XV
The others had needed little urging to make a run for it. Mica and the Kid were the only ones hanging around when I hit the mansion's door. Not counting the owner and half an army of citizens headed our way.
It was your basic mob. A ravening killer monster made up of harmless shopkeepers. An organism without fear because it knew its components were replaceable.
Mica screeched, "Come on, Bow-man! You going to wait till they tie you to a burning stake?"
I was not as numb as I looked. I was looking for the thousand-eyed monster's brain cells. I had eight good arrows left.
But Mica was right. The mob did not have a brain. Random fragments had begun vandalizing the grounds.
I took off round the side of the house.
As we loped along, the Kid asked, "What happened down there? Where's Barley and Priest and the Trolledyngjan and the Old Man?"
"Down there. All gone but the Old Man and the sorcerer. The thing is all chopped up, but it's still alive." "You left him there?" "He made me, Kid. You ever win an argument with Colgrave?" He just grinned.
"Hold up for a second, Bowman," Mica panted. We were in the street now and drawing some startled looks. "What happens when they go?"
"What?"
"Colgrave runs us. What do we do without him? And that wizard called us back. What happens when he dies? To his spells?"
"Oh. Man. I don't know." I was no expert on wizardry. Some sorceries devolved with the death of the sorcerer, and some did not. I could not tell him what he wanted to know.
There were shouts behind us. I wheeled. Part of the mob was after us.
"Let's take them," the Kid said.
There were about twenty of them. For a Dragon sailor, protected by the Bowman, the odds did not look bad.
The earth started quivering like a bear in restless slumber. The timbers of nearby buildings creaked.
Our pursuers stopped, looked back.
We could see the steep tiled roofs of the mansion. Cracks lightninged across them. They began sagging, as if some huge invisible hand were pressing downward....
The cracks leaked a black fog that looked first cousin to the one that dogged Vengeful D. The breeze did nothing to disperse it.
"Let's hike," I said. "While they're distracted. Maybe we can catch the others."
I was afraid Toke and Tor would sail without us.
Could anger be an absolute? The cloud over the mansion said it could be. I felt it from a quarter mile away.
That shadow was a being. It echoed the feeling I had been given by the creature in red. I now understood our ambiguous reactions to the sorcerer. He or she had no meaning if the thing were not human at all.
It was not alone. A second being held it in a deathgrip. That being radiated an absoluteness too, an utter refusal to yield to any other will.
"Colgrave," I whispered.
Colgrave had been a man, of that there was no doubt. But he had been larger than life and animated by a determination so unswerving that it had made him a demigod.
"Children of evil," Mica muttered.
We resumed walking toward the waterfront. No one interfered. We were forgotten.
The Torian Hill shook like a volcano about to give birth.
"What?" I asked.
"We are all children of evil," Mica said.
"What're you talking about?" He was off on some sideways line of thought, saying the obvious and not meaning what he was saying. "Keep stepping. I don't think the Old Man will win this one."
"He already has, Bowman. He's forced that thing to take its natural form. Look. It's fading. It can't stay here that way."
He was right. The thing was evaporating the way a cloud of steam does.
So was the thing created by the will of my Captain.
In minutes they were gone.
There were tears in my eyes. Mine. The Bowman's. And I was the deadliest, coldest, most remorseless killer ever to sail the western seas, excepting only the man for whom my tears fell.
I had hated him with a passion as deep and black and cold as the water in the ocean's deepest deeps. Yet I was weeping for him.
I averted my face from the others.
I had not wept since I did not know when. Maybe after I had killed my wife, when I had been alive and still one of the smaller evils plaguing the world.
We reached Dragon. They had the mooring lines in but the gangplank still down. The crew manned the rail. Their eyes were on the hills behind the city. Their faces showed relief when we raced onto the wharf. Then dismay when they realized we three were the last.
They had the drunk at the head of the gangplank, holding him like a hostage against Portsmouth's ill-will. "The others?" Toke asked. "They won't be coming," I replied. "What do we do?" "You're asking me?" He was First Officer. He should have taken charge.
He looked me in the eye. He did not have to speak to tell me that he was no Colgrave, that he was incapable of commanding Vengeful Dragon.
I glanced around. Every eye fixed me with that same expectant stare.
I am the Bowman, I thought. Second only to Colgrave... Second to none, now. "All right. Mica. Take the old guy and leave him on the wharf. Healthy. Tor, standby to make sail."
Some of them looked at me oddly. Letting the drunk go was not Dragon's style.
But Dragon had changed. We had learned, just a little, the meanings of pity and mercy.
"Give him something to tell his grandkids," I remarked to Tor, whose disappointment was obvious. He was the most bloodthirsty and least changed member of the crew.
A breeze rose as the gangplank came in. It was a perfect breeze. It would carry us into the channel at just the right speed. I assumed Colgrave's old place on the poop and peered at the sky. "You still with us?" I murmured.
I started. For an instant I thought I saw faces in the racing clouds. Strange, alien faces with eyes of ice, in which no hint of motivation could be read.
Was this what Colgrave had seen? Had he just looked up whenever he wanted to know if the gods were still with us?
I had a lot to learn if I was going to replace the Old Man.... I looked at the clouds again. I saw nothing but clouds. Imagination?
I paused to reflect on the fact that I was the only survivor among Dragon's four great evils.
Why? What had they done that I had not? Or was it the reverse?
The crew seemed thin. How many had been redeemed? "Toke, take a muster."
"I have, Captain. We lost five besides those you know. One-Hand Nedo, Fat Poppo...."
"Poppo? Really? He said he knew.... I'm glad for him. But we'll miss them all."
"We will, Captain."
Mica's "We are all children of evil" returned to me. I think I understood now. He was stating the reason why I could not understand why some had been redeemed and some not. The evil in us was such that we could not recognize facts laid openly before us. It would take a moment of truth, an instant of revelation, to drive the message home.
I remembered sitting with Priest and Mica and the Kid, fishing, pulling in a sand shark that just could not quit hitting our hooks. I glanced at the clouds and wondered if they would quit the way we had quit trying to teach that stupid shark.