He looked out the windshield. What would you have done if it wasnt Dawson you came upon, but me fighting the DOD or whatever the hell the other group is?
Daedalus, I said. And if it were them, I wouldve still helped.
Yeah, and thats what I have a problem with. He got out of the SUV, leaving me staring at him.
Drawing in a frustrated breath, I climbed out. He was leaning against the bumper, arms folded over his chest. He didnt look at me when I stopped beside him. I know youre upset because you worry about me, but Im not going to be the girl who sits at home and waits for the hero to wipe out the villains.
This isnt a book, he snapped.
Well, duh-
No. You dont get it. He turned to me, furious. This isnt a paranormal fantasy or whatever the hell it is you read. There is no set plot or clear idea of where any of this is going. The enemies arent obvious. There are no guaranteed happy endings and you- He lowered his head so we were eye level. You are not a superhero, no matter what the hell you can do.
Wow. Hed really been stalking my blog. But not the point. I know this isnt a book, Daemon. Im not stupid.
Youre not? He laughed without humor. Because being smart isnt rushing off after me.
The same could be said about you! My anger now matched his. You ran off after Dawson without knowing what you were getting into.
No shit. But I can control the Source without trying. I know what Im capable of. You dont.
I know what Im capable of.
Really? he questioned. The tips of his cheeks flushed with fury. If Id been surrounded by human officers, would you have been able to take them down? And live with yourself after that?
Anxiety blossomed in my stomach, its smoky tendrils wrapping themselves around me. When I was alone and it was quiet, the fact Id been so willing to take a human life was all I thought about. Im prepared to do that. My voice came out a whisper.
He took a step back, shaking his head. Dammit, Kat, I dont want you to experience that. Raw emotion filled his expression. Killing isnt hard. Its what comes afterward-the guilt. I dont want you to deal with that. Dont you understand? I dont want you to have this kind of life.
But I already have this kind of life. All the hoping, wishing, and good intentions in the world arent going to change that.
The truth appeared to infuriate him more. That issue aside, what you promised Dawson was freaking unbelievable.
What? My arms dropped to my sides.
Help him find Beth? How in the hell are we supposed to do that?
I shifted from one foot to the other. I dont know, but well figure something out.
Oh, thats good, Kat. We dont know how to find her but well help. Awesome plan.
Heat rushed up my spine. Oh, this was grand. Youre such a hypocrite! You told me yesterday wed find out what Will was up to, but you have no idea how. The same thing with Daedalus! He opened his mouth, but I knew I had him. And you couldnt lie to Dawson when he asked what youd do if they had me. Youre not the only one who gets to make brash and stupid decisions.
His mouth snapped shut. Thats not the point.
I cocked a brow. Lame argument.
Daemon shot forward, his voice harsh. You had no right to make those kinds of promises to my brother. Hes not your family.
I flinched, taking a step back. Being smacked wouldve felt better. The way I saw it, at least I talked Dawson off the cliff. Sure, promising to help find Beth wasnt ideal, but it was better than him running off like a crackhead.
I tried to rein in my anger and disappointment, because I understood where a lot of his fury was coming from. Daemon didnt want me to get hurt, and he was worried about his brother, but his inherent, near-obsessive need to be protective didnt excuse his douchebaggery.
Dawson is my problem, because hes your problem, I said. Were in this together.
Daemons eyes met mine. Not on everything, Kat. Sorry. Thats just the way it is.
The back of my throat burned, and I blinked several times, refusing to shed tears even though my chest ached so badly. If were not together on everything, then how can we really be together? My voice cracked. Because I dont see how thats possible.
His eyes widened. Kat-
I shook my head, knowing where this conversation was heading. Unless he was willing to see me as something other than a fragile piece of china, we were doomed.
Walking away from Daemon was the hardest thing Id done. Made worse by the fact he didnt try to stop me, because that wasnt his style, but deep down, in a place that spoke only the truth, I hadnt expected him to. But I wanted him to. I needed him to.
And he didnt.
Armentrout, Jennifer L.
Opal ( A Lux Novel)
Chapter 7
As expected, school resumed on Monday, and there was nothing worse than returning after an unexpected break and having all the teachers buzzing to make up for lost time. Add in the fact that Daemon and I hadnt made up after our major blowout yet and, well, Mondays always sucked.
I dropped into my seat, pulling out my massive trig textbook.
Carissa eyed me over the rim of her burnt-orange glasses. New ones. Again. You look absolutely thrilled to be back.
Whee, I said unenthusiastically.
Sympathy marked her expression. How
how is Dee? Ive tried calling her a couple of times, but she hasnt returned any of my calls.
Or mine, Lesa added, sitting down in front of Carissa.
Lesa and Carissa had no idea that Adam hadnt really died in a car accident, and we had to keep them in the dark. Shes really not talking to anyone right now. Well, besides Andrew, which was so bizarre I couldnt even think about it.
Carissa sighed. I wish they had the funeral for him here. I wouldve loved to pay my respects, you know?
Apparently Luxen didnt do funerals. So wed made up some excuse about the funeral being out of town and only family could visit.
It just sucks, she said, glancing at Lesa. I thought maybe we could go to the movies after school this week. Take her mind off it.
I nodded. I liked the sound of that but doubted wed get very far with her. It was also time to put Plan A into motion-which was reintroducing Dawson to society. Even though I was on his brothers poo-poo list, Dawson had stopped by yesterday and explained that Matthew was on board. Probably wouldnt happen until the middle of the week, but it was a go.
She may not be able to do anything this week, though, I said.
Why? Curiosity sparkled in Lesas dark eyes. Loved the girl, but she was such a gossip whore. Which was exactly what I needed.
If people expected Dawsons return, it wouldnt be such a surprise when it did happen. Lesa would make sure word got out.
You guys are not going to believe this, but
Dawsons come home.
Carissa turned several degrees paler, and Lesa shouted something that sounded an awful lot like what the duck . Id kept my voice low, but their reactions garnered a lot of attention. Yeah, apparently hes alive. Ran away and finally decided to come home.
No way, Carissa breathed, her eyes going wide behind her glasses. I cant believe this. I mean, its great news but everyone thought
well, you know.
Lesa was just as shell-shocked. Everyone thought he was dead.
I forced a casual shrug. Well, hes not.
Wow. Lesa pushed a section of tight curls out of her face. I cant even process this. My brain has just shut down. A first.
Carissa asked the one question that was probably going to be on everyones mind. Did Beth come back?
Keeping my face blank, I shook my head. Apparently they ran off together, but Dawson wanted to come home. She didnt. He doesnt know where she is.