Ned’s green eyes flash with alarm as he looks up. The big clock glows faintly behind him.

“Mary. I was just leaving you a note.”

“A note?” My throat catches. Did Ned send the note I got this morning? Does he drive a dark car?

“I thought you left for the day. Your secretary was gone, so I couldn’t leave a message.”

“He studies opera singing.”

“Opera, huh?” Ned rises awkwardly. He replaces one of my ballpoints in their mug and snatches a piece of paper from my desk.

“Is that the note?” I set my briefcase on the file cabinet.

“Yeah.” He crumples it up and stuffs it into his jacket pocket. “But you won’t need it now. I can tell you what it says. I thought you might like to grab some dinner.”

“Dinner?” I don’t know what else to say, so I stare at him open-mouthed, like a trout.

“I heard you won an important motion. We could celebrate.”

“You want to celebrate my winning a motion?”

“Sure. Why wouldn’t I?”

“Maybe because we’re competing with each other. You know, for partnership.”

He looks stung. “I didn’t even think of that, Mary.”

I sigh, suddenly exhausted by the intrigue, the guessing, the strangeness of my life of late. “I don’t get it, Ned. The last time we had dinner was in law school.”

He looks down for a minute, studying his wingtips. When he meets my eye, his gaze is almost feline in its directness. “I wanted to call you back, but by the time I got my courage up, you were practically engaged.”

It sounds genuine. I feel flattered and wary at the same time. I don’t know what to say, so I don’t say anything. I try not to look like a trout, however.

“Isn’t that right?”

“Not exactly. I met Mike after you and I went out. And I didn’t get engaged all that fast.”

“No? You looked to me like you fell pretty hard. I remember seeing you doing research in the library, you looked like you were on cloud nine. Unless it was the sheer joy of working for Bitterman.”

“Not likely.”

“How could you stand that guy? I know he’s supposed to be a legal genius, but what a jerk. I heard from Malone he was a tyrant in the courtroom.”

“And out of it. He threw a fit when I wouldn’t do the research for his second article. Reamed me out in his chambers.”

“Why?”

“The law should be my first love, he said.”

“But it wasn’t.”

I think of Mike.

Ned clears his throat. “Anyway, you looked like a woman in love, even to somebody as dense as me. I figured I didn’t have a prayer, so I settled for being friends. What a guy, huh?”

“What a guy.”

His hands shift inside the pockets of his bumpy seersucker jacket. “So. Please don’t make this any harder than it is. Let me take you to dinner.”

“I don’t really go out, Ned. I mean, I don’t know if you’re talking about going out, but I-”

“Why do we have to label it anything? Let’s just have dinner together. We’re old friends, classmates, and we went out once. I’ve been remiss in not getting hold of you sooner, but- well, there was a lot going on.” He shrugs uncomfortably. “Let’s go eat, huh?”

I can’t decide. The silence is excruciating.

“Come on. It won’t kill you.”

“Tell me one thing. What kind of car do you drive?”

“Talk about a non sequitur!” he says, with a deep laugh. It’s a merry sound, happy and relieved, and shows his teeth to advantage. They’re white and even, I bet they grew in that way. “Okay, I confess. I drive a Miata.”

“What color?”

“White.”

“Do you have a car phone?”

“You want to see my W-2? I can afford dinner, you know.”

“That’s not why I’m asking, and we’ll split dinner.”

“So why are you asking? And no, we won’t.”

“Just tell me, okay? Please.”

“Of course I don’t have a car phone. The Miata is as pretentious as I get.”

So I agree, reluctantly.

Dinner turns out to be no fun at all in the beginning, when I’m busy worrying about whether Ned rents the car he follows me around in. Then he orders me a Tanqueray-and-tonic, and it eases my anxiety on impact. I begin to enjoy the restaurant, an elegant one overlooking Rittenhouse Square, and Ned’s conversation, which comes more easily than it used to. In fact, he’s changed a lot, as far as I can tell. He seems freer, more lively. We trade firm gossip, and he confides that he’s always been intrigued by Judy. An enigma, he calls her. I find this funny, since she’s no fan of his either. By the refill of my drink, I confess that Judy calls him Cool.

“Why does she call me that? I’m not cool at all.”

“Youare cool, Cool.”

“Am not.”

“Are too.”

He laughs. “This is mature.”

“Admit it! Look at you, you’re a preppie hunk. You’re like a J. Crew catalog, only alive.” I realize I’m flirting, even as I speak. It not only scares the shit out of me, it makes me feel profoundly guilty. I celebrated my first motion with Mike, and here I am, celebrating my second with Ned. And I’m still Mike’s wife, inside. I clam up.

Ned doesn’t notice my silence and launches into his life story. He tells me about his wealthy Main Line family and his father, who’s the managing partner of the Masterson firm. When he’s finished his Dover sole, he changes the subject, as if he suddenly became aware that he’d been soliloquizing. “Only two months to go until P-day. June 1st, the partnership election.”

I move a radish around on my plate.

“I didn’t think June would be a good month for you. Isn’t that when your husband-”

“Yes.” The anniversary of Mike’s death is June 28, but I didn’t think Ned knew that. “How did you-”

“I remember. I went to the funeral.”

“You did?” I’m not sure I want to talk about this.

“I didn’t think you’d mind. I wanted to go. Mike seemed like a very nice guy. I’m sorry.”

“I didn’t think you ever met him.”

“Sure I did. You introduced us when he came by school to meet you for lunch. He rode his bike over. He rode a bike, right?”

I nod yes. I line up my forks, squaring the tines off at the top.

“I’m sorry. I guess I shouldn’t have mentioned-”

“No, it’s fine.”

“Well. Let’s see, at least one good thing will happen in June.”

“What’s that?”

“You’re making partner.”

“Please. You make it sound like a done deal.”

“It is. You’re a shoo-in. You don’t have a thing to worry about.”

Then I remember what Berkowitz said about Ned’s coming in to see him. “I heard they were only making two partners in litigation, not three. Did you hear that?”

“I try not to believe every rumor I hear, there are so many flying around. First I heard they were making three, then I heard it was down to two. This morning I heard that the Washington office was going to push through one of the lateral hires. It’s ridiculous.” He shakes his head.

“A lateral? In Washington? Shit.”

“I’m sure they’ll make three from Philly, Mary. The department’s had a great year.”

“Yeah. I guess.” I note that he doesn’t mention his meeting with Berkowitz on this very subject. I regard this as a material omission, and it makes me doubt him all the way through the dessert, shaved chocolate somethings.

Later, Ned insists on walking me home, since it’s only a few blocks from his house. We walk in silence on this muggy night, so humid that the air forms halos around the mercury vapor lights. Rittenhouse Square is almost deserted. The runners have run home, the walkers have walked. Only the homeless remain, sleeping on the park benches as we go by. I look around for the dark car, but it’s nowhere in sight.

Suddenly, before we’ve reached my doorstep, Ned kisses me. I’m totally unprepared for it, and his hesitant peck lands on my right eyebrow. I feel mortified. I worry about whether my neighbors saw. I worry about whether Alice saw. I even worry about whether Mike saw. I hurry inside, muttering a hasty good-bye to Ned, who looks concerned and sorry as I close the door.