” Beck resisted the urge to nuzzle her hair, was which flowing down her back in one glorious fat plait. “For now, I need to be here in this barn with you, and I need that little filly to thrive with her mother.”

“Good needs,” Sara said. “If only for the near term.”

“Your hands are cold.” Beck covered hers with his own where it rested on her thigh. “I should shoo you back into the house, Sara. You haven’t the luxury of the periodic cold or sniffle.”

“I won’t go back to sleep until you tell me the little one is nursing. And what if you hadn’t been here? North is worn out, and Polly and I wouldn’t have known what to do. How would we have managed?”

His question exactly. “Nature usually knows what to do, but you and Polly need more help here.”

Beside him, Sara pokered up but didn’t move away. “Without family in residence, there’s no reason for hiring more staff.”

“There is every reason to,” Beck said, sitting up to watch as the filly tried to thrash to her feet. “The estate needs the help, even if you don’t.”

“Should we help her?” Sara started to rise, but Beck tugged her back beside him.

“She has to figure out where her feet go,” he said softly. “If she struggles so long she’s getting too weak to stand, then we’ll intervene, but give her a chance to work it out for herself first.”

“That’s a very difficult part of parenting.” Sara sighed as she settled against him and brushed her nose near the jacket lapel, where the fabric would carry his scent. He resettled his arm across her shoulders and took a whiff of her hair.

“Difficult? Watching a child’s first steps?” Beck folded her hand in his again, and again, Sara made no protest.

“That, and the whole business of letting them struggle, letting them find their own balance. I am protective of Allie, sometimes I think not protective enough.”

As if worrying about her very livelihood and the entire manor house wasn’t enough?

“What’s the worst that can happen to her? Short of a tragic accident or illness, such as might befall anybody?”

Sara was silent for a moment; then she tugged his jacket more closely around her.

“She might meet the wrong type of man,” she said, “and let him take her from all she’s ever known, fill her head with silly fancies about fame and art and wealth, and discard her when her usefulness is over.”

Beck heard the bitterness and the bewilderment too.

“We all have the occasional unwise attachment,” Beck said gently, for it wasn’t Allie whom Sara was discussing. “And nobody chooses a perfect fit.”

“Was your wife a good fit?”

Well, of course. He should have known Sara Hunt, quiet, serious, and observant, might ask such a thing. The sense of… rootlessness in his belly grew as he considered an honest answer.

“We were not married long enough to assess such a thing.” A version of the truth. “We were both eager for the union, and our families approved.”

“How old were you?”

“Not old enough. Not nearly old enough.”

“I’m sorry for your loss. I have been grateful, on occasion, that Reynard lived long enough for me to see his true colors, to hate him. I cannot imagine losing a spouse with whom there was potential for a lifetime of happiness.”

What did it say, that a woman professed to be grateful to hate her own spouse? Beck’s arm over Sarah’s shoulders became less casual and more protective.

“I would have been grateful for a few years of contentment,” Beck said. “It wasn’t meant to be.” And what a useless, true platitude that was.

“How long were you married?”

“Little more than a summer. At the time, it seemed like forever, and then she was gone, and forever took on a very different meaning.”

“I was married for nearly a decade. That was a forever too.”

A decade was forever to grieve, forever to carry guilt and rage and remorse by the barge load. “So how do you manage now? What sustains you?”

“Allie,” Sara replied immediately. “Polly.”

“But what sustains you?” Beck pressed. “Allie will grow up, sooner rather than later, and Polly could well bring Mr. North up to scratch. Five years hence, Sara Hunt, will it be enough to polish silver, beat rugs, and mix vinegar to shine the windows?”

Would it be enough for Beckman to spend most of his year traveling, to hear more foreign tongues than English, and to be always planning the next journey, even as he turned his steps for home?

Sara was quiet, and Beck regretted the question.

He squeezed her fingers. “Don’t answer. I am feeling philosophical because my father is at his last prayers, and he was always such a robust man. I am aware that any day I could be summoned to his side, and you’ll no longer be plagued by my larking about here.”