"Are you afraid Sir Herbert is guilty?"
This time his answer was more considered. "No. No, I'm not It's a difficult case, no real evidence, but I believe him. I know what it is like to have a young woman mistake admiration or gratitude for a romantic devotion. One has absolutely no idea-beyond perhaps a certain vanity-I will confess to that, reluctantly. And then suddenly there she is, all heaving bosom and melting eyes, flushed cheeks-and there you are, horrified, mouth dry, brain racing, and feeling both a victim and a cad, and wondering how on earth you can escape with both honor and some kind of dignity."
Henry was smiling so openly he was on the verge of laughter.
"It's not funny!" Oliver protested.
"Yes it is-it's delicious. My dear boy, your sartorial elegance, your beautiful diction, your sheer vanity, will one day get you into terrible trouble! What is this Sir Herbert like?"
"I am not vain!"
"Yes you are-but it is a small fault compared with many. And you have redeeming features. Tell me about Sir Herbert."
"He is not sartorially elegant," Oliver said a trifle wasp-ishly. "He dresses expensively, but his taste is extremely mundane, and his figure and deportment are a trifle portly and lacking in grace. Substantial is the word I would choose."
"Which says more about your feeling for him than about the man himself," Henry observed. "Is he vain?"
"Yes. Intellectually vain. I think it very probable he did not even notice her except as an extremely efficient adjunct to his own skills. I would be very surprised if he even gave her emotions a thought. He expects admiration, and I have been led to believe he always gets it."
"But not guilty?" Henry wrinkled his brow. "What would he have to lose if she accused him of impropriety?"
"Not nearly as much as she. No one of any standing would believe her. And there is no evidence whatever except her word. His reputation is immaculate."
"Then what disturbs you? Your client is innocent and you have at least a fighting chance of clearing him."
Oliver did not answer. The light was fading a lhtle in the sky, the color deepening as the shadows spread across the grass.
"Did you behave badly?"
"Yes. I don't know what else I could have done-but yes, I feel it was badly."
"What did you do?"
"I tore Barrymore to shreds-her father," Oliver answered quietly. "An honest, decent man devastated by grief for a daughter he adored, and I did everything I could to make him believe she was a daydreamer who fantasized about her abilities and then lied about them to others. I tried to show that she was not the heroine she seemed, but an unhappy woman who had failed in her dreams and created for herself an imaginary world where she was cleverer, braver, and more skilled than she was in truth." He drew in a deep breath. "I could see in his face I even made him doubt her. God, I loathed doing that! I don't think I have ever done anything for which I felt grubbier."
"Is it true?" Henry's voice was gentle.
"I don't know. It could be," Oliver said furiously. "That isn't the point! I put dirty, irreverent fingers over the man's dreams! I dragged out the most precious thing he had, held it up to the public, then smeared it all over with doubt and ugliness. I could feel the crowd hating me-and the jury- but not as much as I loathed myself." He laughed abruptly. "I think only Monk equaled the hold of me as I was leaving and I thought he was going to strike me. He was white with rage. Looking at his eyes, I was frightened of him." He gave a shaky laugh as the shame of that moment on the Old Bailey steps came back to him, the frustration and the self-disgust. "I think if he could have got away with it, he might have killed me for what I did to Barrymore-and to Prudence's memory." He stopped, aching for some word of denial, of comfort.
Henry looked at him with bright, sad eyes. There was love in his face, the desire to protect, but not to excuse.
"Was it a legitimate question to raise?" he asked.
"Yes, of course it was. She was normally a highly intelligent woman, but there was nothing whatever to make anyone, even a fool, think that Sir Herbert would leave his wife and seven children and ruin himself professionally, socially, and financially for her. It's preposterous."
"And what makes you think she believed he would?"
"The letters, damn it! And they are in her hand, there is no question about that. The sister identified them."
"Then perhaps you do have a tormented woman with two quite distinct sides to her nature-one rational, brave, and efficient, the other quite devoid of judgment and even of self-preservation?" Henry suggested.
"I suppose so."
"Then why do you blame yourself? What is it you have done that is so wrong?"
"Shattered dreams-robbed Barrymore of his most precious belief-and perhaps a lot of others as well, certainly Monk."
"Questioned it," Henry corrected. "Not robbed them- not yet."
"Yes I have. I've made them doubt. It is tarnished. It won't ever be the same again."
"What do you believe?"
Oliver thought for a long time. The starlings were quiet at last. In the gathering dusk the perfume of the honeysuckle was even stronger.
"I believe there is something damned important that I don't know yet," he answered finally. "Not only don't I know it, I don't even know where to look."
"Then go with your beliefs," Henry advised, his voice comfortable and familiar in the near darkness. "If you don't have knowledge, it is all you can do."
The second day was occupied with Lovat-Smith's calling a tedious procession of hospital staff who all testified to Prudence's professional ability, and he was meticulous at no point to slight her. Once or twice he looked across at Rathbone and smiled, his gray eyes brilliant. He knew the precise values of all the emotions involved. It was pointless hoping he would make an error. One by one he elicited from them observations of Prudence's admiration for Sir Herbert, the inordinate number of times he chose her alone to work with him, their obvious ease with each other, and finally her apparent devotion to him.
Rathbone did what he could to mitigate the effect, pointing out that Prudence's feelings for Sir Herbert did not prove his feelings for her, and that he was not even aware that on her part it was more than professional, let alone that he had actively encouraged her. But he had an increasingly unpleasant certainty that he had lost their sympathy. Sir Herbert was not an easy man to defend; he did not naturally attract their liking. He appeared too calm, too much a man in command of his own destiny. He was accustomed to dealing with those who were desperately dependent upon him for the relief of bodily pain, even the continuance of their physical existence.
Rathbone wondered if he were frightened behind that masklike composure, if he understood how close he was to the hangman's noose and his own final pain. Was his mind racing, his imagination bringing out his body in cold sweat? Or did he simply believe such a thing could not happen?
Was it innocence which armored him against the reality of his danger?
What had really happened between himself and Prudence?
Rathbone went as far as he dared in trying to paint her as a woman with fantasies, romantic delusions, but he saw the faces of the jurors and felt the wave of dislike when he disparaged her, and knew he dared do little more than suggest, and leave the thought in their minds to germinate as the trial progressed. Henry's words kept coming back to him. Go with your beliefs.
But he should not have quarreled with Monk. That had been self-indulgent. He needed him desperately. The only way to save Sir Herbert from the gallows, never mind his reputation, was to find whoever did kill Prudence Barrymore. Even the escape of reasonable doubt was beginning to recede. Once he even heard a sharp note of panic in his own voice as he rose to cross-examine, and it brought him out in a sweat over his body. Lovat-Smith would not have missed it. He would know he was winning, as a dog on the chase scents the kill.